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PLEASE NOTE: i go all out for my workouts, I’m not saying you should do this. Tailor this to what you can handle. Please stay safe 💞

For this first one I try to do this twice a day, sometimes three if I have the time. This is just a modified 11 ab workout to fit what I can do.

Now THIS is the meat and potatoes of the workout, but there are some things I need to warn you about:

1. don’t do this while your fasting, I did that once and I almost passed out during the toe touches.

2. If you do this don’t start at the high numbers I listed, tailor it to fit what YOU can do. I don’t want any of y’all to get hurt trying to do everything.

 I still give in to my cravings

 I’m not scared of food yet

 I always binge over the weekend

I rarely ever fast successfully for 24 hours

on ‘good’ days I’m still eating around 700-800 calories, and I feel guilty for that

my BMI is healthy, but I’m still closer to being overweight than underweight

when I tell my boyfriend or my family that I lost another pound, they congratulate me 

when I purge after a meal, I never get everything up.

people at work still call me ‘thick’ jokingly

my thighs still touch, my arms aren’t thin and my ribcage doesn’t show

I am currently 63 hours into another fast and I’ve been thinking alot about what I’ve learned so I thought I’d share.

DISCLAIMER: I DO NOT SUPPORT OR ENCOURAGE EATING DISORDERS. IF YOU FEEL LIKE YOU COULD BE DEVELOPING ONE, FIND A RELIABLE AND TRUSTED SOURCE IN YOUR LIFE AND ASK FOR HELP. I SUPPORT RECOVERY BECAUSE YOU ALL DESERVE IT.

Water is very important, do not underestimate how important it is. It’s literally between life and death.

The time between the 12 hour and the 24 hour marks are by far the hardest (for me atleast).

After the 24 hours, I’ve realised that I never actually feel hungry - I just feel like I should be eating. Very different things, I’ve learned.

Stretching really isn’t my friend, my head went so fuzzy l o l.

Vitamins and Energy Boosters!!! I felt very fatigued, so I drank some energy boosting suger/milk/calorie free tea and ate some vitamins to keep me strong and alert which mostly worked.

ICE WATER IS YOUR FRIEND. ITS SO COLD AND KEEPS YOU ALERT.

You. Can. Still. Gain. At. Night. Please remember that if you are fasting, your body is still changing so if you weigh yourself 2+ times a day, your weight WILL fluctuate up and down.

Avoid staying up late, hunger pains are always worse from 2am onwards (again, for me atleast).

If you feel woozy, take in some deep breaths and drink some water. If you still feel dizzy - EAT SOMETHING

Keeping busy with low energy activities such as reading, watching tv/YouTube, writing, homework, studying, light cleaning or any hobbies similar is very important as it keeps you distracted, productive and can make you feel happier if you feel accomplished.

For the love of god, avoid heavy exercising after the 18 hour mark, you can’t afford to be losing all that energy and sweat etc etc. I’m not a genius but I just know it’ll do you more damage than good okay? Stick to walking and stretching. Save the running and heavy exercise for days you decide to eat

If it gets to a point where you physically feel like you might pass out, or you have to grab things to support you while you walk, or your vision disappears momentarily after quick movements (such as standing or turning around), or you physically can’t stand still without swaying - EAT. Whether it’s a snack like apples or a full meal, just eat it. You really are going to need it if you don’t want to risk fainting - especially if you are alone or at work - or being hospitalised.

I hope this helps someone even a little, because keeping these in mind have helped keep me a little safer while fasting.

Fasting is hard. I just got done fasting for 42 hours (yay!) and it was sooo difficult. But because i now have control i’m going to fast again soon.

So i’d like to share my best tips on how to take control, stay in control, and fast.

NEVER EXERCISE WHEN FASTING!!

1. The first 12 hours are always the hardest. Distract yourself for the first 13 hours. yes 13 because by then the hunger pains will have subsided greatly. Read a book, watch movies. STAY AWAY FROM FOOD.

2. Drink diet soda when you’re stomach starts grumbling loudly and you feel super hungry. The carbonation will trick your mind and plus, the flavor will help you stay sane.

3. Chew sugar free MINT gum. The flavor will actually make your stomach feel at ease. It tricks your mind that you’re full. And i mean… who can actually eat something after that strong mint taste?

4. Brush your teeth every 6 hours. One, it’s keep your teeth hygienic and strong. And  same with the gum, the mint taste will make it harder to eat. And if people ask if you want food, you can tell them you just brushed your teeth so you can’t.

5. If you must eat dinner with your family; say you have a stomach ache, sore throat, or even that your heads hurts too bad and you should take a nap.  

6. If step 5 doesn’t work; hide the food. In your sleeves, down your shirt, in your pockets. feed it to the family pet. You can even do this trick-

(Get a cup and fill it with a little bit of water. Put the food in your mouth and chew DON”T SWALLOW and every few bites act like you’re about to take a drink drink, but actually spit the food into the cup.)

7. If you fast for more than 36 hours and you feel faint; take a nap, drink diet soda, chew gum, or you can even chew food and spit it out.

8. Look at thinspo constantly. This way you won’t lose motivation.

9. Do your makeup and/or have a spa day.You deserve the self care. And this will make you want to look beautiful, thin, small, perfect. Search up clothes you’ll wear when you reach your goal weight.

10. Stand in front of the mirror naked. Remind yourself why you’re doing this.

STAY STRONG!!

If you can have enough control to say no, then you WILL reach your ultimate goal weight. Just keep going.

Hope none of your clothes fkn fit for the new year. Hope you have to trek it out to EXPENSIVE boutiques to buy clothes that actually look good and have to pay a dumb amount of money to tailor them in to fit your new, sickly frame.

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i. do. not. promote. eating. disorders. of. any. kind. whatsoever.

if you are trying to recover, please, get the fuck away from my blog.

the reason i have this blog is for my own motivation.

1) looking at literally every single persons body and seeming really fucking creepy

2) starving all day, binging all night

3) someone calls you skinny, you binge

4) binging periods - anywhere from several hours to even months where you utterly hate yourself and need to stop eating but you c a n t and food just keeps popping into your mouth

5) binge nights - 4am on the kitchen floor with like 3 empty jars of Nutella, half eaten loaf of break and like 2 chocolate cereal boxes around you

6) exercising until you faint or come close to it