♡

…and the world was a tough place, so cold and bitter but at last the two had each other

pick a card : 18+ and love messages about your future spouse/partner

paid services

one

romance chapter

whoever you are asking about, this person wants to marry you for real. you’ve turned their world upside down and they wouldn’t change a thing about it! they are so deeply in love with you, like a poet whose muse is found in every single piece they write. your lover’s lips could kiss every inch of you if they could and if you were to break up, it would be up to you and not them cause they wouldn’t dream about it. it’s rare to write and channel’s someone partner be so besotted with them and have such pure love. it’s a feeling deeper than the physical can show and more than the word “love” in itself could describe. i am reminded of the relationship evelyn and harry had in “the seven husbands of evelyn hugo” but actually romantic. you understand each other better than anyone else could. you care about even the smallest of things because both of you are aware that in the end, everything matters. if this is someone you have yet to meet, attraction will be there right from the moment your eyes have contact. it will be a moment they never forget. you have some differences that make it difficult for the relationship to be fully peaceful but it’s okay, you need to understand even fairytale love stories go through issues. you and your person have a long road ahead so be sure to keep gentleness intact at all times. both have suffered quite a lot until this moment and you should heal together, not create new wounds. i wouldn’t worry much though, as it seems that no villain or evil queen has the power to steal away your happily ever after. one message you might not like to hear is that a friend will be lost in the process of gaining this connection.

your person wil like running their hands through your hair and down the back. their love language might be touch and quality time and i believe they might fantasise about having kids together or how your children might look like. whenever they read something about love, their mind instantly goes to you!

now playing

i’m yours by isabel larosa

18+ messages

only major arcana cards fell for this pile so you know it’s gonna be a relevant part of your connection. for some of you, this will be your first time ever but if not, it will be such a different experience compared to your past ones. the fool suggests a fun sex where both parties can feel comfortable to be themselves and also try something new! with your person, you might find yourself thinking about experimenting in ways you would have never expected yourself to. your partner is VOCAL. they like to be in your ear telling you all sorts of things, from seeking reassurance that you are okay to telling you how much they like it. i wouldn’t be surprised if they liked you to voice your own feelings as well. they wanna make sure you feel good with them. i also sense a part of the individuals that chose this pile have trauma related to either their body image or sex which is going to be healed along the way with the help of this particular lover. the last thing the card is telling me is that your person will spend some alone time thinking about you if you know what i mean….morning sex is going to happen so often it will become a habit if you share the same bed. it’s also going to be eye opening? having sex with your person might help you have some weird epiphanies about yourself and life in general. i know it’s an unusual thing to hear in a 18+ reading but it came up so i wanted to include it. you won’t be worrying about reaching the end with them nor will you come to be disappointed and bored after a while.

two

romance chapter

a story with a difficult beginning and an ending that is so worthy. the two protagonists seem to dislike each other at first despite the obvious attraction. their hearts beat faster yet no one can’t hear a thing because of all of the bickering and sharp words thrown around. it’s neither’s fault though. i’d say it’s a simple case of bad luck where you will start on the wrong foot until you realize you have much more in common than you think. exactly like those rom com moments when one of the characters exposes one of their hobbies/interests and the other is like “no way!”. for some of you i see movies or tv shows like the marvel franchise being something you both like. it could be anything really, that’s just an example that applies to a few people who chose this pile. it’s also a cute moment when suddenly the world goes quiet, an epiphany coming as they see what’s always been there for the first time. love appears like a flower blooming and a world that was once painted in gray colors catches pastel tones. “forgive me” is what they will want to say but won’t, an apology for the time spent hating you instead of pouring love into you. this will make them distant at first, until they realize the key is to come forward with their feelings and not drown in guilt. this is puppy love. they won’t believe it when you tell them you share the same feelings and it will take a bit of convincing from your side to make it happen. regardless of gender or roles relationship traditionall have, you will give each other gifts and flowers to show appreciation. one is very good at cooking and will love to spoil the other with their culinary creations.

you and your person will travel A LOT together. especially around the mountain areas and you might even try camping at some point in your relationship. if this is who you will get married to, your wedding is going to take place far away from your home in a stunning location.

now playing

i wanna be yours - arctic monkeys

18+ messages

romantic. romantic. romantic. do i have to say more? for the two of you, sex is going to be more than just mere physical pleasure. it will be connecting deeply and getting truly intimate, actually seeing each other naked. i don’t see much of what others nowadays deem as rough such as spanking or bdsm, none of what will happen unless one wants to try it out. although i don’t believe you will like to do it with your person. as a couple, you work better doing “vanilla” stuff. it doesn’t mean you will lack spicy things in the bedroom, it’s just this generation likes things extremely rough and choking, for example, can actually be considered boring and typical. you will try certain kinks and will have your own frequently used ones such as praising, hair pulling and other “mild” activities. one will adore leaving marks on the other, specifically on the neck and the dominant partner likes having their back covered in scratches. so a lot of “marking” is happing in here. your sexual relationship has a lot of posessive themes, proving to each other through lovemaking how much you care about and love the other. if this is a woman/man couple then oh my god, the woman is going to receive so much head it’s crazy! we love to see it though hehe. i sense a few of you are insecure about your thighs or legs in general, which will make your partner show more attention to that area to help you love it as much as they do.

