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I was talking with my partner last night about where to begin the healing journey. and trying to pinpoint one singular starting point felt impossible and daunting. When I think about what kickstarted my healing journey what mostly comes to mind is me being fed up with complacency. There were behaviors and patterns that I no longer resonated with and honestly began to shame and judge. I was ready to outgrow these unhealthy tendencies like emotional reactivity, ghosting, growing distant to avoid conflict instead of communicating my emotions. I became aware of what was stagnant and unconscious and begun to do my best to accept things as they are and make conscious decisions when the moment presents an opportunity to. Say you’re driving down the road and you get cut off. Perhaps you have a history of road rage and before deciding to be more present, you would have honked your horn and cussed them out. Well, here you are now, being cut off and you feel the rage begin to fill. Pause. Acknowledge the rage and CHOOSE to breathe through it. CHOOSE not to behave the way you normally would out of emotional reactivity. It takes time and the cultivation of remaining present in moments of high emotions but eventually it becomes second nature to be conscious in each of our decisions. In short, I guess the place to start would be where you find complacency and stagnation; accept where you are in life and in each moment you’ll be presented an opportunity to do something differently than you have before.

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