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iâm back again AND SERIOUSLY DEPRIVED OF THE ITOSHIS THE SEASON ENDED AND I WAS SOBBING. RINS BOBA EYES OMG??đ
okay now on topic, i was listening to snow on the beach and i had the craziest revelation like- ever? itâs like the snow scene that we all know and love (crying) and sae lovesss the beach.
so why am i thinking that heâs sitting there after he comes back from japan on a winter night with his s/o and it just starts snowing and itâs literally:
âitâs fine to fake it till you make it till you do, till itâs true now itâs like snow in the beach weird but fucking beautifulâ
PLS.
HI YANG HI YANG I FINISHED IT TOOK ME MONTHS BUT ITS POSTED
tags: fluff/kinda comfort, established relationship, holy shit i love sae itoshi, based on snow on the beach.
a/n: hi yang i hope you enjoy :3 meant to finish this a while ago but Things Happen. to my other anon requests ILL GET TO YOU I THINK IM SORRY ITS BEEN MONTHS AND MONTHS
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the beach is cold in the evenings.
real surprise, you think. 6pm on a january night, with suspicious looking clouds staining the skies- of course it's cold.
you fight back a shiver, cursing your previous decision to forego a jacket. still, you step closer to where the sand begins, eyes locked on a half-shadowed form some distance away.
sae itoshi's back is hard to miss.
he sits on a rocky ledge dividing the boardwalk from the beach, leaning ever so slightly forward. his eyes are glued to the dark waters, the sun just barely peeking out from the horizon.
he's beautiful. he looks sad.
"sae," you call out, only a few steps away now.
he stiffens and relaxes in the same moment, shoulders tensing and sinking. "y/n." he says, quietly.
you stop, just barely behind him. you hesitate over your words, uncertain.
"are you okay?" you decide on.
sae turns ever so slightly to shoot you a look, raising one brow in his classic contempt. "come here," he says drily, not responding to your question.
you find it hard to say no. you bite your lip though, still a little hesitant, as you step over the ledge to sit next to him.
almost instinctively, he leans into you, and you feel yourself relax at the familiar warmth.
the two of you sit there. you want to ask him something, ask him why he was sitting at the beach on a winter sunset, why there was a cloudiness behind his eyes.
but you can't bring yourself to.
so you don't. instead, you reach over into his lap, brushing your fingers over his clasped hands. he concedes, unraveling his fingers to hold onto yours instead.
sae's hands run cold. still, there's a familiar comfort to it, his palms still soft despite the harshness of his life. (something to due with his expensive moisturizers, you suspect- but still.)
you squeeze his hand. after a pause, he squeezes back.
your breaths leave white clouds in the sky.
when the sun has long sunk fully below the waves, you shift. you're hesitant to break this silence, but a part of you thinks you need to.
"sae," you whisper, turning to face him. "it's late."
he doesn't get up. instead, he juts his chin away. "shh."
you look away from his tired eyes, and something cold hits your face.
snow slowly flutters down from the heavy clouds above, perfectly white in the dark of the night. you suck in breath of shock-
before you even realize, you're climbing to your feet, childishly holding out your hands to catch the drifting flakes. they melt in your hands, pinpricks of ice on your palms.
you step onto the sand, marveling at the sight. as if a switch had been turned on, the snow falls faster, some disappearing into the dark waters of the ocean and the rest falling atop of the sand.
"i've never seen it snow on the beach!" the words tumble out of your mouth, suddenly giddy. you turn towards your boyfriend. "you-"
your words falter.
sae isn't looking at the snow. his eyes are on you.
you can see the fatigue weighing them down, darkening the turquoise. but it's hard to spot- a pure adoration covers the exhaustion.
his eyes flit over every detail of your face, ever-calculating, and you feel increasingly bare at the sheer intensity of it.
he drinks the sight of you in like nothing else matters. the snow doesn't do anything to chill the warmth blooming in your cheeks, your stomach.
"sae," you manage to get out.
he raises an eyebrow. snow drifts onto his face, a flake landing in his eyelashes before he blinks it away.
"i- it's late."
he nods. his eyes don't ever leave yours. his lips part. you shiver.
tbh i write half of my fics in 3rd person first for my yumeshipping oc docs and it's so embarassing realizing that i haven't fixed some of my pronouns when i reread stuff
âi think you would be pretty as a girl,â you murmur.Â
sae itoshiâs eyes snap open, glaring up at you from where his head lays on your lap. ârepeat that?â his tone is cold.
you meet his gaze, cocking your head innocently. âi think you would be pretty as a girl. with your bangs down, a little mascara on those lashes,â you hum, considerate. âprobably a glittery lip gloss.â
he scoffs. âand you'd be fucking ugly as a guy.â
your jaw drops. âwhat the hell?â you slap his shoulder, wriggling. sae stays put. âget off of me. no way you just called me ugly.â
his only tenses his body further. âas a guy. clear difference.â
you halfheartedly push him again, somewhat offended still. âi think i would be hot as a guy, actually. all the girls would love me. but i would only come home to you, sae-chan,â you lilt the last words, laughter clear in your tone.
sae smoothly rolls off of you, disgust roiling off of him in waves. âyou sound like sendou,â he mutters, standing.Â
you blink up at him. âi sound- what? is sendou calling you sae-chan? do i have another striker to worry about? are you giving your number to this one too?â
sae shoots you another look. âif sendou called me that, he would be dead in the ground. no, he told me i would make a pretty girl once,â he pauses. âand you donât need to worry about anyone.â
that possibly did not answer your question. âokay, that last bit was smooth. but- why is sendou thinking about what you look like as a girl?â
he rolls his eyes. âthey went through my bag last match. found your makeup. which you should not be leaving in my shit.â
the words take you a second to comprehend. âand they thought you- youâre joking!â you gasp. âtell me youâre joking.â
saeâs face only darkens. âi donât joke. fucking idiots, all of them.â
that only makes you start laughing, genuine tears pricking into your eyes. âoh my god. they think you wear lip gloss. sendou thinks you would-â you trail off, words dissolving into laughter.
he fixes you with another glare. âitâs not funny. and youâre not funny.â
you pause, studying his face. he raises an eyebrow.
âdo you want to try?â
his face scrunches in confusion. âtry what.â
âlip gloss,â you beam.
before he can reply, you're rummaging in the pocket of your jacket, ignoring the jingle of spare change in a matter of seconds, there is a shiny gloss in your hands.
sae glares at you in incredulity. âhave you lost-âÂ
he stops, watching you apply the gloss liberally onto your lips instead.Â
with a grin and a glint in your eye, your dramatically pucker your lips. âyou know you want to.â
sae stares. and then he's stepping close, exasperation clear in his face. still, with the faintest of grumbles, he dutifully leans down, his lips meeting yours.
you've kissed hundreds of time. still, each one only seems to get sweeter.
the gloss is still sticky. he tastes like peppermint gum.
with a sigh, you break the kiss. saeâs eyes stay on yours, half-lidded and intense.Â
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i have been very creatively burnt out lately and my writing has not been at the level i like it to be,,, so to the ppl that submitted any asks, u guys will have to wait for some time longer so sorry đđđ
i am on thanksgiving break starting next week so there might be a post thrown in there,,,
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tags: confessions, getting together, friends to lovers
a/n: written from the idea made by the amazing @yangx2isawhore :3
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it's exactly 11:34pm when the ringing of your phone wakes you up.
jolting up from your bed, you blearily glare at your phone screen. the contact name of SHIDOUâźď¸ burns into your eyes.
you hang up.
a second later, it rings again.
"what."
"y/n!" as always, shidou's voice is just a little too loud for it to be acceptable. "how mad would you be if i killed rin right now?"
you pause. you look at the time. you consider the probability of him telling the truth.
"pretty mad."
"great!" and you can hear the grin in shidou's voice as he recites out an address. "you can come save him then."
although you were the one that had tried so hard to befriend rin itoshi, you were pretty certain that you hadn't signed up for whatever the hell this was.
you pull up at the address at a sharp 12:02 am, annoyance already settling in underneath your eyes.
the address is a mansion (why would you ever expect anything else), and the recognizable bass of party music blasts through the windows. at least a dozen different colored sports cars (you consider how much one would sell for) are parked outside of it.
you debate turning around. unfortunately, you think shidou might actually be serious about killing your best friend.
best friend. how did you get to this point? friend. didn't matter that you might have been in love with him- rin could never see you as anything more.
you knock on the door.
a man you might be able to recognize if you cared enough answers. his dual-colored eyes flit over you with interest.
"hey there, pretty," he says, and his voice is slurring with the unmistakeable touch of alcohol. "don't think you're on the invite list, but i can make an exception."
you scowl. "no thank you. shidou called me to come?"
he cocks his head. "what could someone like you possibly have anything to do with that psycho?"
"he-"
the psycho in question slams into two-eye's side, whooping. "took you long enough!"
you sigh.
shidou ryusei grins at you, positively buzzing with energy. the smell of cheap (why cheap? genuinely, why did he buy cheap alcohol?) beer lingers around his face.
"did you kill rin yet?"
the grin immediately wipes itself from his face. "getting there."
he whirls around, a warm hand latching around your own- and then he's pulling you through the hallways of this too-big house.
the music hasn't stopped for a second since you've got here. in many of the rooms, you can spot groups of vaguely recognizable people, all of them in various states of buzzed-to-plastered.
you wonder how professional athletes weren't any better than the frat boys that threw weekend parties. (well, the age range was pretty much the same)
"where are we?" you manage to shout into shidou's ear, as he pulls you further away from the heart of the party.
"sae's house!" he yells back.
"what?"
the two of you slam into another room- shidou shuts the door with too much force - and the music fades away into background noise.
rin's head snaps up at your entrance.
"rinrin!" shidou crows. "brought you another babysitter!"
rin stares at you with genuine confusion. his eyes are hazed over, his cheeks a light red. "what? y/n?" a red solo cup, ominously empty, sits by his hand.
"yes, yes," shidou replies, pushing you forward. "the only person who can somehow tolerate your presence is here!"
you slip out of shidou's grip. "what the hell is happening?"
he rolls his obnoxiously bright eyes at your question. "little itoshi's weirdly drunk and incoherent. which means big itoshi has to pretend like he cares. which means i can't force big itoshi to drink an enormous amount of alcohol! so now you have to watch this idiot!"
"i am not drunk," rin snarls towards shidou. "and i don't need a babysitter."
he attempts to get up from the counter he's perched on, and immediately wobbles. you debate whether it would be worth laughing.
before you can make a decision, another side door opens.
and sae itoshi meets your gaze with bored indifference.
"what- you!"
he raises an eyebrow. you're not sure how you got into this situation.
you wonder how you're supposed to react to meeting the one and only brother you've heard rin talk so much about.
some inner part of you immediately doesn't like him. the other part immediately notices how similar they look, and curse their sheer attractiveness.
either way, sae loses the little interest he had in you immediately, turning towards shidou. "is this-" he waves a hand towards you. "her?
shidou nods furiously. "junior is perfectly cared for now. now let's get out of here!"
rin glares at all three of you.
sae sighs. for someone who's supposed to be the host, he doesn't look thrilled at the prospect of socializing.
the elder itoshi turns his attention onto the younger. "you're fine with her?"
rin's eyes narrow further. he doesn't respond.
shidou takes that as his cue. his hands place themselves on sae's shoulders. "good talk, everyone!"
and with another slammed door, you are left alone with rin. it's more than a little awkward.
you open your mouth- he shoots you a glare. you can take a hint. (even if it breaks your heart.)
out of a bored curiosity, and maybe a little spite, you start opening cabinets. they're mostly empty (you wonder what kind of life sae lives).
rin's gaze follows you the entire way. it's intense enough to give you goosebumps.
eventually, you come across a pot of gold- a wine bottle, its cork untapped. there's a ribbon attached to its neck; you spy the JFU logo placed on top.
"he won't mind, right?" you ask.
silence follows.
you open the bottle. if you're going to be stuck here anyways, why let it go to waste?
surprisingly, it's rin that talks first. "why'd you come?" he mumbles out, stumbling over a syllable.
you shrug, taking another mouthful of the wine. (it's good. too good. damn rich people.) "shidou said he was gonna kill you."
âshidou has your number? you responded? why'd you care?" he blurts out in a tsunami of words. immediately after, he looks away with reddening ears.
you eye him with slowly growing amusement. there's a buzzing in your stomach that's slowly stripping your self control away. "yes. and yes. and because we're friends."
rin tch's, still refusing to meet your eyes. you think he'll keep talking, but he doesn't.
so you take another swig of the wine bottle. maybe rin can be the one to reach out for once.
but- like always- you're the first to crack. after a possible fifteen minutes of brooding silence, you sigh.
"what's going on with sae?"
rin's gaze snaps to your face. "what about him?"
you raise your brows. (you think you meant to raise only one. you can't really tell.) "i thought he didn't fuck with you."
rin's face scrunches at your words. "what?"
you groan, sliding down from your perch onto the floor. "you know? i thought- well, he looks like he cares."
he stands up. "he doesn't."
"sure."
he stares at you with a complicated expression, and then makes his way over to you. you blink up at him.
"i don't like you talking to him," rin says, seemingly more lucid than before.
"wasn't really my choice." you shoot him a smile, raising a hand. he lifts you up to standing with it.
from how close you now are, the two of you are almost touching. if you weren't as delirious on wine as you are now, this would be much more distressing.
even now, it takes all of your will to maintain eye contact with him.
"you don't like me talking to him?" you mumble out.
rin tilts his head. "no."
"can i ask why you came here then? or why you got plastered off cheap booze?"
he opens his mouth, then stops. and then- "you're not doing much better."
you clear your throat. more than the wine, it's rin who's clouding your thoughts. his faint cologne- so much more evident at this distance- intoxicates you.
"that didn't answer my question."
his eyes narrow. "i felt like it."
you frown. "what situation are you in that made you want to get drunk with shidou?"
and his eyes flicker down. to your lips.
"what do you think?"
you stumble; rin's hand places itself in the small of your back. signature itoshi teal burns.
you're both drunk. you're in his brother's house. and yet-
and yet, you're both here, and rin itoshi is leaning down into you.
his lips meet yours desperately, his breath catching over and over again. your hands tangle into his hair- he groans wordlessly.
you separate with a gasp.
"are you- what?" you manage, face ablaze.
rin looks just as disheveled. "y/n."
"rin."
he steps back, eyes roving from wall to wall. "fuck. fuck, im sorry. i thought-"
that's not the right words you wanted to hear. you step forward, the wine bottle long forgotten behind.
"you thought right," you blurt.
rin stares at you. a flush sits over his face.
"i thought you wanted to just be friends. that- that you didn't want me." you say.
surprise, and horror, flicks in his eyes. "what?"
you cough out a laugh. "not very smart off the field, are you?"
rin's mouth opens and closes, much like a fish. you think he's going to speak-
he closes the gap between you two, and his lips meet yours again.
between gasps, he mumbles a "i could never not want you." into your form.
and you sigh out your own declaration of love
somewhere in the house, a door slams. someone whoops in exhilaration.
but in this room, it's just you and rin. alcohol tinges both of your breaths. you're both drunk on something bigger.
GIRL THE ENTIRETY OF YOUR WORKS IS AMAZING???? i though i was crazy to associate characters with taylorâs song but you literally JUST DO THAT AND IM LOVING IT!
on the same note, rin is THEE dress character.
from the chorus to the verses?? like âiâm spilling wine in the bathtub you kiss my face and we re both drunkâ? so rin cause homeboy couldnât make a move sober for his life.
