The Cipher

:((

You’re probably constantly worrying about the next part of your life without realizing that you’re right in the middle of what you used to look forward to

i really love oversized clothing that distorts your silhouette. I love being formless

If only I could slit this pale and devastated skin bloated with demons and pain overflowing in my spirit, it could have ended. If only I could watch my blood cascading with my dull lips. If only I could perceive the crawling pain raging in me—yearning to get released. If only I could, I would reveal every agony and chronic misery harrowing in me for they hide underneath the sugar coated lies pretending to be absolute and aesthetically pleasing. Perhaps if I couldn’t stop it, I would let my demons flee in tingle. I would welcome them in me and explore my own structure. I would beg the pain agonizing me, assaying to kill every screaming hues in my soul, I never felt alive again. I would bid adieu with no choice but to settle with all the affliction you have caused me.