She Worketh Willingly With Her Hands.

Does any of this stuff really matter? Does checking Facebook, twitter, Tumblr, etc, a million times a day, do anything for us? At the beginning of this week, I deactivated my Facebook account. For several reasons. I won't go into those because it's not relevant to this post. During this entire week only one person noticed I was gone. ONE. It makes me wonder if I left Facebook, who would care? And even deeper than that: why do I care that no one noticed I was gone? It's made me really evaluate myself. I believe all these apps are mainly for selfish, narcissistic people. Now I'm not saying that if you use any of these apps/sites that you yourself are a selfish, narcissistic person. What I'm saying is this: think about that one person you see on Facebook or any other social media site, that is constantly talking about how great their life is or their spouse or how perfect their kids are or takes 20 selfies a day. You may even know this person in real life and see exactly how fake their life is. But others don't or can't or won't. I haven't decided if I am going to leave Facebook permanently or not. Or any of the other social media apps. What I do know is that I need spend more time on more important things like, well, anything else.

Love these guys.

So excited about my pin from this months lootcrate! #lootcrate

Emma got a pack of My Little Pony playing cards. She's so happy!

4th of July shenanigans

I have been a mom for 15 years now. I realize that's not a very long time. For me, it has seemed to have gone by in the blink of an eye. I have never claimed to be the perfect mom. But recently I have been made aware of some situations that have taught me the kind of parent I do not wish to be. Through the years, I have not been the most patient mom, or the most gentle mom. It has been a learning process. Personally, I've had more fails than successes. I have tried to teach my kids to be self sufficient, strong, and independent. As parents I think it's important to teach our kids to stand on their own two feet. To teach them the basics, like how to do laundry, cook and maybe even change a tire. We also have to realize that they have their own voices. They have their own likes and dislikes, we may not always agree with them, but as long as their not doing something morally wrong, we should support them. My one regret, is how long it took for us to find a church home. I really think a lot about how I feel like I cheated my kids by not having them in church sooner. But alas we have a church home now and we are thriving. My husband is the new youth leader and I'm involved in several things too. Our kids have friends and are making memories. Last month my 8 year old was saved. A very proud moment! I realized about two years ago, after listening to someone I know berate their kid, that I did not want to sound like that. So I started to be more aware of how I speak to them. I also feel it is necessary to show our kids a good example in everything we do. Recently a family member cut us off. From the beginning I was open and honest with my oldest about the situation. I felt he needed to know at least part of what was going on as it affected several aspects of our lives. My husband and I have tried to make amends to no avail. So now, we are just trying to live our lives according to Gods will and show a good example to our kids. We do not hate this person and our kids know that. These are just two examples of the kind of parent I do not want to be. As I continue in my faith and my journey as a parent, I hope one day my kids will look back and be proud at how hard I worked for them. I love my kids, I would die for them. Now I just want to be a better person for them.

I haven't been posting here much because my life gas become so busy. I like being busy but it's sucking me dry. We've had some pretty big family issues come up lately too. I'm trying hard to accept them but honestly I'm not there yet. Matthew 6:34 For do not worry about tomorrow for tomorrow has its own worries. I'm holding true to this.

Haircut!!

These two....