toxic parents will traumatize you and act surprised when you act like you've been traumatized

I want to destroy everything. I want to ruin my life, smash glass bottles agaisnt walls, run away into the night and get in trouble, scream and yell at the top of my lungs, get into fist fights, and stand up for myself. I want to be so so angry and loud about how awful I feel that everyone realizes that I was never okay, and I was never going to be okay, and that they left me behind to suffer. But I'm too tired. I'm too tired to move, to think. I just want to lay in bed all day and ignore the world. I just slap on a neutral face and do as I'm told. I wish I could be so angry about how sick I've become, but instead I keep quietly to myself, and live another miserable tired day.

I don't care who you are or what you've done, you should never be afraid of your parents. No. That is not supposed to be normal. You should be able to go to them when you have a problem. They're supposed to make you feel safe. They're supposed to be your home.

No se ruega amor, tiempo, ni lealtad.

solo quiero a alguien que me mire y piense "es que es ella"

they’re minor inconveniences to you, to me they’re world-ending tragedies