I Donβt Know What to Call This | (f/m/a)
Just Friends? Friends with benefits? Dating? Questions swarmed your mind when one of your dear friends, Allie, asked about you and Hoseokβs relationship. The truth was you didnβt know. You and Hoseok were close, knowing each other since elementary school, and considered each other friends. However, as you two grew older, maturing into separate professionsβyou a well-known fashion designer, and Hoseok a famous musician and dancerβyou two had engaged in some intimate activities (sexβlots of it.) After Allieβs simple question, you had to confront your feelings. But were you and Hoseok ready to be more than close friends and f*ck buddies?
Pairing: friend/lover/bfhoseok! x female reader
Genre: slowburn fluff and SMUT
Rating: 18+ because thereβs swearing and pretty detailed smut
Warnings: swearing and SMUT (one of the most detailed smuts I've written, and there's more than one sex scene.) Smut includes: switch!reader and switch!hoseok, grinding and thrusting, protective sex (USE CONDOMS, I cannot stress that enough), lots of kissing, ass-grabbing, dirty talk, a wee bit of choking on both sides, squirting, male and female oral, fingering and handjobs, vibrator use, cyber-sex, the reader uses dildo, slight degradation, and just lots of filthβYOU'RE WELCOME FELLOW FILTHY ANIMALS. Oh, and spoilers for the horror movie Hush. It's on Netflix if you haven't watched it yet. It is GOOD.
Β Word Count: 16, 465 (wowie)
A/N: Thank you for waiting! Itβs rushed, so expect some little mistakes here an there, but Iβm happy with how it turned out. I hope y'all enjoy it! Also, Y/L/N means "your last name."
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βYou can move those over there,β you gestured to the left corner of the windowed room, where a pile of boxes waited. The move was going to take longer than you expected because the movers arrived a week later than your assistant, Rachel said. I really need to talk to her about this. You stressed in your mind, rubbing your temples. βAre you okay?β You looked up, vision resuming its focus on your friend, Allie. Allie, your friend for as long as you could remember, offered to help you move to your new building. She would help you manage everything, including the movers, tracking your company's items, and the layout you gave to her for said things while managing the company. βIβm just irritated at Rachel,β you noticed her confusion, βmy new assistant.β She nodded, remembering, βRight. Why is she still employed?β βBecause sheβs new, and being an assistant is a tough feat. Sheβll get it soon.β You reassured, βRachel is a fast learner, and this is her first mistake. Weβre prepared for the next show, though, because Westley's helping me organize it.β βRemind me who Westley is?β Allie asked. You sighed. βWest is like my second brain. He helps organize the fashion shows, hire the models, find the venues, and secure the guest list. He has other people help him too, but heβs the brains of that. I create the fashion, and he finds a way to present it.β Allie nodded, βGotcha.β Your phone rang, and you answered. βY/N.β βY/N!β Rachel chimed on the other end. βItβs Rachel. Iβm so sorry about the mix-up on dates. It wonβt happen again, Iββ βI know it wonβt, Rachel. Youβre new, so I expected to slip up. Iβve gotten it taken care of,β you nudged Allieβs arm, and she smiled. βWeβre luckily prepared for the next show in Vancouver, so you donβt have to worry about the mess up. All I need you to do now is make sure that my fabrics are coming in.β βYes! Theyβve arrived at the studio.β Rachel replied. "Fantastic. Thank you. That'll be all for now. Check on West if he needs anything." You ordered. βWill do, Y/N. Talk to you soon.β You hung up. The Vancouver show was in five months, giving you and your team enough time to design the clothes for the production and move to the new building. The show's theme was natural bodies of water and nature, a nod to Canada's landscape. The clothing catalogue would include various icy blue shades to represent waterfalls and warm emerald tones like flora and fauna. These colours would be encapsulated in elegant gowns and suits, worn by different body shapes, genders, and colours. The materials would be made from recycled fabrics from your previous shows and from your fellow artists. You were known for designing elegant attire, so it was best to keep to it. However, it was rare to see different sized, coloured, and gendered models on a runway; because of having to customize clothes to those models. Additionally, making clothes from recycled fabrics would be tough. βOkay,β you began, βI need to talk to my design team and plan out the gowns. Can I leave you here to deal with the movers?β Allie gave you a thumbs up. βThank you,β you smiled, hugging her, βif you need anything, please call me or Rachel, or both. Weβll be back to help.β Before you left, a thought struck you. You turned around to face Allie. βI should just hire you.β She chuckled, βWhy?β You scoffed, "Because you're here all the time!" You walked back to her. "Listen, you're the best manager I know. You can be my third brain. You already are, outside of work, so it would make sense." Allie seemed unsure. βI already have my job at Youth and Hope.β You grasped her hands. βYou would be given a great wage, not just because youβre my best friend, but because youβre going to be busy with lots of work. You would be handling the management tasks, like West. Youβd be given a good amount of vacation, trips for shows and meetings would be paid forβyou could get that loft you always wanted downtown.β You wiggled your eyebrows, and Allie laughed. βDonβt I have to go through an interview process?β You brushed a hand through the air. βI can get someone to interview you and officially hire you. Once thatβs done, youβll start getting paid.β You checked your watch, and a quick rush of panic ran through you. βShit, Iβm going to be late. Consider it, alright! Let me know your availability, and weβll schedule an interview!β βOkay!β She shouted back as you left. . . The coffee had become bitter. You werenβt sure if it was the roast or the fact that this was your fourth cup of the night. It had been a month since the fabrics arrived. Thanks to Allie, your friend and now employee, your move to the new building was complete; however, your designs werenβt translating as smoothly as you wish. "Fuck," you cursed, resting your head in your hands and rubbing your temples. The sketches waited in front of youβthe measurements and ideas raking at your confidence. Your designs are redundant. Youβve done something similar last time. Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Boring. Plain. You turned back to your mannequins, still bare. The theme was in your mind, and your design team reassured you that your sketches were fine, but it all felt fuzzy. βY/N,β Rachel peered into the studio from the door, βthereβs a gentleman here to see you.β βHis name?β You asked, still looking at the mannequins. You heard footsteps retreat into the front lobby, then come back to the door. βJung Hoseok?β You turned around, trying to contain your excitement. βPlease send him in.