Ever Dance With the Devil in the Pale Moonlight?

I literally hate doing this, I really do. But I know I need the help and the best way I can try and get help is to reach out, so here I am.

Starting at the end of July, I started having pressure and stabbing pain like I’ve never felt before in my life. I wound up in the ER and was firstly diagnosed with constipation and sent home with Miralax. This did not help the problem and created a new problem of its own. I was back in less than a week to the ER with the same, worsening pain. This time, they did a CT with contrast and found 2 kidney stones, a swollen kidney and ureter and a gallstone. I was given some pain meds and the usual treatment for kidney stones (I have had them off and on since I was 18). Flash forward less than a week after this… I was back in the ER again after I had been having the WORST PAIN AND PRESSURE OF MY LIFE. I was so tired and in tears and just ready to give up. It was here that they decided to look into the gallstone problem, I had an ultrasound that I sobbed in pain through and x-rays done with blood work. This time they found multiple stones. They treated my pain and sent me home with a surgeon’s number to call to get the gallbladder removed. I called the next day and was able to get in the next week for a consult. At the consult the surgeon agreed it needed to come out and we scheduled ASAP, which happened to be August 19th. Surgery went as planned and gallbladder was super swollen. Pathology revealed there was also a cyst. 

So… I’ve been sick/in awful pain and was in and out of the ER and all around suffering since the end of July.  I no longer have my gallbladder. I passed the kidney stones. I’m still in pain and still recovering slowly but surely. Where I am running into problems is here…

I wasn’t able to work that whole time from the excruciating pain. I’ve missed 2 almost 3 paychecks. I am also “technically” out of a job as I was not entitled to FMLA or disability and was forced to resign so that I could come back after I was cleared to return to work by my surgeon. Whereas I am in talks with my boss and have no doubts I will be back at work as soon as I can when I get the all clear… That leaves me in a big rut for bills for all of August. I’d love to say we can make it on just my wife’s pay, but we can’t.

If you have anything to spare at all, or if you don’t and just want to share this and spread it around… You have no idea how much I will appreciate it.

I feel incredibly guilty for becoming ill and being down like this. We had just started to get into a really good place and now this. I hate myself for it, but I know it’s not something either of us could control. If I had waited anymore to get the gallbladder out I would have had serious/worse problems. Not only did I have stones I had a cyst.

It’s just been… a really rough time and any and all help would be so incredibly appreciated. <3

Hnnng. Okay. This one is harder.

Talia would be my sibling - mainly because I would get to call Ra’s al Ghul “daddy” and I kind of like that idea.The other two…I would make Bane my spouse because he needs the love most and he’s so big and cuddly and those tits… O_OAnd Barsad, while I love him oh so dearly, would have to just be my best friend and spend all his time with Bane and I anyway.

I literally hate doing this, I really do. But I know I need the help and the best way I can try and get help is to reach out, so here I am.

Starting at the end of July, I started having pressure and stabbing pain like I’ve never felt before in my life. I wound up in the ER and was firstly diagnosed with constipation and sent home with Miralax. This did not help the problem and created a new problem of its own. I was back in less than a week to the ER with the same, worsening pain. This time, they did a CT with contrast and found 2 kidney stones, a swollen kidney and ureter and a gallstone. I was given some pain meds and the usual treatment for kidney stones (I have had them off and on since I was 18). Flash forward less than a week after this… I was back in the ER again after I had been having the WORST PAIN AND PRESSURE OF MY LIFE. I was so tired and in tears and just ready to give up. It was here that they decided to look into the gallstone problem, I had an ultrasound that I sobbed in pain through and x-rays done with blood work. This time they found multiple stones. They treated my pain and sent me home with a surgeon’s number to call to get the gallbladder removed. I called the next day and was able to get in the next week for a consult. At the consult the surgeon agreed it needed to come out and we scheduled ASAP, which happened to be August 19th. Surgery went as planned and gallbladder was super swollen. Pathology revealed there was also a cyst. 

So… I’ve been sick/in awful pain and was in and out of the ER and all around suffering since the end of July.  I no longer have my gallbladder. I passed the kidney stones. I’m still in pain and still recovering slowly but surely. Where I am running into problems is here…

I wasn’t able to work that whole time from the excruciating pain. I’ve missed 2 almost 3 paychecks. I am also “technically” out of a job as I was not entitled to FMLA or disability and was forced to resign so that I could come back after I was cleared to return to work by my surgeon. Whereas I am in talks with my boss and have no doubts I will be back at work as soon as I can when I get the all clear… That leaves me in a big rut for bills for all of August. I’d love to say we can make it on just my wife’s pay, but we can’t.

If you have anything to spare at all, or if you don’t and just want to share this and spread it around… You have no idea how much I will appreciate it.

I feel incredibly guilty for becoming ill and being down like this. We had just started to get into a really good place and now this. I hate myself for it, but I know it’s not something either of us could control. If I had waited anymore to get the gallbladder out I would have had serious/worse problems. Not only did I have stones I had a cyst.

It’s just been… a really rough time and any and all help would be so incredibly appreciated. <3