three

romance chapter

this is one juicy story i’d love to read a fanfic about! one of you is going to know about the other from either social media or a friend and oh my god aren’t they going to be so smitten. this person will be aware of their partner’s existence a little bit before their actual meeting but there will be a problem…the self esteem. this person is going to believe the other’s way too good for them (which is obviously not true) and will create this image, putting them on a pedestal and thinking that they would never look at them back. then the meeting comes and things shift a little bit. the other likes the first individual right from the beginning and might even want to ask them out, but of course our main protagonist shuts them out and is cold due to their insecurities. the love interest is confused as to why this cutie seems to stay away from them but they don’t ask any questions. our book ends up being about a slow burn romance which is equally frustrating and exciting. we get to see them pining for each other, almost touches and prolonged eye contact. we hear all of the thoughts and the “i wish they were mine”’s and every single god damn moment when a confession is about to be made. finally, something or someone pushes the two idiots in a thight spot where they are forced to confess and laugh at how dumb they’ve both been. i know this pick a card is all about positivity and making you see the beauty in your future connection but i must warn you of a presence that will dislike your relationship and might try to get involved (they are powerless though).

late night drives and sunset watching dates are a must! the book lover will introduce the other to new worlds and literary adventures while they themselves will learn how to have more fun.

now playing

sunsetz - cigarettes after sex

18+ messages

i’ve compiled a bunch of my research/observational notes about how having a stellium in a certain house can affect an individual. some of these claims are my opinions btw, it may or may not resonate, just take what does.

fyi: some of these are are overdramatized, so please don’t get offended, especially if it’s true.

what is a stellium?

“a stellar event..”

a stellium is a cluster of planets (usually 3+) positioned in the same sign/house. they’re aren’t really common, so consider yourself lucky if you have one— in my personal opinion, life will be somewhat ‘easier’ for you because the house that you have your stellium in is basically your answer for what you should be going towards to truly find success. think of it as already ‘mastering’ the other houses, so you finally just have that one house to put your focus on. some things to take note of when getting into this topic is, just because you have an empty house doesn’t mean you won’t experience energy/themes that are associated with it.. for example an empty 7H doesn’t necessarily mean having no relationships or marriage, it indicates that you’re not putting any ounce of energy towards that particular house— the lunar nodes (rahu+ ketu) & asteroids are not included in a stellium.

reminder: the sign ruling the house you have your stellium in will show how everything will play out including the aspects, etc.

1H:

usually self centered individuals. ego could be extremely strong. selfish tendencies. very much focused on the ‘self’ and what they got going on in their own life. these people could care less sometimes about the problems of their peers, unless it’s someone they actually have love/respect for(family, friends, etc..) can be obsessed with their physical appearance or the way they come across to others. 1H - 7H axis coming into play! not much is hidden w them, they have a “what you see is what you get” type of vibe most of the time. they think of their identity a lot and are self aware. personality issues. the world doesn’t revolve around you, k? jk.

2H:

have a huge focus on their family/loved ones. $hungry$ they’re always finding ways to accumulate wealth. can be materialistic and desire the luxuries that life has to offer. can be seen taking a steady approach to any and all things whether it be for a new project, job, etc. consumed with material possessions. stinginess is seen, especially with things that they are really protective over. hoarding and collecting what they deem valuable. these individuals do not like to be rushed, they do things on their own time. can become extremely greedy; can easily get attached to people, places, even objects. goldiggers are usually seen with this stellium, i.e Melania Trump. stubbornness to the max, their beliefs and values will not change for no one!

3H:

these individuals practically live to communicate. have a ‘superhero’ complex due to the amount of courage they have. siblings may be annoyed w them, they either love them or hate them. gossiping is something that comes easily for these people. addicted to social media or anything that will stimulate the mind. cannot stop thinking, they literally have a thought every second of the day. masters at deception. they have multiple sides to them that seem to activate with people they interact with. doesn’t really take life seriously, but knows when to get serious(this is why they’re seen as disingenuous most of the time). experimental with all types of things. too open minded. either they have a good memory or are extremely forgetful.

4H:

obsessed with their homes. being comfortable within their environment is a must. codependent in relationships. the emotions fluctuate a lot. love to indulge in their favorite comfort food’s and tend to eat a lot when they’re emotional. mommy issues, goes to the mother for practically anything and everything. did i mention being overly emotional? especially when things don’t go their way. these people are always reminded of their childhood whether it be from a certain sound, smell, taste..

5H:

want their self expression to constantly be noticed/appreciated. love and desire the attention they get from everyone. may modify their body or intentionally change their personality, ‘aesthetic’ / attitude to come across a certain way(try’s too much to look different to captivate others..) ego is high, kinda similar to 1H stellium ngl. never fails to get bored, can literally find entertainment in almost everything they do. drama queens/kings. wants to be center stage 24/7. their thoughts and ideas will be communicated whether you asked them or not.

