Carnation

the yearning has evolved into something more sinister. more fierce

hey gang. the yearning has gotten worse. love u divas. stay safe

having adhd and anxiety is so werid bc one little thing goes wrong and suddenly you’re unlovable and everyone hates you

half of me is convinced that i have lose weight to be loved but the other half yearns for a real love with someone who i don’t have to change for

oh man, i hope a nerdy man doesn’t randomly enter my life… man it’d suck if a caring strong man entered my life and we had a sweet slow burn happily ever after romance 😕😕😕😕jeez imagine if i had a friends to lovers relationship with genuine love and connection ://// that’d suck huh

how are y’all acquiring boyfriends??? is there like a department store somewhere??? who do i need to email, is there a customer support somewhere that i don’t know about

need a boy to hold me gently in his arms rn. maybe some forehead kisses too. as a treat

“why don’t i have a boyfriend yet??? 😔” - I say after spending my entire weekend in my room playing loser video games, crying, binge watching shows and video essays on topics no one cares about, and being too scared to interact with anyone or anything online

men are so hot. i wish they were good people

imagining laying my head on a boys chest while he is playing with my hair and staring at me with pure love in his eyes as i feel his chest move up and down and i can hear his heartbeat and we are sharing our body heat in a moment of intimacy and love and vulnerability and safety and comfort