my little life

i am generally having really weird gender feelings atm i feel like i want to re-evaluate some of the choices of made and make new different choices so maybe i really am just different from that type person

and maybe i hate it because i'm projecting because i don't claim the "transition" narrative or terms like "dead name" like i always been me mama and nobody died or disappeared and that's juuuust on me truly i don't expect anyone else to feel that way however the obsession with before and after pics feels like engagement baiting and it's like pandering to the cis eye......idk i rebuke it

there are trans ppl on the internet who exclusively post before and after transition pics like that's all their content to every viral song and every trend and once or twice you're like ok that's great i'm proud of you mama but when you go to their page and it's every single video you're like hmm what..the hell going on here

should i go vegetarian or something just to make my life harder