β Rachel nodded, jogging back to the lobby. You heard a muffled βthank youβ before heavy footsteps approaching your studio. Hoseok reached the doorway, beaming his signature smile. He wore acid-washed jeans, a baggy white sweater that matched his chunky light sneakers. His dark hair was slightly wavy and parted in the middle. A tote bag was slung over his shoulder. βY/N!β He cheered, opening his arms wide. βHoseok!β You replied, running into his arms and hugging him tightly. You couldnβt remember the last time you saw Hoseokβa year or two? βFuck, how long has it been?β You asked him. He pulled away, thinking. βAbout six months?β Totally off. βSeriously, it felt longer than that.β You argued. Hoseok pulled out his phone and scrolled through his calenderer and photos. He made a βtskβ sound. βAh, see here,β he showed you a few photos of you two with his friends, who were also his bandmates, βsix months ago, you joined us on tour for a couple days before coming back here. I have it also marked in my calendar.β He showed you the dates, which were marked with βπY/Nβs visitπ.β βCan Namjoon or Yoongi confirm this?β You crossed your arms. Hoseok mimicked your body language. βI can call them right now,β he challenged. You two stood in competitive tension. You succumbed. βYou win this time, Jung Hoseok.β He playfully chuckled. You realized that Hoseok doesnβt live around here. βWait, why are you in town. Shouldnβt you and the others be in Korea planning another album or something?β You speculated. βOur company gave us a month for vacation because we spent most of the year touring.β Hoseok sighed. βSo, I decided to come to visit.β You hugged him again, happy to see someone who wasnβt your employee amidst this chaos of stress. βHow long are you staying?β You asked, muffled against his chest. He paused. βMaybe a month?β You pulled away from him, shocked. βA month? Here? Thatβs all your vacation time.β βYeah,β he replied, as if that wasnβt a big deal, βI didnβt want to travel to a bunch of places because the group and I have been doing that for almost a yearβand itβs pretty chill in this area.β He sighed. βBesides, I donβt think many people would recognize me. The airport wasnβt busy, and I havenβt been swarmed by fans yet.β βDo you have a place to stay?β You asked. He nodded. βYup! Iβm staying at a fancy hotel. I got the suite at the top floor,β he made a gesture with his hand, indicating how high up his suite was. You playfully elbowed his side. "Wow, look at you, Mr. Famous. You can afford a top suite now. Are you sure you don't want to stay with me, though?β Hoseok dismissed your offer with a wave of his hand. βItβs alright, Y/N. Thank you, though.β He peered over your shoulder, βIt looks like youβre busy anyway, so I think Iβll just stick to my suite.β He walked past you, over to the bare mannequins. βAre you preparing for that show in Vancouver that you told me about?β You nodded, relaying your theme and ideas to him. He smiled. βThat sounds really cool,β he pointed to the mannequins, βbut donβt you need some clothes for the show, then?β You rolled your eyes, chuckling at him for being a smart ass. βYes, I do. Iβm brainstorming some ideas right now, but Iβm coming up with nothing. I have the design team coming in tomorrow with drafts, but Iβd like to bring my own thing to the table, you know? Iβm the main brain of this operation, and itβd be embarrassing if I come in with zilch.β You leaned against one of the tables, facing the mannequins. "The tough part is designing gowns that fit the right people, you know. Sure, you can make a collection of clothes, but they won't look good if they don't fit the models." You shook your head. "Maybe it's just tougher to design clothes for different bodies. I should just stick to one type of person and leave it at that." Hoseok walked up beside you, leaning against the same table and facing the figures. βWhy donβt you find the models and then design the clothes?β You looked at him, surprised. βBut wouldnβt that take a long time?β He crossed his arms, βWell, how many models would you need?β βWeβre thinking around seventy. Thereβs going to be two changes within the show.β Hoseok nodded, and you could see him brainstorming. βWell, you have four months left, right? You and your team can make some drafts, cast the models, and finalize the ideas with said models. Which would take about a couple of months? You could do that while planning the show?β He paused, appearing to notice your hesitant expression. βThink about it. Youβve trained your team well enough to work on its own, right? Thatβs what you did for your last show, which was a success. You came in every day for a couple hours to make sure everything was in order, then focused on other things.β Hoseok grasped your hands. βYouβre great at multitasking, so do it. Itβs scary, but you can check on people every day to make sure everythingβs alright.β You bit your lip, βI-I donβt know, Hoseok. That sounds like a lot of workββ βYou did it last time, and it worked out just fine,β he gently squeezed your hands, βand Iβm here for a month. I can help out whenever you need me. Iβll simply clean things up and fetch coffee if thatβs what you need.β You laughed, βLike my intern?β βYeah! I donβt know how to design anything or plan a fashion show, but Iβll do what I can.β He smiled. βYouβre so much more than you think, Y/N, and if you need reminders, Iβll be here.β You smiled back at him, so grateful to have him here. βMy god, youβre fucking sweet,β you scoffed, taking your hands out of his. Hoseok laughed. You pushed yourself off the table and faced him. βHow did we even become friends?β You questioned. He actually gave it a thought. βYou joined by dance club in elementary school, when no one else would.β He laughed so hard that he teared up. βI think we actually took club photos, and it was only you and I posing.β You laughed with him, remembering those days spent trying to breakdance to hip hop and presenting dance routines to your parents. βYeah, that was before you joined that Music Academy in grade four, right?β He nodded, and you sighed, surprised you still remembered. Your mind came back to the present. βSo, youβre actually okay with helping out?β You checked. βWhy would I ask if I didnβt want to?β Hoseok replied. You tapped your index finger against your temple, βtrue.β βSo, how much do you want?β Hoseok looked offended at your question. You chuckled. βWell, youβre going to work for me, so I need to pay you.β βItβs only just a month, though.β βYeah, butββ βWhat about we see how much you have me do before you pay me?β He interrupted. βI might just have to fetch coffee, so you can just give me money on the spot.β You thought about it for a minute. Hoseok yawned. βThis work talk is making me tired. Do you want to go out for dinner?β He looked around you, βUnless you have more work to do. I can always wait in the lobby for you to finish.β You brushed your hand through the air, βNah, itβs okay. Iβm pretty brain dead anyway. I need to be energized for tomorrowβs draft review.β Hoseok pushed himself off the table and clapped. βAwesome! Where do you think Iβm taking you for dinner?β You bit your lip, trying to guess. βSushi?β βSushi it is!β He beamed. You grabbed your things and followed him out of the studio.
