Empty.

no one tells you how hard it is to find your spark again once you’ve lost it

Hell isn’t even close to how I felt when I knew that I was slowly losing you.

What if I never forget you? What if, all my life, when I meet someone new, I can never fall for them because they aren't you?

I don't think I was supposed to live this long and that's why things are so bad

You hold yourself so well, people would never suspect you're going through hell.

Been coming to the realization that this being alive thing isn’t for me

i am filled with regret which will never go away.

Sometimes it feels like there’s just this black hole inside me that everything disappears into and I’m left to experience nothing

I feel empty, but not in the I’m so depressed empty type of way but rather the I feel emptily melancholic. No emotion, just emptiness that can’t be filled with anything.

i wasn't meant to live this long and that's why i don't know what to do when i feel this awful