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୨୧ 𝟷𝟷. 𝟷𝟽. 𝟸𝟻 ୨୧

ʚ 𝖨 𝗁𝖺𝗍𝖾 𝗆𝗒 𝗆𝗂𝗇𝖽, 𝖨 𝗃𝗎𝗌𝗍 𝖽𝗈𝗇'𝗍 𝗅𝗂𝗄𝖾 𝗂𝗍, 𝗂𝗍 𝗆𝖺𝗄𝖾 𝗆𝖾 𝖿𝖾𝖾𝗅 𝖽𝗂𝗌𝗀𝗎𝗌𝗍𝖾𝖽, 𝗌𝗈𝗆𝖾𝗍𝗂𝗆𝖾𝗌 𝖨 𝗐𝗈𝗎𝗅𝖽 𝗅𝗂𝗄𝖾 𝗍𝗁𝖺𝗍 𝗂𝗍 𝗃𝗎𝗌𝗍 𝗌𝗁𝗎𝗍 𝗎𝗉 𝖻𝖾𝖼𝖺𝗎𝗌𝖾 𝗍𝗁𝖺𝗍 𝗌𝗂𝗅𝗅𝗒 𝗏𝗈𝗂𝖼𝖾 𝗂𝗇 𝗆𝗒 𝗆𝗂𝗇𝖽 𝗀𝗂𝗏𝖾𝗌 𝗆𝖾 𝗁𝖾𝖺𝖽𝖺𝖼𝗁𝖾. 𝖨𝗌 𝗆𝗒 𝗆𝗂𝗇𝖽, 𝗐𝗁𝗒 𝗂𝗌 𝖽𝗈𝖾𝗌𝗇'𝗍 𝗃𝗎𝗌𝗍 𝗁𝖾𝖺𝗋 𝗆𝖾 𝖿𝗈𝗋 𝖺 𝗈𝗇𝖼𝖾? 𝖨𝗌 𝗌𝗎𝗉𝗉𝗈𝗌𝖾𝖽 𝗍𝗈 𝖻𝖾 𝖺 𝗉𝖺𝗋𝗍 𝗈𝖿 𝗆𝖾, 𝖻𝗎𝗍 𝗂𝗍 𝖿𝖾𝖾𝗅𝗌 𝗅𝗂𝗄𝖾 𝗂𝖿 𝗂𝗍 𝗐𝖺𝗌𝗇'𝗍 𝗆𝗂𝗇𝖾, 𝖻𝗎𝗍 𝗍𝗁𝖺𝗍 𝖿𝖾𝖾𝗅𝗂𝗇𝗀 𝗂𝗌 𝗇𝗈𝗍 𝗌𝗍𝗋𝖺𝗇𝗀𝖾 𝖿𝗈𝗋 𝗆𝖾, 𝖨 𝖺𝗅𝗐𝖺𝗒𝗌 𝖿𝖾𝖾𝗅 𝗍𝗁𝖺𝗍 𝖨 𝖼𝖺𝗇'𝗍 𝖼𝗈𝗇𝗇𝖾𝖼𝗍 𝗐𝗂𝗍𝗁 𝗇𝗈𝗍𝗁𝗂𝗇𝗀 𝖿𝗎𝗅𝗅𝗒, 𝗐𝗂𝗍𝗁 𝗆𝗒 𝖻𝗈𝖽𝗒, 𝗐𝗂𝗍𝗁 𝗆𝗒 𝖻𝗋𝖺𝗂𝗇, 𝗐𝗂𝗍𝗁 𝗍𝗁𝖾 𝗈𝗍𝗁𝖾𝗋 𝗉𝖾𝗈𝗉𝗅𝖾, 𝗐𝗂𝗍𝗁 𝖾𝗏𝖾𝗋𝗒𝗍𝗁𝗂𝗇𝗀, 𝖨 𝗁𝖺𝗍𝖾 𝗍𝗁𝖺𝗍 𝖿𝖾𝖾𝗅𝗂𝗇𝗀, 𝗂𝗍 𝗆𝖺𝗄𝖾 𝖿𝖾𝖾𝗅 𝗅𝗂𝗄𝖾 𝗂𝖿 𝖨 𝗐𝖺𝗌𝗇'𝗍 𝖺 𝗁𝗎𝗆𝖺𝗇 𝖻𝖾𝗂𝗇𝗀, 𝖻𝖾𝖼𝖺𝗎𝗌𝖾 𝖨 𝖼𝖺𝗇'𝗍 𝖼𝗈𝗇𝗇𝖾𝖼𝗍 𝗐𝗂𝗍𝗁 𝗈𝗍𝗁𝖾𝗋𝗌 𝗁𝗎𝗆𝖺𝗇𝗌 𝗈𝗋 𝗐𝗂𝗍𝗁 𝗆𝗒𝗌𝖾𝗅𝖿, 𝗍𝗁𝖾𝗇, 𝗐𝗁𝖺𝗍 𝖨'𝗆? ɞ

୨୧ Oct. 24. 25 ୨୧

> It's the morning and I already feel like if nothing else could get worse. Why my own mind do this to me? It's ridiculous. I couldn't handle it anymore. Maybe I should sleep for a week and everything will get better, or maybe sleep forever would work better.

I feel like if I wasnt even real, I don't feel like an human, how I prove that I'm a real human? What make you a real human being? How i'm supposed to prove that I'm real? There's no a way to prove it. Since I just feel actually bad, mu head hurts, my heart hurts. Everything have been so hard for me.

Maybe I'm just a crybaby, but I really feel bad, I feel worse because thinking about it or not, in some moments come to my mind. I hate it, I don't wanna do nothing, I don't wanna continue, I don't even know what I'm.