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Togata explains that people are defined by how others perceive them, and Agni proves him right. Agni is perceived as a God; when in reality he’s a pathetic, emotionally stunted boyfailure in an attractive, naked, flaming male body - but that doesn’t matter to the people who believe wholeheartedly that Agni is a benevolent, divine, messianic figure

Togata is a 300 year old trans man stuck in a body that he can never change. He will always be perceived as a woman no matter what, and nobody would take him seriously if he asserted that he was a man. Not only that, Togata said that if he asserted himself as a man in that world, he would be dead. He had a gay couple from Behemdorg under his protection, the world would have treated Togata worse if they knew he was trans. Togata is threatened with rape, sexual slavery and forced pregnancy multiple times because his body is and is perceived by others as female. Jack initially perceived San as female and was fully intending on raping him with his dogs, until he discovered that San was physically male, and freaked out

The only reason we the Audience even know Togata is trans was because he was outed by a soul reader, who added the cherry on top that Togata being closeted was just another malicious, self serving lie of his

Agni tells him to his face that he could never perceive Togata as a guy because he has large female breasts, so Togata goes on a huge monologue about his gender dysphoria and how it’s impossible for him to transition. He says that it doesn’t matter who you actually are, only how others perceive you. How others perceive you determines how you are treated forever. He lives in a world where he’s not only defined by how other people perceive his appearance and biology, he can’t do anything to change it

When Agni asks “would you prefer if I call you big brother”, Togata knows that it’s insincere. Agni is only asking him that to be nice, because he’s awkwardly watching Togata’s mental breakdown and gender dysphoria induced puking, not because his perception of Togata’s gender actually changed. Togata is 300 years old, he knows when he’s being humored and he doesn’t want that. He’d rather be a girl than be pitied

rough sketches/doodles below: