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My bishonen prince oomf said it best though when he said it's weekend calories so it doesn't count (it's monday)

Im 5'3 btw so like a midget so 52kg isnt even enough god take me up

I feel so ass i feel lonelier than ever there is lightttt all around me i am just too selfish and spoiled and hoity toity to accept it i guess. i feel like if i suffer the rest of my life ill be relieved that i paid for my selfishness, the selfishness that makes me not pursue happiness despite being given so much, and then everything will be fine

Ive done nothing the past month my exams start in less than a week i cant wait to get the fact that i wasted my time bedrotting being a cringy crybaby emo presented in the form of a report card its such a great arbiter and itll be a tiny little foreshadower that i will waste every future hope and opportunity and chance as well

Drew for a friend . Was meant to be a chubby shota but its a terrible fail in that regard so ill try again

Its not loneliness or insecurity or a lack of purpose, ive fixed all of those before and it gave me no contentment it gives nothing its just an empty hope to think that your issues will end if you just socialize properly if you perform properly if you live properly theres no reward in propriety people who behave normally, they do so because it just comes naturally to them, right? Tjats so fucking unfair its so unfair goooooodddddddddddddddddddd i wish i was normal with normal needs with normal desires why am i aroace i cant pull regardless but if i was allo and couldnt pull then id spend my days wallowing in self pity but i dont even get to feel that i just have to endure emptiness