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“You’re either a Blessing or a Lesson”
I found this quote somewhere on tumblr a long time ago, I think it might've been said by Frank Ocean but don't quote me on that. This particular thought always stayed with me with the way I interacted with people.
As a homeschooled child, I never realized how naive my expectations for other people in the world were. In a sense, I probably believed I was better than everyone else, in that I held myself to high moral standards, and my friend once told me that I was one of the few people she felt had such a moral compass who would never do the wrong thing or hurt someone. My college years, I learned two things: the full extent of my ability to hurt somebody I cared about (even unintentionally), and second of all, just how wrong the assumption that others hold the same beliefs, perceptions, or morals you do is.
I entered college beginning to experiment so that I could find my sense of self, both on a personality and aesthetic level- I made mild changes such as growing my hair long, got it ombre'd, began wearing some make up, piercing my ears, paying attention to the way I dressed more and how I carried myself. It was such a sense of vulnerable freedom, to spread your wings out yet knowing that the immediate safety net of your parents weren't beneath if you fell. I tried to reinvent myself for the better- the cooler, more confident version of me. To my disbelief, I was not quite a wallflower anymore, and even though I was still really shy, I forced myself to try to venture out my shell, and realized people not only seemed to notice me, but liked me.
However, my confidence was still in a budding phase, and the few people I felt a click with, I attached myself to quickly; I saw only their great qualities when they showed me a small act of kindness, and without realizing it, I subconsciously put them on a pedestal. And then the first time they broke my trust or let me down, I felt myself spiraling downhill. I wasn't sure why my sense of other people's emotions were so heightened, and oftentimes I can't fall asleep at night being overwhelmed by all the problems that exist everywhere: I wish I could turn it off.
The intensity of my personality has given me the ability to observe and for the most part, see each individual clearly for both their flaws, potential, and beauty. Everyone possesses both "good" and "bad" qualities, and these traits are what make them unique. I grew up seeing the world in black and white, but now I see that many things fall in the gray. Things don't always work out in life, and we might end up becoming lessons in other people's stories, but that doesn't mean we should stop striving to be blessings.
As for ourselves, once we realize not everyone around us think on the same wavelength, we can reach a better understanding and be more tolerant and take things less personally. If someone wrongs you, they are simply a lesson; move on, and cherish the ones who are blessings.
Embrace your strengths, and continue improving the rest.
Navigating a Social War Zone
Today, I was describing to someone what I experience suffering from social anxiety in particular. I went to my friend’s BBQ July 4th weekend just to try something new for myself, and found myself somehow returning for their weekly fellowship. While I’ve had a great time getting to know everyone individually and as a group, the first few impressions of figuring out the relationship between everyone is both interesting and stressful. This is the time again when you get a fresh start, as in high school, then college, study abroad, networking, building relationships and new friendships. Each person is also probably on their best behavior and feeling each other’s vibes out, and I’ve been trying extra hard to push my introverted self out to make those connections, throwing myself out into the abyss and trying not to worry so much. But really, it’s a bit like navigating a social war zone… you don’t want to come off too close and eager or clingy or desperate, but also you want to be friendly and confident and personable. You don’t want anyone to think you’re over flirty or crossing boundaries to someone they might be having a thing with, and because you don’t know any better, it’s pretty difficult. I don’t want to offend anyone but also be open about my thoughts and my personality, I want to be friends with everyone but not awkwardly ask for phone numbers or seem lost, crazy, prude, or whatever else judgments.
Also, everyone is just so damn friendly and there are so many guys at this church that it’s hard for me to tell if that’s just the way it is. Regardless, I’ve just been riding the wave, suddenly I’m invited to multiple events each week, I had the best time chilling in their town and church, and definitely feel the warmth of a community that is rare to find.
All I can do is keep faking it till it’s real. That’s all for now.
Images: Likeable vs. Genuinely Good People
Paul: I am glad that you have shot this footage and that the world will see it. It is the only way we have a chance that people might intervene.
Jack: Yeah and if no one intervenes, is it still a good thing to show?
Paul: How can they not intervene when they witness such atrocities?
Jack: I think if people see this footage they’ll say, “oh my God that’s horrible,” and then go on eating their dinners. –Hotel Rwanda
We’re often taught to cut the negative out of our lives, hence this quote made total sense that the privileged who can afford to, would turn it off. Just like that. Everyone seems to give off the illusion of a luxurious, carpe diem life on social media, in terms of instagram, facebook, and twitter, but we all know that’s not true: we just like showing off the highlights. I do know some people who actually are kind of air-headed and live in their own bubble of privileged happiness, traveling a lot and always partying, and in person too always carefree in comparison to others. We ask the question, what if we were all honest, and put up pictures of our difficult times as well? I think once in awhile, it’s okay. Just like how once in awhile, if a kid sprained their ankle and it sucked for a brief couple of months, we’d all rally around and help them out. But permanently? That’s a different story. Nobody wants to be reminded even more at every corner, every profile, every page, of the negative. In many ways, we prefer to live in our own projections of a happy world, and that’s the beauty of immersing yourself in film: escapism. It just might be too much to handle to sit down for a moment and really reflect and absorb all the shit that is going on at any second in the world, somewhere, to someone.
When I met people who I felt were selfish or weren’t doing well, I would be tempted to cut them out, but then I would pause and think about wanting to be saved and given a helping hand, and a second chance from others to stick around and care.
There were a lot of things I experienced for the first time in college. Most of it were social aspects. It was the first time I really had to force myself to venture out of my comfort zone and approach other people, realizing that it was a bit of a sink-or-swim situation: if I did not try, I would simply go through four years a forever loner.
As I encountered many strangers, I wanted eagerly to be friends with everyone. I was in for a rude awakening, and my first mistake was in believing that everyone thinks the same way that I do. Some people smiled a lot and seemed “nice.” Others seemed a bit less approachable and kept to themselves, or were way too sassy, outspoken, or different for me to handle.
What I learned though, was that there is a HUGE difference in the make up of one’s character. Likeable people are the friendly, popular ones that everyone enjoys taking pictures with, has a generally good impression of, who get the most Facebook “likes,” and who everyone seems to gravitate towards. But genuinely good people may come off cynical or even rude, but they will never actually bear to screw you over where and when it matters.
But everything is a contradiction: we’re taught that money can’t buy happiness, and yet we always want more- we live in a consumeristic society. What is the true balance of having ambition versus learning to be satisfied with our status in life? How do we know when to try to help others versus what we owe to ourselves? Because sometimes being a true good person is not giving when you have enough, but sacrificing your own so that others can have at all.
What I do know is that life should be spent either being productive and the beauty of learning is that it is never-ending growth. And I don’t mean productivity in terms of just studying, or making money, but also filling the rest of the time up in adding to your happiness or learning. So much to learn. Take advantage of the opportunities, wake up and really see, breathe, recognize it all, and have the courage to put it in action and actually grasp it. So much easier said than done though, right?
I’d like to believe that I am the one giving others the benefit of the doubt, but over time I grew more pessimistic and less likely to risk what little I preserved for myself. Energy, optimism, encouragement, whatever it was. To be completely realistic, there will always be people who might waste away your precious energy, but does that mean we should just stop giving and reject their needs? Hard to determine.
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When someone makes me angry but I have no energy left
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The sensitive suffer more; but they love more, and dream more.
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