reign of love

That show is so weird and wonderful.

I miss old friends I haven’t spoken to in years. I miss old friends I haven’t seen in years. Fuck, I even miss people that I recently spoke with. That’s how nostalgic I am right now.

I didn’t know this until today, but Facebook Messenger stores every message/convo you have ever had with someone.

I went through so many old conversations. So many different stages in my life.

After reviewing all of these old convos, one thing became abundantly clear: I USED TO SUCK AT TEXTING BACK/RESPONDING. two of my exes even messaged me and said that i sucked. And you know what? I didn’t message back. Lol. I wish I could go back and change that. I’m not like that anymore.

It’s crazy because everyone changes and grows. I am grateful for growth. But some pieces of you stay the same, and I am grateful for that too.

I dont know if i can do this.

Two of my classes have exams every week.

In addition to clinical every other day.

And the doctoral project is due also at the end of this semester.

And the hardest course of the entire program, regional anesthesia, is already kicking my ass.

Earlier tonight at dinner i literally burst into tears and David was like ????? He understands but sometimes i swear crying just makes me feel better.

At least all my classmates are going through the same hell as me.

CANT WAIT UNTIL THE END OF THE SEMESTER IN APRIL.