Qu'el repose en paix.

Hoping to leave these horrible two weeks behind me soon. I have pretty much been in a constant state of anxiety (fight or flight phenomenon) and the anxiety has turned physically on my throat. I constantly feel like I am being choked, making it hard to breathe which causes me to hyperventilate, which continues the cycle. I lost 2kgs already because it's very comfortable to eat too. I had to start medication to help keep the anxiety in check too, something I never dared to imagine hearing all the horror stories about anti-depressants. It's difficult to even leave the house and visit a store at this point. Ever since I officially got diagnosed with autism last year I've been under layers of stress due to multitudes of psychiatric appointments and I have developed symptoms I never previously struggled with due to said stress. Honestly, I wish I could go back to the time before the diagnosis, my only issue back then was that it was difficult –or rather impossible– for me to find or hold a job. I barely know how to deal with all of this.