(i could do millions of these stop me or become my best friend istg)
AHHFDY THANK YOU SO MUCH!!! i am a firm believer that every taylor song can be applied to any fictional character perfectly if u try hard enough LOL
you are so right about rin and dress actually,,, i am thinking thoughts,,,
i think rin's perfect for reputation in its entirety tbh- he has that darker vibe that works with so many of its songs. so it goes? don't blame me?? godddd. (i am a sae girl through and through, but he just doesn't have enough of that moody intensity for rep đŠđŠ)
i will never tell you to stop girl these kinds of connections are my favorite thing ever.. be my best friend,,,
"you haven't had a girlfriend?" you ask, surprise coloring your voice.
rin itoshi stares at you like you've suddenly got infinitely stupider. "not before you."
"that's," you start, then stop. actually, now that you're really thinking about it, it does make sense. "you know what, yeah. seems about right."
offense glares in his eyes as he leans away from you. "the hell does that mean?"
you raise your brows. "what do you think, rin?"
he fully untangles his limbs from yours at that, shoving himself off of the couch. you protest at his motion - a little halfheartedly, but the effort is there .
standing up to his full height, rin itoshi glares down at you.
you blink up at him, smiling with all the innocence you can muster. "yes?"
"do you know how much fan mail i get?" he grits out. "how many chocolates i've gotten on valentine's?"
it takes quite a lot of effort for you to not start laughing. "i do know how popular you are, yes. you should see the edits on tiktok."
"so why-" rin falters. "edits?"
"go on."
it takes him a second. "i could've had a girlfriend if i wanted to," he says at last. "i just didn't."
you nod, still biting back a smile. "mhm. i'm sure all the girls would've loved you after seeing that personality of yours." you scoot over, offering up the space on the couch again.
rin continues to stare, but you can see his will weakening. "not like anyone wanted to date your lukewarm ass either," he says with a finality.
you snort. "i thought you grew out of that word."
he rolls his eyes.
"also- factually untrue. i've had boyfriends before."
and rin's entire demeanor switches. "what?"
you wave your hand, dismissive. "not like a lot, but. an average amount to have for a high schooler, i think. none of it was ever serious. not like you," you grin.
rin doesn't return it. genuine shock bleeds through his face; he turns on his heel. "i'm going to bed."
"wha- rin?"
forty five minutes later, you breeze into your shared bedroom. your teeth are freshly brushed, your skin lotioned, and you're almost ready for a good night's sleep.
"are you actually still mad about- what the hell are you doing?"
rin freezes, one hand still on the computer mouse. from your vantage point, you can see every pixel on that screen.
"is that my high school boyfriend?"
he turns in the swivel chair, very clearly not in bed. the classic 'itoshi indifference,' as you've coined it, masks itself over his face.
you step closer. "rin. is that, or is that not, the instagram profile of my ex."
he nods, slowly.
"can i ask why you're looking at his profile?"
he begins to shake his head, and then changes his mind (a good choice). but rin itoshi has never been too good at keeping himself calm-
"he's unemployed."
there's a beat of silence.
"sorry?"
"jobless. a leech on society. useless as a human being," rin continues. "a complete ass of himself, basically."
you stare at him. he stares at you. and then-
you burst out laughing. "are you serious?"
rin seems surprised by your reaction. it makes you laugh even harder.
"oh my god- you've been stalking his socials? for the last, like, hour?' you broke your stupid athlete sleep schedule for this?" there are genuine tears welling in the corner of your eyes. "for a guy i dated years ago?"
a little self-conscious now, rin stands up. "i was trying to sleep for the first twenty minutes. after that.." he trails off.
and you slam into him with a hug, still laughing. "i love you so much."
he stiffens at the initial contact, but gives into your touch the moment after. "i love you too?"
you hum into his ear. "they don't matter anymore. you know that, right? they never did- not seriously enough. you're the only one."
rin doesn't reply.
