Life of Mon

There are mixed messages in my brain; it is a dumpster fire. By dumpster-fire, I mean I haven’t written much- I haven’t written for so long that I am not able to process my thinking much. Hence it is a mixture of useless, dumb and helpful thoughts, on a 50-20-30 ratio. (Notice how I didn’t add dumb and useless together?)

I have pushed some useless thoughts into the deep recesses of my mind…

Image Captured from this video by Metro Life

I live in a city in Bangladesh. It is a super populated country located in the Indian Suncontinent. Here you can hardly find 160-meters of clear road ahead  of you unless after you are stopped by a traffic-signal for a long time…and a lot of times, it’s not a signal that can get us to stop, it’s by a signal plus an officer managing the driveways; we’re…

I felt weird after a post I published yesterday and then deleted it. It was titled ‘ooof’ I think. So here is ‘Ooof 2’.

That’s it.

Ok. No. But I really don’t know what else to write. I am in University finally but there’s some shit that’s been going on which I might be taking too seriously because of my anxiety. I got really down in the dumps after the last time I posted here and….this is pretty…

Muh great(ly boring) thoughts

I got exams. I do relaxation techniques everyday. I am holding up pretty well since I dropped one of my depressant without even telling doc. Yes, I had done it before. I know the effects ain’t that much but only to go back if I am feeling the insect (in my mind) again.

I’ve dropped T.V altogether. I mean I have for a long time already. And I am NOT up for listening to bullshit cable-news. I’ve…

Terror Attack and NHS

NHS helped the victims of Manchester terror attack in hospitals. While they might have enough to help the victims, please, if you can, donate blood (esp if you are O-neg) so they can have a steady supply for them to run. All terror attacks leave a scar on humanity and all we can do is help each other.

https://twitter.com/GiveBloodNHS/status/866915391616032768

Knowing means refining the current data.

Your  supposedly ambitious vision

kept in the pocket of your heart

Your plans for changing your ways-  ill-considered.

Unmoored from reality again- that

You’ll pass by enjoying doing it

the easy way. Or so you say….said

while your time wasn’t up..

It’s a good practice to get out of your comfort zone and see that the world doesn’t work how you think it does. Even if you never get out of your comfort zone, change will come in some form or another- in the sign of stress, angst, etc. It’s in your biology to go with the change and with that comes the modesty about your weaknesses.

I say ‘weakness’ not as something bad, but as something that…

I don’t write so often

    Credit @HeritageSnapper

  I am using a random image to help me write. I feel weird writing because I feel talking is better for me (how weird of me to “say” that). I can’t figure out WHAT I want to write. I learnt the tip to not edit while you write, but it’s hard to bullshit so long without any edits. I almost talked about politics.

I am trying to get myself to write because “If you didn’t…

Tip of the week: Methods of Goal Tracking

As usual, I share tips by the end of the audios and babble in the beginning.

https://soundcloud.com/mon-maryum/tip-of-the-week-find-your-preferred-goal-trackerplanner

(Image in Audio- Source)

I actually follow her method but with a twist. I record how much I rate myself on various taskts daily on an app called Daily Diary (it has many categories to write the various progresses for a single day).…

I got kind of worried if that IS how he really thought of the comment? (And not just saying that as a defense) Was he right to think that way? (I know he insulted me with “lighten up” but I stayed calm and tries to think that through) Then I commented this to show how I saw this and tweeted to the user who said this to confirm.

My head is spinning. I got super anxious about anxiety (wow), suicide, etc things related to it and the moment some people started going, “Hey what if your boss sees this tweet?” I was like, I do NOT want to be responsible for anyone’s firing.

Did I do anything wrong? This is how OCD I can get (not joking, I HAVE OCD)  about being ‘just’ with someone.

Tip of the Week: Get an Awesome haircut

I made the mistake of going back to Twitter- again. And again. And again. It’s so easy to log into that fucking site and see who hates whom.

I haven’t done the ‘tip of the week’ thing I did in my audios because I don’t want to write transcripts for my audios. The audio is basically me embarrassing myself but I also share a tip that has helped me and made…..life easier, I guess because I hate hair…

It is incredibly hard to get all the ridiculous thoughts I’ve been getting in my head the past few weeks that I don’t know how to manage to write a post about them. Nothing serious. It’s just it’s all stuffed inside my head and it’s all gotten so old and rotten and now they’re starting to stink in there (Can you ever relate?).  I’ve made countless audio-tapes to express my thoughts but I don’t…

A little anti-govt and anti-media (Video)

The media expects everyone to believe that Assad gassed his own people after the Peace Conference (Peace talks) which would’ve helped the stability of his presidency in Syria- gassing his own people wouldn’t SERVE his PURPOSE! Without giving any substantial evidence, the media just showed a (video) picture of a gassed area and…

This week’s update and tip (Audio)

https://soundcloud.com/mon-maryum/week-2

In my last audio, I sounded very different from how I usually sound. It sounded weird, it sounded raw….it sounded weird. I forgot to upload earlier but it’s felt like only 3 days passed since my last audio. Maybe that’s an effect of reducing one of my pills (Joking!) On that note, I am meditating for making up for taking one less pill.

Recently I reduced…