Both of you sat towards the back of the sushi restaurant, to Hoseokβs request. The waitress placed you two in a concealed booth, with drapes covering a small entrance.
You two had to take your shoes off before sitting down.
βWhy did you say, βsushi it is?ββ You asked, taking a sip of your water.
Hoseok opened his can of sprite, βWhat do you mean?β
βYou asked where I thought you were taking me, I responded, and you said, βsushi it is!ββ You reiterated.
He took a sip of his soda before responding, "It's a trick I learned from Instagram." He set his drink down. "You ask someone, 'where do you think I'm taking you for food?' dinner or whatever, and then take them to a place with that food. It's easier than asking 'what do you want to eat?' because people can't decide."
You nodded, making an βaaahhhβ sound. βSmart.β
You two caught up while eating your meals. Hoseok chatted about his bandmates and the tour, and you talked about your move to the new building.
Most of it was just adding more details about your lives because you two texted lots during the week and sometimes video chatted. You'd get to see Hoseok and his friends, and he'd get a view of your life on the other side of the world.
To others, it looked like both of you were dating. Both of your friends would tease, singing, "Y/N and Hoseok sitting in a tree, K-I-S-S-I-N-G." Many of his fans, ARMY, would theorize your friendship, pointing out the matching bracelets you two woreβwhich was later proved normal because Hoseok went live on Vlive making bracelets for his bandmates.
And you two would continually clarify that you two were strictly long-time friends. Nothing more.
Girls and boys can be friends. Simple as that.
You and Hoseok finished your meals. You two shared a few rolls and a bento box and were full.
βThat was really good.β You commented, rubbing your stomach.
Hoseok chuckled, copying you, βI think Iβm pregnant.β
You laughed, βShut up! Youβre so fit.β
βYouβre right,β he replied, pulling up his sleeves and flexing his arms.
You both laughed as he flexed his muscles, which were significantly more prominent than your remembered. You were slightly jealous of his lean athletic figure.
And were gazing at it for too long.
βI donβt know about you,β Hoseok sighed, appearing to be tired from the food and flexing his muscles, βbut Iβm in the mood for some Ben and Jerryβs.β
Your eyes lit up. βYES.β
βCookie dough with chunks?β You both said in unison.
You two erupted in laughter.
"I'll go play," Hoseok said, getting up.
You stopped him, βItβs alright,β you smiled, βmy treat.β
Before you left the booth, you turned around and said thoughtfully, "But you're getting the ice cream."
Hoseok's expression conveyed the same seriousness as if a soldier on a mission.
He saluted you. βCopy that, Y/N.β
You saluted him back and left to pay.
The walk to Ben and Jerryβs was quick. Both of you were eager to share the tub of ice cream.
You ended up getting a chocolate chip cookie dough and a cherry Garcia pint, and two spoons to share. You both ate the ice creams with delight while walking back to your apartment building.
When arriving at your building, Hoseok handed you the cookie dough ice cream pint.
βWhat are you doing?β You asked while he gave you the closed pint.
He tilted his head to the side, confused. βWhat do you mean? Iβm dropping you off at your place.β
You gave a shocked expression. βDropping me off? Weβre not even done our pints!β
βBut you have work tomorrow. I donβt want to keep you up.β Hoseok stepped back towards the edge of the sidewalk. βI can catch a cab back to the hotel, donβt worry.β
You balanced the pints in one hand and used your other to grab his arm.
βYouβre not going anywhere,β you said, pulling away from the curb and closer to your building.
Hoseok pulled his arm out of your grip. "Y/N, you need to be well-restedβ"
βAt least help me finish the ice cream.β You interrupted, holding up the pints that were now in both your hands, along with your spoon.
βWe havenβt seen each other six months, and itβs onlyβ¦β
Hoseok pulled out his phone. βNine.β
βExactly!β You expressed. βItβs only nine. I donβt need to be in until nine-thirty tomorrow morning. As long as youβre out by eleven, that gives me an hour to get ready for bed at twelve, and I will wake up at eight. Plenty of rest!β
You watched his unsure expression.
"If you don't want to go home at eleven, that's fine by me. Could you leave earlier? Or you can go back to your hotel if you want. I won't take offence; you know me." You held up your arms in surrender, ice cream pints still in your hands. "But if you're leaving because you're worried that I won't get enough sleep, don't. I'm a grown woman. I know how to take care of myself, and I want you to come in.
Hoseok bit his lip, appearing to debate the offer.