6H:

overly critical at times. over analyzes the details in almost everything that they forget the main point or ‘big picture’.. can get too deep into their thoughts; cleans when they’re not in the best of moods or vice versa. can be too giving / always feel the need to provide for others even when they don’t need the help. may think they come across as more ‘put together’ than their friends. have an abundance of guilt due to their impossibly high standards at times.

7H:

cannot live without a partner. they are in love with the idea of romance, mingling and being in relationships. being alone is something they may fear. constantly worrying about how they’re perceived throughout their community. when it comes to making decisions they’re flunked out, there’s always gotta be more than one option. the type of relationships they get into take up so much of their energy that they lose their self identity sometimes(have no sense of self..) can be extremely nosey w their friends relationships persistently wondering about who they’re interacting with etc.. daydreams about marriage / union-ship when they get the chance, have tendency to put themselves last.

8H:

these the freaky ones. constantly thinking about s*ex. is interested into the darker aspects of life but acts as if their not. gets tattoos and or piercings not for the ‘look’ but more for the feeling they get when they’re getting it(pleasure/pain sensation, y’know?)your energy is intense; people feel it from a mile away. can make or break someone with their aura/words. highly intuitive but is constantly in doubt. love to dye their hair. secretly obsessed over their romantic interests or anyone they potentially find appealing. for some reason people feel the need to trauma dump these individuals. this is one of the hardest houses to have a stellium in my opinion, so i will stop for the sake of it🫂

9H:

thinks it’s necessary to impose their beliefs onto other people. ego is high with this stellium as well, these people may feel like they know it all. crave the knowledge and energy for higher spiritual and intellectual realms. the types of people to skip a night out with friends to read a really interesting book they found, not that, that’s a bad thing—may shop online for things they think will ‘bring them up’ or evaluate their life in some way, shape or form. doesn’t know when to stop exploring, can never truly relax and enjoy the moment at hand. the mind is fixated on knowing everything. traveling until they’re unsatisfied and moving on to the next big thing.

10H:

authoritative, wants a sense of control in their environment. can be domineering. people are usually ‘afraid’ or look up to these individuals a lot. too focused on their image in society; the way they’re perceived. these individuals invest a lot of their time into what they do in terms of their career. tends to find new hobby’s and then automatically thinks about how they can turn that into something that will make them financially stable. too independent, they don’t favor the thought of asking others for favors let alone accepting presents/gifts. find themselves subconsciously craving someone with ‘moon’ or cancerian type quality’s. overworks themselves to the max. the ego may be fragile when these individuals are in a position where they are not being treated with respect or courtesy.

11H:

these people can sometimes have unrealistic expectations about human population and life in general that will probably never come to fruition. so far away from being traditional or doing things in a traditional way, finds them self wanting to make a difference in their community. technology is their best buddy. the type to be the first to form a petition or protest. want to change the way humans think about already existing thinking patterns.

12H:

being in this 3D realm feels like a chore to them. sleeping is their best friend. being in isolation is like a warm hug— the type to actually enjoy solitary confinement. the thoughts can lead towards topics such as nihilism. indulges with the wonders of taro, spirituality, astrology, etc. feels as tho they’re not even living at times, depersonalization. emotions may be transferred to writing poetry & or music, maybe even in their art. another hard stellium to cope with.

"Love is awful. It’s awful. It’s painful. It’s frightening. It makes you doubt yourself, judge yourself, distance yourself from the other people in your life. It makes you selfish. It makes you creepy, makes you obsessed with your hair, makes you cruel, makes you say and do things you never thought you would do. It’s all any of us want, and it’s hell when we get there. So no wonder it’s something we don’t want to do on our own. I was taught if we’re born with love then life is about choosing the right place to put it. People talk about that a lot, feeling right, when it feels right it’s easy. But I’m not sure that’s true. It takes strength to know what’s right. And love isn’t something that weak people do. Being a romantic takes a hell of a lot of hope. I think what they mean is, when you find somebody that you love, it feels like hope."

is this a play on the Bible verse that's typically recited at weddings? "Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails."

Phoebe Waller Bridge you goddamn genius

love imbalance — pining

GENERAL TAROT READING BY JENOKOI

in this reading we’ll be be talking a bit about who you are as a person and how some perceive you, what attracted your person to you alongside a sneak peak of their intentions, and what’s preventing this union from flowing its natural course. It is a bit extensive, so please take only what resonates with you and leave the rest for your fellow companions.

Please take a deep breath and get comfortable. Let your intuition guide you to the answer you seek in the pictures below. Take as much time as you need.

PILE ONE > PILE TWO > PILE THREE

My tarot readings are guided by the current energy of my subject in question and my own spirit guides. Energies are prone to change based on our actions, and thus nothing is truly set on stone. Please take only what resonates, this is a general reading. It’s okay to not feel drawn to any of the images. If you have to force it into the narrative of your life, then it might not be for you. These readings are for entertainment purposes only.