dust in my brain

pinned or whatevs. charlie they/them 18 absurdist

dance yrself clean. then dance yrself clean again just to make sure. ocd soundsystem

when does depressed girl summer end

I feel like you guys are blogging without me

i need to lock in (doesnt)

i could be your deadbeat tumblr mutual

im listening to tracks I rlly liked at the start of this year up till early may and im realizing that ive been so insanely mentally out of it since I left school for summer and I feel like I just remembered I used to be a person

I used to be alive

oh my god I want to cry I used to live a life I used to roam the city and I had energy and I went outside and I had friends and I didn't worry about all this my shoulder up to my neck didn't ache this bad this way back then and it wasn't even that long ago! I traveled and I ventured and I explored and met people and was very alone at times but oh my god my freedom my solitude, I owed nobody any of my time. and all of this beautiful music I am so glad I gave you my time because these feelings I felt are coming back from listening and I can actually recall things like ive lived at all before. lately ive felt flat. I can remember now

im listening to tracks I rlly liked at the start of this year up till early may and im realizing that ive been so insanely mentally out of it since I left school for summer and I feel like I just remembered I used to be a person

I used to be alive