"and i know you could have any girl you wanted. but that doesn't matter to me. because you want me. and i will never get enough of you, rin itoshi."
his voice is a low murmur. "me neither. no one's ever compared to you."
and he presses a kiss onto your lips, and it's better than anything you've ever had.
hi hi!! I hope I'm doing the request the right wayđ It's my first time using tumblr ahah but yeah I was wondering if you could do "all too well" and sae itoshi :x thank you <3
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tags: angst, post breakup, flashbacks, journalist reader, angst angst angst, it's all too well come on now
a/n: happy belated birthday sae itoshi
your world pauses the day sae itoshi is spotted with a new girlfriend.
the photos are blurry, paparazzi shots taken from at least one building over. it doesn't matter. you would know the curve of his arm around a waist in a thousand different lives.
you have to admit she fits him. even as your hands shake, you can't deny that they look happy- something the two of you werenât so good at.
it doesnât stop you from harboring too-many amounts of memories all the same.
you met him before he had joined the world of the superstars, but after he had already been something greater. (you think that if you had met him before everything, you two wouldâve fared better.)
by the time you two had locked eyes, he was already changed. something inside of him had shifted, turning away from everyday life and facing immortal legacies instead. you had falsely believed you held a place in it.
you shouldâve known better, right from the very first words he spoke to you.
âyouâre not supposed to be here.â
you pause, looking up from your phone to face the voice.
cold eyes glare down at you, beautiful in color. the boy - because he can only be around your age, barely leaving the teenage years at most - they belong to is just as annoyingly beautiful. you think you should recognize him.
âexcuse me?â you ask, offense rising. âi know where iâm supposed to be.â
his eyes only narrow. âis this another shitty tactic? i said i was done with interviews.â
âgood for you, dude.â you roll your eyes, pushing past his shoulder. âwhy anyone would ever want to interview you, i have no idea.â
as you leave, you can feel his gaze on your back.
you blink, shaking yourself out of whatever that was. it's not good to linger on the past. (your therapist had told you that.)
still, she has also told you that one couldn't grow without recognizing what exactly they had to grow from.
perhaps that's why you find yourself rummaging in your bedside drawer for a deeply buried box, the ends of your fingers numb.
when you open it, youâre met with nothing but a handful of flimsy keepsakes. from fraying bracelets to notes to polaroids. all of them are snapshots of a relationship no longer yours, artifacts of what used to be your heart.
in each flashback, sae itoshi lingers.
the next time you met him, you had learned that he was supposedly a household name. (never in your household, though.)
the great hope of japanâs future -despite what he himself had to say about the country.
youâre a little embarrassed by what happened. still, you refuse to take all the blame.
âsae itoshi,â you blurt out. âyouâre here.â
those stunning eyes flicker to you, and he actually pauses. recognition actually stops him.
âyouâre the one who was lost,â he says, mildly. ânot pretending to not know me this time?
you flush. âin my defense, i didnât know you. i don't do the sports section.â
he raises an eyebrow. âthen why am i still seeing you?â
before you can respond, your boss comes rushing through the hallway, sweat beading on his brow.
âitoshi-san!â he blusters, barely sparing you a glance. âweâre so glad youâre here! is the intern bothering you? your interview is in the next room over, so if you just want to follow me- we're so grateful you decided to give us your exclusive.â
something twitches on saeâs face. âintern?â
offense rears its head in your chest. âwhat-â
âiâve changed my mind,â sae interrupts mildly. he turns to you, taking hold of one of the many pens lying on your desk.
ask you and your boss watch in bewilderment, he leans down and scrawls something on your notepad.
âsheâll get the exclusive,â he says, straightening back up. âwhen she isn't an intern anymore.â
and he turns and walks out of the building, leaving nothing but a string of numbers on a sticky note.
the same sticky note rips between your fingers. once you start, you can't stop yourself, until all you're left with is a pile of bright yellow scraps.
you move onto the next item. a wiry black wristband; one half of a forever missing set.
you had been dating sae itoshi for exactly one month. all of your friends still thought it was as some long-standing elaborate joke. at certain times, you couldn't believe it yourself either.
despite it all, despite every little memory you can pore over for hours at a time, you canât pinpoint the exact moment when things changed.
itâs a strange truth, one youâve struggled to come to terms with- but it's a truth. if someone were to ask you when your relationship with sae soured, you wouldn't be able to say.
perhaps it wasn't a singular moment. maybe it was a long time in the making, like how a banana slowly browns- until one day, itâs rotted.
either way, one form of heartbreak or another, the truth was this: