You are drowning yourself by overthinking everything. The next time you find yourself overthinking or beating yourself over something, picture something simple and put no thought into it. Look at the trees moving in the wind or take a moment to look at how beautiful this world is. This world is too beautiful for you to waste your time in unecessary thoughts that are just drowning you.

ok so how do you continue a conversation after saying hello

Find someone who sends you silly pictures because they know they are safe with you and will be appreciated no matter how ugly they think those pictures are. Find someone who calls you randomly because they want to tell you about a recent occasion or just to hear your voice. Find somone who compliments you and really means it, who shows effort and reassurance. Find someone who opens up to you and can bloom around you. Find someone who desires you, not just your body but also your soul. Find someone who is up to random ideas because they know that life is short and time is precious.