I.AM.HUNTER.

I’m gonna be missing you for a while. Hope you’re okay.

What am I happy about myself? That I’m taking a class and I’m going to be finished. That I created this move within one month. That I was actually able to manifest a good side job that I can go in on my time and work how I want to. That I’m going to move into a cute home with nice homies that actually want me there no matter what the reason is lol. All in all, I need to enjoy the time with my family that I have and I need to stop worrying about people caring about me. They do- we’re just adults and everyone has shit going on. Stop comparing yourself and let things flow JUST LET IT FLOW. You really need to spend time with your demons and accept them. It’s okay to be alone, that doesn’t mean anything is wrong with you. Your ego is making you think you are alone because these important people don’t check in. If the relationship is ending then at least you have some great memories to look back on. Amber won’t always be there, she’s going to grow a family really soon and when that happens, you wont have her to rely on. Mon is moving on and becoming her own person, be happy for that. Brady is creating her space and doing what she needs to. Just breath and take it easy. Enjoy your famliy time. 

At times, I miss pussy.

I just feel sad and idk why. I'm going on a trip tomorrow and this feeling is deep in my gut. I have no motivation and I just want to sleep. I'm confused cause this past week was fine. I have no issues other than when I sink into my feels because of my thoughts. it's ok. Tomorrow will be so fun. This next week will be fun. Take it slow but give yourself grace.