There are some things I just don’t want to write down. That’s how I work – if I don’t write it out, it hasn’t happened. It’s the way I block things out of my memory – it’s how I forget. But there are some things you can’t forget. There are some things that will never leave you, there are moments that no matter how hard you try, they are engrained on your brain forever. The moment I rang Mum last night and she said “I’m so sorry sweetheart, I’ve got some bad news” was one of those times. “Don’t tell me” I said… They had to have Jazzy put down yesterday and IT HURTS SO MUCH.

















