I am- Batman.

Yung Aldub nagkita na kanina nagkahawakan eh tayo kelan kaya?

Yung crush ko na kaklasi ko sa lahat ng subjects pero di ko man lang maka.usap. Hindi ko mahawakan mas masaklap pa sa Aldub, buti pa ang Aldub nagkakasulatan samantalang kaming dalawa hanggang tinginan lang. Pakyu sa mga barkada mong bully, tangina sa kanilang ayaw man lang iwan kang nag-iisa kahit dalawang minuto lamang. Kailan kaya ako makakalapit sayo? Kailan ko kaya maamoy ang hininga mo? Kailan ko kaya mahahawakan maski dulo ng daliri mo?

Kwento ko para sayo. (Mga katotohanang hindi ko masabi.)

“Ang puno at ang kanyang ugat.”

–May isang puno na nabighani sa kanyang mga sariling ugat. Pinagmamasdan ni puno ang kanyang ugat araw-araw. Alam niya na kahit kailan ay hindi ito maaabot ng mahahaba niyang sanga.

–Dumating ang isang umagang maulan. Pinatatag ni puno ang kanyang sarili at sinangga ng mga dahon ni puno ang bawat patak ng ulan, upang si ugat ay kailan may di malunod.

–Naging napakalakas ng ulan at di nakayanan ni puno na pigilang mabasa si ugat. Sobrang nasaktan si puno dahil sa pakiramdam niya'y wala siyang halaga at hindi nasunod ang kanyang nais.

–Napapikit na lamang si puno sapagkat batid niyang hindi magugustuhan ni ugat ang kanyang kawalang halaga na protektahan ito.

–Pagdilat ni puno naging kabaliktaran ang lahat, napagmasdan niya ang tuwa ni ugat. Narinig niya ang halakhak ni ugat.

“Bakit ka nakatawa ugat? Tanong ni puno.

Hindi siya nakatanggap ng kahit konting kibo mula kay ugat, nag-iba lamang ang ka-anyuhan nito. Gumanda si ugat at nabuhay ang kulay. Namukadkad ang kagandahan na parang mga bulaklak sa Hardin ni Aling Korason.

Si Aling Korason.

–Si Aling Korason ang namimitas sa prutas ni puno, siya lamang ang nakikipag-usap kay puno; humihiling na dumami pa ang bunga na maibibigay ni puno.

–Sa maraming pagkakataon napasaya niya si puno ngunit biglang lumisan si Aling Korason nung’ wala na itong makuhang prutas mula kay puno.

Si Ugat.

–Si Ugat kalakip siya ni puno. Parati siyang nandyan at kulang si puno kung wala si ugat. Mamamatay si puno.

” Gago! Ulol! Hindi lahat ng puno di kanyang mabuhay ng walang ugat.“ Sigawan ng mga ibon habang nakikibasa sa kwentong ito.

Tumawa ang mga ulap sabay sabi itanong mo kay Mang Kanor!! Siya ang nag-iisang alamat. Ang makapangyarihang hardinero.

—Ayon sa mga sabi-sabi nagawang itanim ni mang Kanor ang isang maliit na piraso ng sanga at ito'y naging napakalaking puno.

“Kung gayon ay kaya pang mabuhay ni puno”. May pag-asa.

–Napa-isip si puno kaya siya ay sumangguni kay Mang Kanor.

“ Paano siya naging malaking puno kung wala siyang ugat?” Tanong ng bida sa kwentong ito.

“Makalipas ang ilang buwan nagkaroon siya ng mga sarili niyang ugat”. Sagot ng mahiwagang hardinero.

–Nasagot ang mga gumugulo sa isip ni puno. Napayuko lamang siya at tinitigan ang unti-unting pagbabago ni ugat.

Paano niya pakakawalan ang sarili sa pagkakabighani kay ugat? Kaya bang hatakin ni puno ang mga sariling ugat upang hindi matuloy ang pagbabagong anyo nito? o hahayaan nalang niya si ugat na magbago.

After i took a picture of you with him, i know you have the idea of what i really felt but it’s not what you think.  

“Why did you do that?” you asked and you have frown on the your lovely face.

I didn't say anything it was not a way of revenge but i felt, it was the proper way to act according to what you have done to me. My silence might give you heart ache’s but....

 I am not mad at you.

I forgive myself for assuming you could like me more than “ just a close friend”. I am done with fuck you’s and hating.

I will never forget 2014 Christmas.

My parents got separated during my 5th grade since then, every Christmas eve im just in the house alone watching my favorite movies or while everyone was making noise outside, im trying to get some sleep.

My Christmas this 2014 was different i was invited by a friend to celebrate Christmas with them. We became friends because we like each other but it is not possible for us to commit into relationship. I have known her for about a year already.

I had the chance to meet her family. Her sister asked me if where i came from and since i want to feel comfortable because she was really nice to me. I replied "im from Mars and sister should expect i'll be staying until the new year's eve.

"You'll die in hunger, we don't cook meal" her sister replied.

"I can't see evidence this friend of mine looks healthy". I was referring to my friend's body figure, she was not very skinny.

Her sister laugh and my friend replied she was always wise. she could have lunch from neighbors. After having noche buena we went to her best-friends house. We had drinking session and i had much. I'm stubborn and touchy when i'm drunk. She took care of me. She even took pictures of me when i passed out. Haha crazy night.

Our friends noticed how we're acting in front of them and they would tease we should get a room. actually i remember she offered something. She said after the party we can sleep in the living room downstairs at their house. She prepared blankets and pillows but the planned didn't happened because we never sleep. At 6am we went to the beach. and we dont have a sleep but still we went to work.

After work.

Christmas Night. 11pm. I was waiting for a Jeepney in front of a closed establishment. I was talking to my workmate when he left because we dont live in the same town. A girl approached me. She was carrying three baggage's and a full bag packed.

"Excuse me? Saan ka po uuwi?" Same place ba tayo? tanong nya.

Sabi klo yeah! tas parang malalaglag yong bibig ko sa harapan niya, nakanganga talga ako. Nauutal pa ako sa pagsagot.

She explained she just came from a trip and she was very tired and she have issues in travelling. She even asked favor if i could accompany her a ride by a taxi instead of a jeepney. she's willing to pay for the fare. I never hesitate to help her holy macaroni she's my high school crush! who would knew na makikita ko ulit sya. 

Inside the taxi.

Nauna na akong magsalita. Sa judahalewhere ka nag-high school diba? 

"Kilala mo ako?" sagot nya.

Sabi ko familiar lang kasi mukha mo. Anong batch ka? tanong nya ulit tas ayaw pa gumana ng utak ko kasi wala pa akong tulog since Christmas eve. Tas pinangalanan ko nalang lahat ng kabatch ko nung highschool. Ayun nagkakoneksyon din kami.

Madami kaming napag-usapan at nalaman kong sa Cebu na pala cya nagta-trabaho at di cya naka-uwi nung Christmas eve. Syempre masaya ako kasi nagkita ulit kami matapos ang ilang taon.

Naalala ko pa pinagmamasdan tas pasulyap sulyap ako sa fourth year building kasi kaharap lang sa freshmen yung room nila. Nagwawalis cya or tuwing break time. inaabangan ko na makita siya.