S T I N G

“ a complete and utter shit at it. ”

“ yes, someone have. someone still does see me in those moments. it is what it is, ugly. it also makes me feel ugly. ”

“ i would go to hawaii, i would take a cute dog with me. or maybe a cute girl -- the one who annoys me less. ”

“ nothing of your interest. ”

“ the only people i could feel remotely bad for disappointing in my life are either dead or gone, now whomever i disappoint, being close or not, is just collateral damage. ”

          THERE WAS A HOLE in sohyun’s heart no one could quite patch up - and the thing with hanbin was that he didn’t attempt to TRY. he was equally bruised and battered, the aftermath of a S T O R M, and despite her efforts she was drawn to him like a child playing with a flame. she couldn’t stay annoyed at him for something so petty ( she was always annoyed with him ) and she faked an exasperated expression as she shoved him. «MOVE, hanbin. you are WASTING my time.» he knew her well enough to recognize the lighthearted humor in her voice.

the girl had SPOTTED him the second she had e n t e r e d the club, and as much as she tried to distract herself with the constant flow of drinks people were buying her - but there was no denying the fact that her eye kept being drawn to him. perhaps it was the t i n g l i n g sensation she could feel all over her skin when she thought back about what those hands had done to her, or because she could feel herself growing excited and impatient at the thought of it happening again. her gaze kept lingering back to the spot where the boy had planted himself, wetting her lips as their eyes locked for a second, she couldn’t bare it to look away - until she did. as much as she a t t e m p t e d to focus back on her drink and whoever had bought but a buzz of her phone quickly distracting her, teeth raking over her bottom lip as she read the text and who it was from. there wasn’t a doubt in her mind as she e x c u s e d herself from the guy and made her way over to hanbin, quite literally draping herself over his side. ‘ you called for me, daddy ? ’

❝ IT WAS AN automatic reaction. friendship brought them together, but the chemicals that mysteriously worked on his body, making him want her more, more, MORE. but for how long ? how long could he deprive himself from what he really wanted ? for how long could they ignore the fact that their bodies were like magnets -- always fated to attract, and never repel ? ( not for long ) 

❝ HE KNEW SHE would be there, and this didn’t stop him the music was loud in his ears, the drugs making his thoughts flow, the alcohol making his pulse flow in the same rhythm. he knew she would be there, and the images of their last fight was still vivid, but couldn’t suppress image of her body pressed against his, his mouth on her mouth, on her neck, traveling down, down, down. he had seen her, but most importantly, she had see him -- watching her, following every move with dilated pupils and relaxed position contrasting to his balled fists on the back of the cushion. he WANTED her, and he could never ignore it.

[ 📲 • hyeona. 🐰 ] come here baby girl so i can finger you and see how wet you are for me already

“that was a speech?? no, that was not. but if you want one, just say the words. what do you wanna hear about?? how we’re all insignificant and made of stardust?? the air pollution in china??” his voice was still low & whiny & he was hoping the other didn’t actually ask for that, because he knew nothing about the air pollution in china. “also you did said something about being early and me being here and i thought it would be fucking rude to not say anything, i’m s o r r y.” pulling his hoodie over his head, the boy pretended not to care about the cold air, the hour, the vulgar words that tasted bitter on his tongue or the fact that his purple locks were falling over his eyes. "also i’m not being—“ the new strike of rambling was cut short while he raised his head to the cloudy sky & thought about how he was acting. useless discourse?? check. bickering?? check. cursing?? check. YES, everything was finally becoming clear and he finally acknowledged what the other probably already knew: he was acting like a bitch. "fine, i guess that was uncalled for.” oh god, acceptable social behaviour !! from jin?? AMAZING. “but moodiness is a side effect of being up at this hour. i mean, why would one be awake this early unless someone died??”

“ TRUE. there’s little i wouldn’t do for revenge and money. ”

“ there’s nothing stable in my life. but i think it would be really nice to be able to call her ‘ mine ’, TRUE. ”

“ my car literally flipped and i was in the hospital for three weeks, couldn’t feel the left side of my body for months and still can’t feel three fingers and part of my left hand. but nothing compares to never apologizing to my father. ”

“ a g o o d friend, someone i can trust to an extent. everything. ”