Ignorance is bliss homie

I think this is the first time I legitimately miss my mom and being with her and my brother since I left my home country. I've always felt I had what I needed in order to feel content during holidays. But the past month has been really fucking rough. I don't see a future right now. I just want to curl up in a ball and be taken care of by my mom and not have to worry about the outside world for a while. But I guess I'm a grown up now, so gotta be a big girl.

So here I am smashing 5rep maxes at the gym. I'm focused as fuck with my headphones on, trying not to drop the barbell on my head during OHP. And then all of a sudden my one and only gym crush walks in. Haven't seen him in a while but oh boy, he's leaner than fucking chicken. And then he decides of all days that today is a good day to say hi. The struggle. 🙀

Ready for job interview. I hate job interviews. The fact that I don't even know what position it's for makes it worse. Blaahh. 

Hire me plz...

I can die happy now.