Dream Chaser

Feels.

It feels like floating in the air, To love someone who cares. You make me fall each time I see you smile.  Our music played and feel your embrace. Let me take you to a journey with no end.

You’re my sugar, you’re my spice. Your hands, your lips, your eyes; I wish that you were here right by my side. You have my heart, right from the start. I know I’ll never find a girl someone like you.

For you gave me reason to hold on. You made my life complete And I know that you’re the right girl, You’re the one. Come to me my baby, let me hold you tight. Close your eyes and kiss my lips a thousand times. Every time I hear you whisper and tell me that you love me too, I’m in paradise. . . Oh please don’t close your eyes. Say it again, that I am the one. I can’t imagine when you’re gone, I wouldn’t last a day. This time I’m sure I’ll never let you go. Don’t ever change, just stay the same. Yes, I’ll never find a girl someone like you.

Change.

Suddenly.. things have changed.. situation and flow slowly changed.. Change is the constant thing that could make us uneasy, uncomfortable; think and feel of uncertainties. Things that could make us feel weak, unwanted, unimportant, discouraged, and even disoriented.

Maybe you are right, and I am wrong? Or it could be that you are wrong, and I am are right? Totally out of words to say,  just to stop us from being in pain. I wish I just never thought of something.. so I can make things right. I wish you were not hurt. So am I. . Please don’t leave me hanging. -M

Year 2020 just happened. Just like that. Before it ended, we’ve been through a lot. Struggled. Out of school. Lost jobs and even a family member. Tried new things and even went out from our comfort zones.

Going out my comfort zone have been a huge step for me, just like everybody else. Let me share to  you my story. . . One friend of mine once told me few years ago to do some print ads, he even said that there’s no harm in trying. I declined it. I don’t much have that confidence in me to do such things like that. All I know is I am only good at cooking (maybe? that’s what my mom says. lol). It feels like half of my life I’ve been working in the kitchen. Yes, I am a professional chef. Started working early and I’ve started working overseas at the age of 21. Did a lot of things on my own: decision making, solved many problems on my own, etc. In other words, became so independent at a very young age (not normal in Filipino culture). By the way, I am living in Finland for almost 4 years now.

Back to going out of my comfort zone. I just started to make my portfolio few months before the year 2020 ended. Until now, I still don’t know if this will bring me somewhere else. At least somehow I am now learning how to smile in front of the camera. LOL. I never expected that things would happen so fast. After posting new several fresh photos for my IG feed, without knowing, I am already starting to build my audience, connect with them, and get them involved to everything that I am posting. These kinds of things are all new to me. On the other hand, I am still feel thankful and blessed for them. I don’t get much serious engagements and deals yet with brands, for me that’s fine. As they say, soon, one day things will just happen in the most unexpected ways.

If you are reading this, enjoyed my story and felt curious about it... please feel free to join me. You can follow me on Instagram and Facebook @itsmarlonhalili ..to keep you updated about my new journey.

Going out my comfort zone.