Im Kane Forever

I guess I really just never had a shot at a normal home. I'm 24 and I still act entirely different to my parents and siblings than anyone else. I lose my ambition and become timid and lifeless. Who I am is left at the door step, incapable to simply keep me - me. What's worse is that it's not naivety, but a psyche flaw I can't fix.

My dad is the such a depressing person. He does nothing, expects everything, whenever asked to help with anything he has a hissy fit then (if) he does it he'll do it in a manner where the least work is done and he'll find a way to sore himself over it. I can't stand it. His negativity resonates, then I get angry at his unwillingness to so simple tasks, help my sister, my mom, or myself with things that clearly need help with. It's fucking depressing. I've always felt the same way but somehow thought I'd be able to overcome and make what we have somewhat joyous - but the light is dimmed by an unmoveable fog

Halloween must have spooked fall back into summer.

What worries me more than authority's abuse is the negligence to humor the idea that maybe it's wrong. A young girl being forcefully taken down by a grown policeman in school for being noncompliant, albeit non combatant, is not acceptable. School is a place for social and educational gain. Instead of wrestling a child, communicate with them and express understanding - children are developing and impressionable. They see adults do it, then they think it's okay. It resonates throughout. Resorting to take down measures used against grown adults against a child refusing to leave is morally repugnant. Coercing a child into submission is a condemnation to the free world. With so many eager to side with violence instead of alternatives, is it a wonder why hostility has replaced humility?

I've never expected to be where I am today - no further than where I was 3 years back.

Can't catch a break.