lions make you brave

is anyone else getting absolutely no work done at all

There's something about the low moods that makes me feel so sick. I know things like hygiene and nutrition become irrelevant when I'm at my worst but there really is a sort of complete feeling of being physically ill that comes with it.

I always see post's dpd, or borderline personality disorder, about being clingy, or needy, or whatever, but can we talk about the periods of time where we feel like we aren't good enough, where we aren't enough, or that we just assume your tired and irritated with us so we completely cut off contact and push you away because we feel it's better for you. Because I don't see enough post's about this, and I'm in this place right now with so many people. Because I feel like I bother people, like I'm a nuisance, like I'm not enough or I'm not even a person so why would they want me around. Does anyone else with bpd get this?

my personal curse is the knowledge that I function best with rigid structure and strict routine but am almost totally incapable of independently establishing or maintaining that structure and routine

!!i’ve been treated so badly in the past that now i have a hard time accepting it when people actually treat me with love and respect. like what??? u actually care about my well being??? u really do love me and think about me???? who wouldve thought????? not me!!!!!

I want to kill myself but I’m comfy in bed so maybe another time 🙃