He sighed. "Fine, I'll come in. However, I don't want to get a text from you complaining about being tired in the morning."
βI swear,β you promised, pretending to draw an βxβ over your heart, βI cross my heart.β
Hoseok chuckled, and you led the two of you into your apartment building and into the elevator. You pressed the twentieth button, and you two waited in comfortable silence.
The elevator doors opened, and you two walked to your apartment.
You opened the door to your studio apartment, locking the door behind you two and hanging up your bag along with your keys.
βWant anything to drink?β You asked, setting down the ice cream pint in your hand and taking off your coat.
Hoseok set down the cookie dough pint on the coffee table. βAnything is alright, thanks,β
You hummed, getting both of you bottles of black cherry soda and bringing over the cherry Garcia pint and your spoon.
"Jesus, do you need help?" Hoseok asked with worry, seeing you holding the bottles by their necks in one hand and the ice cream pint and spoon in the other.
You chuckled, βItβs alright, just sit down.β
You two sat on the couch, twisting off the caps on your sodas and taking a sip.
Hoseok sighed. βThatβs really good,β he gestured to the pop before putting it down on the coffee table.
βYeah! Theyβre so addictive,β you replied, setting coasters under both of your drinks.
Both of you continued to reminisce about your childhood, especially middle school. The puberty years had been gruesome to you two, speckling your faces with acne.
You pulled out a photo album you kept on one of your bookshelves, which had pictures of your families and your younger selvesβeven photos when Hoseok was training, before debuting with BTS in 2013.
βOh my god, look at you!β You gasped, showing him a picture.
In the photo, Hoseok arms were crossed over his chest, his attempt at having swagger. He wore a collared shirt, and his hair was short.
βOh god, no,β Hoseok cringed, gently pushing the photo away.
You chuckled, "You were so adorable, always dancing and having a good time." You smiled. "You are such a hard worker, practicing so much. I remember you twisting your ankle but still practicing."
You looked at him tenderly. βI wish people could see that.β
Hoseok smiled back at you, softly touching your hand. You grasped his hand, feeling butterflies in your stomach.
He was the first to pull away.
βYou remember our sleepovers?β He asked.
You giggled, "Yeah when you could leave that cramped place you shared with the boys."
He swatted your arm, βThat apartment was good! It was where everything started.β He pouted. βAnyways, we would always look up deep questions to ask each otherβor would you rather.β
You rolled your eyes. βThose questions were overrated.β
βI thought they were nice!β Hoseok defended. βWe got to know each other more, like, βwhat is your biggest fear?β or βwhat is your biggest pet peeve?ββ
He must've seen your unimpressed expression because he continued, "You got to admit that you learned a bit more about me because of those questions!"
You sighed. βI did, I guess.β
Hoseok held up his index finger, seeming to signal βwait a minute.β
He pulled out his phone. βLetβs try some now, then.β
βHoseokββ
βCome on,β he interrupted. βIf you donβt learn anything new about me from the first four questions we do, then we can stop, alright? I will never bring up these questions ever again.β
You debated his offer.
βFine.β You agreed, setting down the photo album. βShoot.β
βOkay, but we both pick two questions and answer all of them. For example, when we ask a question, the other person answers before the picker.β Hoseok said while he scrolled.
You hummed, understanding his instructions. Β
βWant to do would you rather?β
βSure.β
"Sexy edition?" Hoseok wiggled his eyebrows. "Unless you're uncomfortable."
You scoffed. βHobi, we're grown, adults. I can take a few sexual questions."
βOkay,β Hoseok replied, βbut if you ever feel uncomfortable, we can choose another question or stop.β
You nodded, and Hoseok appeared to find what he was looking for.
βAlright,β he began, βwould you rather bite someoneβs ear during sex or bite someoneβs lip during sex?β
This is pretty vanilla. You thought.
"Lip, for sure." You emphasized the 'sure' in your sentence, stringing along with the 'er' sound.
βSame,β Hoseok agreed while passing you his phone.
You took his cell and strolled through the website.
What do I choose? Do I just dive in, or go for the vanilla shit?
βWould you rather engage in foreplay or go right into the main course?β You asked.
Hoseok thought about it. βI would say foreplay. You can warm things upβand nothing is more fun than teasing.β He shimmied, making you two laugh.
You agreed, passing the phone to him.
βOooo, hereβs a classic,β he grinned, βtop or bottom?β
βI think Iβm a switch,β you replied.
He tilted his head.
βItβs like, youβre both, top and bottom. I like to take control sometimes, but I can also sub.β You explained. βYou?β
βTop,β he replied, βfor sure.β
You laughed, βYou sound so against being a bottom.β
He laughed too. βI like pleasuring the person Iβm having sex with. Nothing is more satisfying than making someone cum.β
βTrue,β you admitted.
You found your mind wandering to unholy memories of you and Hoseok. What was odd about your friendship thatβto put it blatantlyβyou two had sex. Not just once, but a few times.
This is why asking these questions was pretty casual and not too surprising.
You two started engaging in sex a couple years ago. You were stressed about your company starting, and Hoseok was in town. He offered to help you relax, and before you knew it, he was drilling into you from behind.
Both of you agreed to stay friends but continued to have sex every now and then. It was great, you had to admit. Probably the best sex you had in your life, and it was good that you two were able to keep your friendship platonic at the same time. Only, it was sex without the romantic feelings.
To be honest, you were craving it again.
He passed you his phone again, and you tried to pick a good last question.
βWould you rather kiss me gently or kiss me aggressively?β You asked.
Hoseok paused before answering. βDepends on the mood.β
βWell, at this moment, then, what is the mood?β
You watched Hoseokβs eyes shift between your lips then your eyes.
