𝐬𝐭𝐫𝐚𝐰𝐛𝐞𝐫𝐫𝐲 ╱ 𝕜𝕚𝕤𝕤

❛ oh look who it is . my favorite person in the world .  ❜ by the look of his face she knew apollo had told him that she was the one who had told her about hana and she was caught ❛ in my defense ----- he was bout to find out plus it wasn’t gossip . i was informing your best friend and my quote on quote big brother .  ❜

“Right, my bad. It’s confusing when Zeke has two first names as his name. But I don’t know Theo that well. The only I know is that his accent is very attractive.” Haylee explained. The raven haired girl looked at the other. “I will slap him silly if he tries to jeopardize your love life hun. He may intimidate others, but not me.” She said firmly. “Also, do you think that maybe she’s thinking about the same thing? She also might be worried about her friendship with Jackson. I think you need to talk to her and tell her how you feel. But no matter what Joss, I will have your back.”

❛ i like theo hales ---- he wants to know the real me and he doesn’t want me just for sex you know but then there is raine on the other hand and she is gorgeous and kind and crazy which is my type i’m guessing . ❜ a chuckle escapes past her lips as she looks at her best friend hearing how she would pummel jackson  ❛ thank you, that is why you are family .  ❜ she confesses and smiles .  ❛ i kinda kissed her but i also kissed theo and i don’t know what to do .  ❜ she knows she needs to let them both know . leaning down on her couch she turns to look at the brunette ❛ have i ever told you how much i love you ?  ❜

“I know, but he’s a lovable ass.” She joked. Nodding her head, Raine looked at the other softly. Jackson had always been supportive of her sexuality, but there were times herself that she was afraid of being true to herself. Feeling the other’s hand on her face, she leaned into the hand. “Me too.” She whispers, leaning in and pressing a small kiss on the girl’s lips.

she knew very well that this wasn’t going to end right . raine was different , she understood her better than anyone did and she didn’t know if it was because they were so alike or because she wanted her. her lips clash down on hers as she pulls always for a little ❛ that was better than how i thought it would feel . ❜ she whispers against the others lips and wraps her arms around her neck pressing her lips against the femme

“sorry i realize you’re the only person who’s allowed to tell everyone else what they’re doing. i understand now. you’re always right and everyone else is always wrong. your way or no way. message received. seems to be a common theme around this town. no wonder i don’t fit in” over the next few days he sent countless messages, none of which were returned so it was clear to him that she was avoiding him. at least he could be social for a little while, that might help though he wasn’t sure it would. “thanks” walking in with the basket his mum put together for the blonde he sets it down on the counter where he see’s joss’ phone, lighting up with notifications, “guess your phone does work afterall. so you were just ignoring me.”

she gives her best smile as he thanks her ❛  you’re welcome . ❜ she replies and noticed the phone on the table blowing up with texts or whatever it was . ❛  don’t . ❜ she tells him sternly ❛ this is for lux and I will not ruin everything adonis has done for her . if you want we can talk outside but not here . ❜ she grabs her sneakers that were by the door and places a kiss on luxs cheek letting her know she’s going to step out for a quick minute . walking to her backyard she sits on the swing and looks up at the male ❛  I wasn’t avoiding you . ❜ now that she sees him in a better light , she stands up and rushes to his side , her thumb caressing his face softly ❛ what the he’ll happened ? ❜ she says as she lets her fingers caress his face and everything that she promised herself over the last few days ; promising to forget him was out the window . 

“i meant keeping your terms of the bet because i did win. as in you’re not supposed to be negative about things that happened in the past. that lasted all of…the walk to the car,” he shook his head at the thought. “oh im fine with trying, im not talking about me here, i’ve done nothing BUT try. its you who has to try. so don’t put this on me. if you’re walking away it’s because you’re deciding to. not because im telling you you’re not worth it. i’ve done everything in my power to prove the opposite, that you are worth it.” rolling his eyes he walked out behind her, “this is just what you do, isn’t it? how you handle things all the time? i guess i was the stupid one to think that because i treat you well, you would treat me any different than you do anyone else. you kept it up for a couple of days though, i suppose its you doing the charity work for the new kid. thanks.”

