I Can't Stay Stuck Like This Forever.

It hurts when I close my eyes. It's hurts more to stay awake. What do you do when the person you loved most in the world decides they just don't feel the same way. When you want the same things in life in the next few years but they just can't see that future with you. I think that's what hurts the most. I want to be enough for someone so badly and for the first time ever I felt like I was. Was told I was. But now I'm alone again. All I can do is lay here and blame myself, wondering what I did wrong despite being explained to ten times that it's just something that happened over the months. I tried so hard to be perfect. Everything was going great and I'm so mad at myself for fucking it all up. And I'm alone.