hibrayden:
âSober Ivy would not be over me like this.â Brayden admitted, a chuckle folloing in his words lead. Ivy was here, she wasnât resisting being near him. She sat down with him out of will even though he scared off that no life, Mark. The touch was so familiar, that past memories flipped through his mind. He so longed for the days he could laugh with her again, catch himself staring at her â falling in love slowly as she rambled on about something he wasnât paying attention to. Brayden would shrug it off when she turned back to him with brown eyes painted wide on her face, waiting for his reaction and heâd laugh. She would know. Brayden would love to drown in his thoughts, never wanting to escape the days where things were simpler. Where he could have been Mark. He could have been the guy in her life to hold her and wake up to her and kiss a path down her body and claim her as but he wasnât. âDid you just call me Mark?â Brayden questioned, breaking from his mind and moving away from her as careful as he could to not have this drunk fall on the floor. âAre you that drunk that you canât even fucking see that Iâm not that steroid dumb minded asshole? Is that what your subconscious wants to see me as?!â His voice rose to a shout. Yeah, it stung â but he didnât know why it had stung so much that he was yelling at her. She didnât have a clue. He didnât think sheâd remember in the morning either but it was who Brayden was, he did things without thinking. âNo. No, you donât get to do this to me. You canât say shit like that because I am in love with you and youâre playing around with me.â Brayden moved up from the bed and backed away towards a wall, âYou think youâre any better? Youâre sitting here youâre talking bullshit!â crush on you in the eighth grade, why did that crush disappear? âI get it! Okay? I fucking get I fucked up leaving you to yourself for two fucking years and I am sorry. I am so sorry that you had to go through a world without me.â Brayden said with much added sarcasm. âBut I left you and I was already in love and that shit is beyond scary. Now, if you want to go fuck around with Mark? Congrats, not like I approve. but donât break my heart with your stupid words. You wanna make this work? Then .. then we have to either stop seeing each other or.. never mention us being us. I can move back to Rhode Island with my mom to make things easier.â
Brayden had left so suddenly that Ivyâs head fell backwards and there was a loud thud but she was too out of it to actually feel it. Besides, the yells in her room probably still would have hurt more if she could. Holding a hand to where sheâd definitely wake up to a bump, she just sat there trying to take it all in. Ivy didnât really anger easily when drunk, she got distracted too easily. In all senses, she was a giddy drunk. She tried her very best not to start giggling or say something dumb. Really, the things he was saying made sense, somehow. She hadnât meant to call him Mark or lead him on or hurt him. She was just drunk and Brayden was there and cuddling up against him felt safe; like the world outside wasnât there and if it was, it could wait a while. âYouâre right, Iâm..â she tried to stop him but to no avail. He just kept going and going and it started to make her feel nauseous. Especially when he mentioned leaving again. In the moment, that felt like the worst thing he could ever suggest to her. Ivy just sat there, staring at him for a few moments. She opened her mouth as if to speak but changed her mind soon after. Leaning back against the headboard, she sighed quietly. âI canât stop seeing you, Bray... But youâre not going to make me beg you to stay.â Ivy closed her eyes to fight the tiredness but it seemed to only add to it. âIâm sorry I called you Mark. Youâre not Mark. Youâre Bray,â she let out with a sort of exhaling kind of laughter. âYou yell, you get angry, you project.. But I understand. I always understand. Because youâre Bray. And Iâm Ivy.â She yawned while speaking her name and slipped down under the blankets again. âI just donât wanna hurt anyone,â was the last thing she said before seemingly having forgotten anyone was even there with her in the room.