she didn’t want to hear him , she needed to do this and let it be . she needed to forget him and let it be . ❛  you weren’t a charity case to me . ❜ she turns around and takes a good look at him ❛  you don’t get to pin point and tell me who I am and who I am not . ❜ she took a deep breath and turned to look at him ❛  you’re bound to find  somewhere better , I doubt that . ❜ she says as she looks at the male in front of her and walks away . the next few days were a blur , she had no contact with anyone except lux . walking around her house after she had decides to take up residence , a little party thrown for luxs new seventeen cover  . she’s had a few wine glasses and as the knock of the door she stands up placing her wine glass on the counter she opens the door and sees the male , her whole body freezes and she nods trying not to ruin this for lux ❛ come on in . ❜

“theo shouldn’t be part of the equation at all, jesus, talk about someone with power, sounds like he’s the one holding most of it. well the only thing to get you to stop using would be an actual rehab facility in the city. otherwise, drugs are even easier to get there then they are here. but if you all somehow think that going to a new city and being alone will make you feel any better than by all means if you think its whats right for you….who is anyone here to stop you?” lux wouldnt be a hypocrite, she’d just spent years in the city herself before getting back.

she’s standing up from where they were seated and she runs her hands between her hair ❛  i can stop here . ❜ she knew that she had the will to do it and the thought of theo makes her heart hurt . ❛  he doesn’t want me lux. he’s better off anyways . ❜ she knew that this was her doing and if he found someone else it was because she pushed him away ❛ I just think I need to keep my head down and try to figure it all out . I can’t sit here and feel sorry for myself . ❜ she says as she takes a deep breath ❛  I think I might take you on the offer as long as you give me a heads up if theo is going , so I can just come back here until he leaves . I don’t want to see him . he’s probably with someone else and I don’t want to feel anymore shitty than I do . ❜

“then what the fuck are you freaking out about?” running her hands through her hair she sighs and shakes her head. “stop. stop. this isn’t what i meant. its not a pissing contest about who’s life is shittier. i dont need to talk about it. in fact, id rather not. but you really need to stop making jackson think he has any power, he doesn’t. he can’t make anyone go anywhere or do anything. he wants to try his intimidation tactics then he’s a shit person, that’s the long and short of it. you’re your own person, you can do what you want. you already know that if you don’t want to stay with him you can stay at my place.”

❛ alright , I’ll guess you’ll tell me when you are ready . ❜ she nodded as she sat next to the blonde and she knew that she had to tell her . if she didn’t then it would all go to hell . ❛ theo isn’t the only reason why he wants me to move with my mom . ❜ she runs her hand up and down her legs as she takes a deep breath ❛  I’m using again . ❜ she looked down at her hands and then back up at lux ❛  I was upset and I thought that I could just pop one little pill just one snd I would be fine but one turned into three and three turned into ten . ❜ she swallows and she was sure that lux could hear her ❛ I don’t want to lose control not like last time . ❜

“tell you what to do about what? does it even matter? you do what you want anyway” lifting her hands she shrugged her shoulders and shook her head. “You are guilt tripping me, because whatever I have going on doesn’t matter, because its always all about you and when you need me around. the one moment? that's a joke right? we were just having these conversations a month ago because you didn’t know what to do then, either. he cant ship you anywhere he doesn’t have any authority over you. if you want to go because you think things will be different there, youll find out real quick that they aren't. stop pitying yourself that's not going to get you anywhere whether its a small town or big city.”

❛ it doesn’t matter ! ❜ she exclaimed as she looked at the blonde before her. josslyn looked as the blonde and for the first time she listened , she really did listen and she drops whatever is in her hands and walks over to the other wrapping her arms around her frame and hugs her tight ❛  I am so sorry . ❜ she pulled away from her snd looked at the blonde on front of her ❛ I’m sorry that I didn’t even notice something was wrong . I’m sorry . ❜ running a hand through her hair. grabbing her hand she makes lux sit with her by her window and she squeezes her hand ❛  total honesty . I’m all ears and don’t say you don’t want to talk about it because I don’t care . I’m here and not leaving , unless you like beat my ass which I totally deserve . ❜

“ you mean Zeke? Doesn’t he have a girl? Addision?” Haylee asked, thinking over about all the relationships she knew about, but sometimes she did miss a loop. Tilting her head, the girl flicked back her hair. “Hun, I’m pretty sure your brother doesn’t like many people. But couldn’t that Raine girl be thinking the same thing because she’s close with Jackson? But it’s also your love life and he’ll get over if he sees that you’re happy.”

