dre guerra

thinking about how james bond just wanted to love and to be loved.

when he told vesper that he loved her on that beach, quit his job for her almost immediately, said he wanted to sail the world aimlessly with her. when she’s drowning and he realizes he can’t save her, he just reaches for her. just wants to hold her. when he pulls her out of the water, short of breath and exhausted and shaking, and gives her the little air left in his lungs to try and save her.

when m’s order nearly killed him and he came back, a kicked dog returning with a bird, to help her. because he knew she needed him. when he blew up his childhood home for her without hesitation, when he fought an army to get to her. when he held her while she died, tried to make her laugh, kissed her forehead once she was gone and closed her eyes.

when he thought madeline had betrayed him, had compromised him, and he just… let her go. when he found out madeline had a daughter and, even though she insisted he wasn’t the father, woke up to make the kid breakfast. when madeline continued to insist he wasn’t the father and he groveled at safin’s feet, apologized and surrendered to save the kid’s life.

Each relationship, when it ends, really damages me. I never fully recover. That's why I'm very careful with getting involved, because... it hurts too much. Because i will miss of the person the most mundane things.

Like I'm obsessed with little things. Maybe I'm crazy, but when I was a little girl, my mom told me that I was always late to school. One day she followed me to see why.I was looking at chestnuts falling from the trees, rolling on the sidewalk, or ants crossing the road, the way a leaf cast a shadow on a tree trunk.

Little things. I think it's the same with people. I see in them little details, so specific to each of them that move me and that I miss and will always miss. You can never replace anyone, because everyone is made of such beautiful, specific details.

FILMS WATCHED IN 2021 — one night in miami (2020)

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