βAggressively.β
You hummed. βGood to know.β You passed him back his phone. βLast question.β
Hoseok chuckled, βYou seriously didnβt learn anything new?β
You shrugged. βI guess not.β
He didn't seem bothered, though, when his body shifted closer to yours.
When he looked back up at you, his expression changed. Although his eyes were already an opaque shade of brown, they had darkened.
I know that look.
He smirked. βWould you rather make the first move or receive the first move?β
You bit your lip, gazing up at his body.
Before you could reconnect with his eyes, you heard his phone drop, and his lips were on yours.
Just like his answer, his kisses were aggressive and needy. You could taste the cherry cola and ice cream on his lips and mouth.
You pulled his face closer, wanting more.
Hoseokβs body language opened up, allowing you to get up and straddle his lap. You felt his hands inch up your shirt and tug at the fabric. He helped you take it off, which gave him access to your breasts.
You felt him undo your bra with a quick flick of his fingers, and you tossed it off without a care.
Hoseok let out a chuckle before claiming your lips with his.
His lips were intoxicating, and you wanted more.
βPlease touch me,β you begged against his lips.
He hummed, grazing his hands down your back before roughly grabbing your ass. You moaned, and he held you against him, hard enough to feel him grind into you.
βFuck, stop teasing,β you pulled away, and he laughed.
βBaby, Iβm not teasing,β he smirked.
Baby. The term of endearment made your heart swoon.
You werenβt always this infatuated by Hoseok. But the way he came to visit you during his break, had dinner and ice cream with you, and kissed you this goodβit made you want more than just a fling.
But you couldn't think that way. It was sex. You two were doing this to get off, not engage in lovemaking.
Hoseok swiped his tongue over his bottom lip, eyeing your figure. βYou know what I want.β
You ran your hand up and down his chest. βWhat are you waiting for?β
Hoseok's hands came underneath your thighs, and he picked you up, walking you to your bedroom. He used your body to close the door, slamming you against it.
He ground himself against your core, causing you to moan louder than you expected.
You covered your mouth in embarrassment.
Hoseok chuckled, βItβs okay,β he pulled away enough to graze his thumb over your cheek, βI love it when you moan.β
You rolled your eyes, kissing him and grabbing his ass, causing him to grind on your core.
"Fuck, I can practically feel that you wet," he groaned, trying his best to hold you up and sturdy you against the door.
βB-bed,β you choked, one of his particular thrusts stroking perfectly against you. Β
Hoseok moved you towards your bed and gingerly placed you down. He kissed down your bare chest and slowly took off your pants and underwear.
βFuck, your perfect,β Hoseok awed, softly running a finger through your wet heat.
His cold finger sent a wave of pleasure through you, making you flinch.
Hoseok hummed. βSo wet for me,β
He looked up at you. βMay I?β
You nodded, but he only smirked.
βWords, baby,β he put a hand to his ear.
βPlease,β you bit down on your lip.
You felt him spread your lips, and you clenched in response. He appeared to savour you, taking his time as he ate you out.
When you moaned, heβd hum, sending vibrations into your heat that brought you closer to your climax.
βFuck, Iβm closeββ
He pulled away, licking his lips and gazing down at you.
βHoseokββ
βYou taste better than I remembered,β he commented. βBut I want you to cum around me.β
God, I love his dirty talk.
You watched him take off his clothes. He must've been working out because he was more toned than six months ago.
He was about to line himself up with your entrance, but you stopped him with your foot on his chest.
You smirked. βNot yet, baby.β
You stood up. βSit.β
Hoseok sat on the bed, your roles shifting.
βBut I wantββ
You interrupted his beg with your hand around his erect cock. He appeared to be speechless as you run your hand up and down his shaft.
βHm?β You asked, chuckling lightly at how easy it was to make him submit. βWhat do you want, baby?β
βI-I wanted,β he stuttered, thrusting slightly into your hand, βto cum inside you.β
βIs that so?β You questioned, pulling your hand away.
Despite his vocalized want, he whined when you pulled away.
βIβm only doing what my baby wants,β you shrugged. βCondoms are in the bottom drawer on the right.β
Hoseok dashed over to the bedside table, rummaging for the condoms.
βThose should fit you, right?β
"Yes," he replied, opening the familiar wrapper and unravelling it on his erect member. Β
He stood there for a minute, wrapped penis and naked, just fondly looking at your nude figure.
He whispered something under his breath.
βHm?β
βNothing,β Hoseok blushed. βYou still want to fuck?β
βYes.β
βTop or bottom?β
βTop please,β you smiled.
Hoseok laid down on your bed, and you climbed onto his torso.
βFuck, youβre so wet,β he cursed as you moved off his abs and onto his cock.
A wet puddle was left on his abdomen, which he wiped away with his fingers, then putting said fingers into his mouth.
βSo good,β he groaned.
You hummed in response, slowly sinking onto him.
"Fuck, you feel so good," you said when you bottomed out.
You started moving, swaying your hips back and forth. Each time Hoseok's cock would graze against your g-spot.
His hands were placed on your hips, guiding you on him. You could feel yourself clenching around him and your climax building up.
βI-Iβm close,β you stuttered.
Hoseok swallowed, βMe too.β
βCh-choke me,β you requested as you picked up your pace.
Hoseok grinned. βOnly if you choke me back.β
You chuckled and rolled your eyes. Hoseok gently wrapped his hand around your neck, and you did the same, slowly applying pressure.
You felt your thighs burn from exhaustion. "F-fuck me," you cursed, slowing down.
Both of you let go of each other's neck, and Hoseok flipped you two over, still inside you.
"It's okay," Hoseok assures before resuming the pace.
His thrusts were rough and deep, and he pushed your thighs against your chest.
βFuck, please keep going,β you begged.
βCan I choke you?β Hoseok asked.