❛ haylee no I mean theo. british soccer player , senior .  ❜ the brunette says as she looks at her best friend ❛ you haven’t spent enough time around jackson to pin point his decisions and what he thinks it’s best for me . they have been best friends for such a long time and I don’t want to ruin in that you know . I want to be able to be okay with everyone , so maybe I should just take a break . ❜

“ why not? I may love fighting others, but I am not going to choose sides because the two of you are fighting.” Raine said, sitting down next to the other girl. Hearing the insult to Jax made her snort in amusement. Sighing, she spoke again. “He’s been there for me through some dark times. And the first person who accepted me when I came out. He may be a pain in the ass sometimes but he’s not as bad as everyone else thinks.”

❛ well because he is a total ass . ❜ she confessed to the brunette and then hears on why her and jackson were so close. ❛ he’s my brother I’m allowed to tell him means names and hate him . ❜ she confessed but her features soften ❛  when I told him that I liked girls he hugged me and gave me the love is love speech ❜ she let a small chuckle escape her lips ❛ I was so afraid mom would kick me out and he told me that if she did , he would go too . ❜ her hand hovered over hers  ❛ so, I guess I need to stop being  afraid . ❜ she leans a little closer and cups the femme face .

getting out of the car he heads inside to look at the menu, “you’ve already reneged on your side of the bet,” he told her with a chuckle and a shrug, “im starting to think you dont even want to try for anything other than negativity. which is fine if thats your prerogative id just rather know that sooner than later.”

❛ you won so I didn’t really even think that my side of the bet even mattered . ❜ her text from her brother had put her in a worse mood , it was either go to live with her mom and she didn’t want that —— or stop seeing theo and she knew that this was the best. she didn’t want him to get hurt , so she did what she did best ; sabotaged her life . ❛ I don’t want to try —— I get it you are done trying and you quit , I guess I am not worth it . god am I stupid ! ❜ she knows she’s making a scene but this is who she is , she destroyed everything and he would be better off without her . ❛ don’t worry I will make it easier for you ; it’s done. you tried and you did your best , now you can say you helped your charity case . ❜ she scoffed and grabs her phone from her purse ❛   thanks for the bowing and last night and yeah —- have a great day . ❜ she says as she turns around heading out the ice cream shop . 

“you sought  me out. and you’re not listening, i didn’t say i didn’t care. ive been dealing with my own shit, but what is it? what do you need? i dont need a guilt trip on top of everything else ive got going on. im tired of being treated like im the shitty one. so lets see if i can fix your life again. lay it on me.”

❛  I sought you out because I needed my best friend to tell me what the hell to do and then you don’t get back to me until today ? ❜ she questioned the blonde before her as she shakes her head ❛  I’m not guilting tripping you and —— ❜ she stops and her hands drop at her side ❛  I have been there for you through everything and the one moment . the one time that my brother wants to ship me off you decide to throw this in my face ? ❜ she shakes her head as she walks to her closet and begins to take her clothes out ❛ maybe it’s for the best . maybe it’s better . me leaving , theo will find someone to occupy his time with , someone whose actually worth it . ❜

watching the eggs Lola squealed, backing up into the table behind them. “Sorry ” she said looking at her fellow classmates. Walking back to their table she looked at Joss and shook her head.“Oh no it’s your turn that was way to nasty for me and I don’t think I’ll do it again.” She shuddered.

she hears lola and she shakes her head ❛ oh, no. ❜ she shakes her head repeatedly ❛  umm —— misses clarke can we take a moment please . ❜ the teacher nods and pints towards the door , grabbing her purse she pulls the brunette with her and walks out the classroom ❛  that is the reason why I always choose jackson as my damn lab partner but hey has the damn flu and now I’m going to most likely fail this ❜