im still here

Josh Keyes.

"Inside Out / outside in". 2024

a gentle melancholy song. hope you like it, tumblr dears. lyrics:

I knew all the things I wanted to do Came prepared to play And then I met you You might say i got lost that day oh i got lost, in a wonderful way

i'd seen skies of a pretty orange-pink hue that color had no name no name i knew until the day we met and then i knew that was the color the color of you

the color of you, and all hopeful souls oh, my dear what a mournful glow

like the tides your kind they come and go but always with that same pretty orange-pink glow.

When I was in third grade, I told this boy that it would be my birthday in four days, and he said, “okay, then I’ll buy you flowers.” Four days later he comes up to me and says, “my mom wouldn’t let me get flowers but I found you this violet in the grass.” That in and of itself was iconic and so so sweet, but it gets better.

A month later, I had to move, and because it was third grade, the teacher made everyone write me letters to say goodbye. His said, “I hope you have so much fun in your new house that you forget about me. I hope that you’re always happy and you never miss us. I’m sorry I never gave you flowers, but I can give you some now.” And he fucking. Drew me flowers.

No, Joey, I never forgot you. You are the reason I have standards in this life, and I’m so grateful to have known you. I hope you’re happy, wherever you are, and I hope that the rest of your days are filled with as much joy as you gave to me. I spilled water on the card about five years ago, and half of it is a a jumbled mess now, but I still have it. It’s the only card I still have.