βPlease,β you replied, βdo you want me to choke you too?β
βYes,β Hoseok responded.
You felt yourself rhythmically clench around him. Hoseok mustβve realized because he began thrusting faster into you.
The room was filled with unholy noises. You could hear the wet sounds of your entrance and the impact of Hoseokβs hips against your core.
βFuck donβt stop,β you choked out.
The knot building up in your abdomen unravelled, and pleasure and relaxation spread through your body. Your core gripped onto Hoseok like a vice.
βH-Hoseok,β you stammered, your core overstimulated.
βI-I want you to squirt,β he replied, continuing his firm thrusts.
βOh,β you moaned.
He pounded deeper into your core, to the point where you could feel his tip ram against your cervix.
βAh!β You screamed, feeling yourself gush around him.
βFuck, so good,β Hoseok groaned. βI-Iβm cumming.β
You felt the condom fill up inside you, and you felt disappointed that his cum couldnβt coat your walls.
His thrusts slowed down, and he stood still for a few moments.
When he pulled out, you shivered with oversensitivity. You knew that your sheets would be a mess and weren't looking forward to cleaning them when Hoseok left.
You looked up at the ceiling, breathless, while you heard Hoseok walk away from the bed.
βWhere do you put your towels?β He asked.
βIn the hallway, in the closet beside the dryer and washing machine.β You replied.
You heard him walk into the hallway and the closet door open and close. βThanks,β he said. βAnd your bedsheets?β
βThe closet in my room.β
You heard him walk back into your room, open your walk-in closet that led into your bathroom, and shuffle around. The tap ran in your bathroom for a couple seconds, then the sound of Hoseok wringing out something.
You began to sit up, but he hushed you to lie back down.
βJust relax,β he soothed, placing the clean bedsheets on your bedside table and walking over to you with a damp cloth.
βYou donβt have toββ
He placed a hand on your thigh. βItβs okay,β he reassured.
You two exchanged a quick smile before Hoseok began to clean you up.
βYou didnβt even cum on me,β you chuckled as he gently wiped your inner thighs.
βI know,β he replied, βbut I still made you messy.β
When your thighs were no longer covered in your cum, you two changed your bedsheets.
βYou good sleep in the same bed?β You asked while folding over your duvet.
βSure,β He smiled.
You walked into your closet. "There should be some clothes that fit you. I usually wear men's clothes at home, anyways. It's crazy how great the quality men's clothes are compared to women's clothes." You picked out a t-shirt and sweatpants and tossed them at Hoseok.
He caught them, βThanks.β
You two showered separately and spent the time getting ready together dancing to tunes.
If someone were to walk into the room, it wouldnβt look or smell like you two just had sex. You two looked like close friends having a dance party before going to bed.
Again, after you two had sex the first time, you both agreed to stay friends. It was easier said than done.
It was awkward initially, but you both were able to get past that by talking it through. Hoseok would ask how you felt during sex and what could have been better, and you would return the question.
Now, you both were able to have a good time and intimately learn more about each other.
Sure, it was strange, but it was a mutual agreement between consenting adults and fun.
The sex was funβgreat, reallyβand you couldnβt have it any other way.
But you would be lying to yourself if you didnβt feel like something was missing.
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βGood morning, everyone,β you greeted your fellow designers, βthis is Hoseok. If you donβt know him already, heβs a well-known musician and one of my closest friends.β
Everyone welcomed Hoseok with a warm round of applause.
βThank you, itβs a pleasure to be here.β Hoseok thanked.
βHoseok will be helping out here and there while heβs vacationing here for a month,β you explained, βso take it easy on him.β
People shared chuckles at your joke.
"Anyways, let's start looking over the design ideas. You all are very talented artists, and I want you to remember that this is a draft, which means that these ideas are not final. If your idea is rejected, it's okay. We'll continue to work on a collective theme for the show."
The morning was spent listening to everyone's design concepts. To follow your reputation, the designs were contained within suits and gowns. As mentioned before, the theme was Vancouver's nature, where the fashion show would be taking place.
You and your design team used the recycled fabricsβwhich were separated by colours, textures, and materialsβwhile figuring out your drafts.
You asked your design team to draft some ideas because you couldn't think of anything to present.
You were pleasantly surprised that your whole team had ideas that you approved.
βThis a phenomenal,β you awed, βGreat job, Erinn.β
βActually,β you grabbed the attention of the other team members, βyou all did a great job. We will be using all these ideas for the show.β
Your team shared cheers.
βY/N,β Rachel nudged your shoulder, βIβm sorry to ask, but now that weβve got the designs all in order, what about the models? You wanted to have various body types, right?β
βDonβt worry, Iβve got that covered,β you whispered back.
You turned back to your design team. "You all know that this show is tougher than our last one because we are trying to include more body types, genders, races, just different kinds of people. Which means that we will need to cater our clothes to the models, rather than the other way around.β You smiled, βSo you all can go home for the next week.β
You heard Rachel choke on her inhale.
"Although you all have the week off, I want you all to try drawing your designs on other body types. Experiment with materials and colours. Remember to take some of the recycled fabrics home with you, and feel free to come in to pick anything up. Just let Rachel and I know in advance, and we'll give notice to the front desk so they can let you in. When we reconvene in a week, which would be next Friday at nine-thirty, I need you all to be ready to translate your designs, colours, and materials to our models." You ordered.
βAny questions?β
Comfortable silence amongst everyone.
You nodded. "Awesome. Good luck, everyone. Contact me if you have any questions."
Your team started packing up.
βY/N, does that mean weβre spending the next week casting?β Rachel asked.
βYes, Rachel. Please contact Westly and schedule lunch tomorrow at noon to discuss modelling criteria. Itβs probably going to be pretty loose, but we need to contact Westly before sending it out.β You answered. βIf heβs not free at that time, try figuring out something later tomorrow. Then book a reservation for three at Romeoβs.β
βAlright, on it,β Rachel replied.
