What I learn from temporarily getting off from people. Learning to love myself. I have always been insecure about me not being good enough for people to like me and I went through time when there are several people hate me at one time- and getting out of the picture made me see what's this image is all about. Learning to love myself doesn't really mean glorifying myself with all the insecurities and flaws that I have. Learning to love myself is being happy with all the things that I have, flaws, insecurities, down sides even assets. I'm beginning to stop thinking that I always have to get other people's validation about me. I have learned to just love myself to grow better from my insecure self. Growing. Better. Cutting off connections from people you once talked often doesn't really mean un- friending them. It made me see that some from these people mig be toxic to me and that I don't have to throw what we've had. It's just sometimes, growing means cutting off. I stopped seeing myself as the victim. Instead, I look at myself as the investigator of the scene, trying to figure out what went wrong to me that I grew up being fed by the society. Positivity and optimism is not a bad thing at all but I realized that if you get all positive and loving to everything, you'll end up eating shit. A little spice won't hurt and being a pessimist isn't a bad thing at times when you just want smart decisions. I am starting to think about things that will matter to me and everyone when we all grow old, I am trying to be critical and not an impulsive talker at the same time. I work my ass off instead of finding someone to blame why I am here. I am really trying hard to figure things out and grow. You see, from getting out of everybody's picture you will realize a lot of things. You just have to clear your spaces. Also, learning to love yourself isn't really about making yourself physically beautiful and this picture is not all about you! It's about being happy with the choices you make without being tied from society's judgement and still being careful not to step on others. Note to self: be critical, aware, read, considerate, disciplined, brave, strong, and BREATH! I'm starting my engine to start my way... Hopefully. :) PHOTOGRAPH: Model: Yours truly :) Style and Photograph: Hamida Ismail
