The Road of Domestic Discipline

I realized today that I dont really like to write when everything is great (which it usually is). I use writing as an outlet when im struggling or when im just feeling "off". We recently had a house fire (confined to the kitchen) which has landed us and our 2 small children in a hotel. Granted this hotel is nice and has a small kitchen with 2 bedrooms and a living room but its still confining and hard when I dont have all of my own "stuff". DD and remembering that I am to be submissive in all of life's situations has completely left my brain. Its been replaced by irritation, exasperation, and frustration, at this long term living situation (just starting our 2nd month here). Maintenance spankings irritate me even when I relish in the peace that comes afterwards. I feel argumentative and confrontational almost every day. Its a tough situation for myself as well as daddy. I just dont want to be submissive right now. However this lifestyle that we've adopted and that works so well for us isnt about dominance and submission when we want to or when its easy. Its our way of life....how we live. So now on to the hard road and lots of work (and tears) of remembering who I am and where I belong. Whether I feel like it or not, this is the road I must go down (definitely the road less traveled). Luckily I dont have to do it alone.

Surprise for Daddy tonight.

I completely understand what you are saying and totally agree. Neither Daddy nor I are the type to do something just to fulfill what others say is “right” or the “norm”. We have been practicing DD for about 2 years now. We feel that it is time to take our level of commitment to this lifestyle to the next level. There are some things that we want to work on and are choosing to do it through a boot camp. We are busy with kids and jobs and are using this “free” weekend to immerse ourselves into a deeper commitment. I do think boot camp will be most beneficial to both of us. Am I excited? uhhhh no! But im excited for the outcome. Its time for both of us to take the next step and that often means stepping out of our comfort zones. Some couples also use it as a "reset". Maybe things have gotten off track or aren't going as smoothly as you or your HOH would like them to. A boot camp can provide a reset in your relationship to either get things back on the right track, to provide an opportunity to put the focus back into your DD relationship, or deepen the relationship that you are already living. I will definitely be writing about our experience when we return!!

Im glad Im not responsible for me.......its a lot of fucking work. 

Just told my husband that if he calls a blow job a "Beeg" then I will be giving them to other. He claims this is disrespectful. Please chime in whether this was or not respectful.

Well....our time is drawing near. We have talked about doing a boot camp but with children home its not something that can be done easily. At the end of the month we will have been together for 7 1/2 years, married for 5 years, and practicing DD for 2 years. Boot camp originally was my idea. I like the idea that it can bring us closer and solidify our roles that we choose to live 24/7, but honestly, Im nervous. This is going to be intense and Im not sure I can handle it. 4 spanking sessions a day ranging from mild to severe (each with a lesson to be learned)......homework assignments......and instant punishment for any and all signs of defiance. YIKES. Hoping I have what it takes. Anyone have any stories to share? Anything to give me courage?

DDwife