You turned to Hoseok, who seemed shocked.
βWhat?β You blushed.
He continued his surprised expression. βI havenβt seen you like this before.β
You chuckled. βHow else are you supposed to run a company and organize and execute a fashion show in 3 months?β
Rachel tapped you on the shoulder. "Westly can do lunch tomorrow, at noon, at Romeo's. He and his team secured the venue with Vancouver Fashion Week and are currently collaborating with the interior designers to figure out how the place will look. West said he'll debrief you tomorrow, at lunch, about the rest of the progress."
You smiled. βGreat! Thank you, Rachel. You can also take the rest of the day off.β
Rachel appeared to be stunned, not responding to your words.
You waved a hand in front of her face. βRachel? You can take the rest of the day off.β
βAre you sure, Y/N?β She asked.
You chuckled, βI wouldnβt be telling you to if I wasnβt sure, would I?β
She gave it a thought. βI guess not.β
You grinned. βJust meet me at our main building tomorrow, at eleven-thirty, and weβll go to Romeoβs together.β
Rachel nodded. βThank you, Y/N,β
βNo worries,β you smiled.
You and Hoseok watched her leave, leaving you two alone in the studio.
βIβm sorry, it passed my mind. Youβre okay not joining us for lunch tomorrow, right?β You asked Hoseok.
He dismissed your apology by brushing a hand through the air, βItβs all good. Youβve got your shit to do.β He smiled, βIt gives me time to tour around a bit, anyways.β
βGood,β you replied. βSo, where to?β
You pulled apart the croissant, eating pieces one at a time. The butteriness covered your tongue in a warmth that mixed well with the iced coffee you and Hoseok shared.
The park was surprisingly empty, despite it being a Friday. Usually, it would be tough to find a spot decently away from others, mostly shaded by trees.
The inlet was a few meters away, allowing you two to see sailboats pass by. People also kayaked and canoed, and you could hear their laughter faintly on land.
Here, you and Hoseok would be shielded by looming trees and away from potential fans of Hoseok. It was a rarity to have those two things when spending time with Hoseok: privacy and securityβpeace and quiet.
βThis is what you wanted to do?β You asked, finishing off the croissant.
He nodded, sipping the iced coffee. βYeah. Itβs quiet and nice here.β
You two people watched, enjoying the breeze and serene environment.
βI was thinking,β you cleared your throat, βabout last night. Did you enjoy it?β
Hoseok set down the iced coffee. βYeah. I always like hanging out with you.β
βI meanβthe sex.β
He seemed shocked by your question.
βYeah, that was good too. Why do you ask? You never brought up before.β He pointed out.
Because I am growing feelings for my childhood friend, who I now have sex with for fun. This wasn't a part of the agreement, I know. We agreed to not grow feelings for each other and just have sex for pleasure. But it's inevitable to develop feelings for someone you have sex for, right? Like, there are probably people out there that can distinguish sex from loveβand I guess it started out like thatβbut for us?
Am I crazy?
βNo reason,β you sighed. βI just wanted to know if there was anything I could have done better.β
Hoseok turned his body to you, smiling. βIt was perfect.β
He gestured with his arms for a hug, and you obliged. His cologne smelt of freshly peeled oranges; it was a pleasant fragrance, and you found yourself snuggling closer.
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The past month went by in a busy blur.
The model casting went well. You and Westley found fantastic individuals to present your clothing line, which was in the process of being altered to fit those people.
The venue was secured, and the guest list was being made by You and Westley.
βMaybe invite Hoseok,β Westley suggested. Β
You shook your head, βI canβt.β
"Why not?" He retorted. "The worse thing he could say is 'no,' and you can invite the whole band." He giggled. "Maybe I can meet Jimin in person."
You chuckled, βSo thatβs why you want me to invite Hoseok. Just because you made eye contact with Jimin for more than five seconds, it doesnβt mean that heβs into you. Heβs straight.β
βHow do you know?β Westley had a hand firmly on his hip.
βW-well, I havenβt asked him personallyββ
"Then you can't assume he's straight!" Westley exclaimed. "The baseline isn't being heterosexual."
βTrue. Anyways, letβs get back to the guest list.β You chewed on your lip. βWe have Harry Styles, BLACKPINK, Lizzoβ¦β
Both of you ran down the list of a thousand attendees to the show in Vancouver. It was way smaller than fashion week or any of your previous shows, but it wasn't meant to be a big party.
Y/N [14:00]: Hey! Are you free and the boys on March 1st at 1 pm for about four hours, including an after-party until 10 pm, with food?
Hoseok [14:30]: Hiiiiii!! Sorry for the late text. I was asking the others. Yeah! Thatβs in 4 months? π§
Y/N [14:31]: Yeah, itβs for my fashion show. You can ask your company for that time? Weβd provide the plane tickets and accommodation. Youβd probably stay 3 days and 2 nights? Youβd fly in the first day, sleep the one night, then attend the show the second day, sleep the second night, and fly out the 3rd day. Iβll need to know by the end of the week.
Hoseok [14:32]: Sounds good!!! Iβll ask my managers and let you know π
Y/N [14:33]: Awesome! Thanks π
Hoseok [14:33]: Np π
βSo, Hoseok and the boys can come, but he has to confirm with his managers. Heβll let me know soon.β You relayed to Westley.
"Great! As long as we get confirmation from Hoseok at the end of this week, we can send out the invitations. We've checked with everyone's management, and they all seem to be busy. Worse comes to worst; we'll just have to move seats around." Westley advised.
He closed his laptop, and you followed.
