Stuck in my HEAD...

I HAD to cut off the intro because of copyright but that’s just 10-ish seconds and songs begins when first line starts * idk if i’m making any sense here*

I want to be calm.

- Forgetting literally everything from phone calls to visits to where you put your wallet(I just had it I swear )

- Needing 12 hours of sleep everyday but only in the middle of the day

- Void days

- “I’ll clean my room tomorrow” everyday

- feeling guilty/like a failure when u cant be happy for other ppl

- TERRIBLE, ALL-CONSUMING JEALOUSY

- being angry at other ppl when you just dont have the energy to be angry at urself anymore

- whining allllll the time

- not doing things you know you need to do (not doing laundry for weeks, etc)

- listening to people tell you that you aren’t depressed when you’ve had a medical diagnosis

-  yelling at people when you really just want to cry

- pretending to be happy when you’re around people who think everything’s fine

- trying to get help but being ignored

- when your sister starts treating you like dirt, which is something you only expected from your parents

- basically just feeling like complete shit all the time

- not being in control of your own emotions

- crying yourself to sleep

- not getting the help you deserve

- thinking nobody cares except your gf/bf