Yesterday i have learned something about someone i cared about.
someone i considered to be family.
this person has made a transformation into a person i dont recognize anymore.
this person turned out to be selfish & dissrespectfull .
not giving a fuck about who this person hurts.
even if it means the people closest to you.
the ones that where always loyal to this person,
the ones that where there , when everyone else left this person in the dirt.
i was one of the ones that stood by this person through it all.
the good the bad and the ugly, and vice versa.
but this year has been a year of seeing someone i thought was my homie.
my family,
become a complete stranger.
i got ignored,
and probably replaced.
why?
that is the Question i have asked myself for months.
and now i dont give a fuck anymore.
but why is this person changing into a stranger that is becoming arrogant.
and not having any sympathy what so ever anymore.
but this person does want sympathy from people for this person situation.
if this person ever reads this.
i never wanted to hurt you.
but you have hurt me.
so bad.
you know my struggles,
and i knew yours.
but i felt like you always thought your shit was worse than mine.
in the beginning i wanted to yell and scream saying ive been through more than you ...ever since ive been a little kid ive been though hell and back.
with abuse ,and more shit
not having my dad in my life & you did.
never had money , & you did.
and you never had a problem until you where an adult.
thats who angry and sad i was.
but i had to tell myself this is not a contest.
and its not a contest.
& i know you are hurt inside too.
but that doesnt mean you should make the ones you claim to love your stepping stones.
i never did.
neither should you.
am i scared to put this out.
yes!!
cause im scared of losing you ,
but the fact is ...you have lost me
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