BREATHE it in and SCREAM it out

I helped myself. wiped my own tears. put balm over fresh wounds. plastered parts of my heart that still were hurting. gave myself time. read books that soothed my soul. heard music that calmed my nerves. watched movies that made me smile. bit by bit, piece by piece, I put myself back together again. and I gave myself a second chance because I know that if I didn’t, then no one else would.

I helped myself. wiped my own tears. put balm over fresh wounds. plastered parts of my heart that still were hurting. gave myself time. read books that soothed my soul. heard music that calmed my nerves. watched movies that made me smile. bit by bit, piece by piece, I put myself back together again. and I gave myself a second chance because I know that if I didn’t, then no one else would.

I helped myself. wiped my own tears. put balm over fresh wounds. plastered parts of my heart that still were hurting. gave myself time. read books that soothed my soul. heard music that calmed my nerves. watched movies that made me smile. bit by bit, piece by piece, I put myself back together again. and I gave myself a second chance because I know that if I didn’t, then no one else would.

I helped myself. wiped my own tears. put balm over fresh wounds. plastered parts of my heart that still were hurting. gave myself time. read books that soothed my soul. heard music that calmed my nerves. watched movies that made me smile. bit by bit, piece by piece, I put myself back together again. and I gave myself a second chance because I know that if I didn’t, then no one else would.

I tried so hard to keep loving you- I really did. There were so many times that I stayed when I should have left.

The first mistake I made was loving you more than I loved myself, I put your needs and feelings before mine, and in the end I ended up alone and empty.

I keep thinking that I’m getting better, and I’m reaching the surface… finally going to be able to breathe the air for the first time in years. But then something happens and I get dragged back down deeper than before wondering why the hell I even tried in the first place.