βAlright, that seems to be all of the guest list business. Iβll get my team to start organizing plane tickets and accommodation.β He sighed, βshall we head to the studio to check on the design team?β
βYes,β you replied.
Both of you were driven to the studio to check on the design team.
The studio was filled with models of various shades and shapes. Music played quietly in the background, and your coworkers and models grooved to the tunes. Designers pinned fabrics around peopleβs figures and sketched down measurements and ideas.
You and Westley went around checking on everyone, making sure gowns and suits were well in progress. A smaller group of people created ideas for shoes and were sending them out to shoemakers.
The rest of the day was spent getting to know the models, fixing measurements, finalizing some ideas, and briefing everyone about the plan for the next two months.
"Please have the gowns, suits, and shoes by the end of this month so we can start having the makeup artists consult all of you; to make sure the makeup correlates with the clothes and the models." You informed. "Thank you, everyone, for your amazing work."
Scattered βthank youβs responded, and our workday was over.
βYou want to get some drinks?β Westley nudged.
You nodded, frankly too tired to answer but eager for a drink.
Both of you decided to walk to the high-class bar, which allowed private areas in the back for paying customers. You and Westley sat alone, away from the crowds of people near the entrance of the bar.
βTo having a productive three months,β Westley sang, holding up his martini.
You sighed, βCheers,β you tapped your peach Bellini glass against his, admitting a chime.
"Fuck," Westley cursed at the sip of his drink, "they're always stronger than I remember. "Anyways, the show is pretty much underway. Guestlist is handled, the venue is prepped and ready for us, the clothing is almost done. Oooo, I canβt wait to see it all together.β
You nodded.
βYou donβt seem so excited, Y/N.β
βI am,β you replied.
βBut?β
βI am excited.β You affirmed, although not living up to the word
Westley silenced, knowing when not to push your buttons.
He took a careful sip of his martini. βWhereβs Hoseok?β
You fidgeted with your glass. "Hoseok went back to Korea. He only had a month of vacay, so," you left the sentence adrift.
βDid you enjoy his company?β
βCan we not talk about him right now? I rather not mix work and personal life.β You stated.
Westley acknowledged with a firm nod, finishing off his martini and asking for another.
βMay I ask a question?β
βSure.β You replied.
He cringed. βBut if I ask, promise me you wonβt fire me.β
You turned to him. βDepends on your question. You have to ask me first, then I can decide whether or not to fire you. I cannot make promises.β
βWhy are you so off all of a sudden?β He genuinely asked.
You took a deep breath. βIβm not going to fire you, not for a long time. Youβre my best worker, and I canβt let you go.β
"I feel like there's going to be a 'but' somewhere. Might as well rip off the Band-Aid." Westley sighed.
You nodded, βYouβre right. And youβre right about my mood. Iβve been kind of off lately.β
βBecause of Hoseok?β
"Yeah, to be honest." You admitted. "I feel like we're really closeβmore than just friends. We're on the same wavelength, you know? And whenever we're apart for a long time and then meet up again, it's like time has passed."
βAnd let me guess, you havenβt told him because youβre afraid to ruin your friendship.β
You scoffed. βThereβs no need for sarcasm, West.β
He rolled his eyes and sighed. βIβm just saying, itβs the oldest narrative in the book. One friend is falling for the other, and that one friend doesnβt want to confess their feelings because theyβve known the other person for years and are afraid of ruining that connection.β He took a sip of his martini. βBut in the end, itβs two friends just pining over their feelings of love for each other.β
βBut weβre different.β You argued.
"I guess so. The narrative doesn't really specify one friend is a famous fashion designer and the other being a famous musicianβ"
βI mean,β you interrupted, βwe have sex every time we see each other.
Westley's mouth fell open in a silent gasp. His hand was placed on his chest, and his eyes stared into yours.
He tipped back his martini into his mouth, finishing it off. βWell, you didnβt mention the friends with benefits part.β
βI know!β You groaned. βThatβs why itβs so complicated.β
"Is it really, though? Wouldn't confessing your feelings after you two have had sex so much make it slightly easier? Because it makes sense to grow feelings for someone you've known for a while and have had sex with on multiple occasions." Westley speculated.
βI didnβt say we had sex on multiple occasionsββ
βHoney,β he began, βyou said youβve had sex with him every time you see each other, and you two meet a lot. It doesnβt take a detective to figure it out.β
"Anyways," he digressed, "the sooner you tell him, the better. There's no use debating over it for years, then finding out he's found someone else when he would've picked you anyways."
"Gosh, when you say it like that, it sounds like a romantic movie." You cringed, finishing your peach Bellini.
He shrugged. βWell, it kinda is.β
You chuckled. βWell, thanks for the advice.β
βThank you for filling me in,β he smiled.
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The week went by fast. Your design team was still working on alterations, so you were left brainstorming hair and makeup and contacting specialists in those fields.
You were sitting at home, knee-deep in Pinterest boards when your phone buzzed.
You stopped strolling through your laptop and peered down.
Hoseok [19:30]: We can come to your show!
Y/N [19:30]: Fantastic! I'll let my team know, and weβll send out the invites.
You texted Westley, informing him that BTS could attend the show.
Westley [19:33]: Great! I'll let the rest of the team know, and we'll send the emails out tomorrow
Y/N [19:34]: Thanks!
Westley [19:35]: Np
You set down your phone and continued to add ideas to your private Pinterest board.
Your phone buzzed again.
Hoseok [19:55]: What are you doing right now?
You were puzzled.
Y/N [19:56]: Nothing much, just brainstorming ideas for the show. You?
Hoseok [19:57]: Just chilling in my room.
Hoseok [20:05]: I miss you
You chuckled at the text, thinking that Hoseok was drunk.
Y/N [20:05]: I miss you too, Hobi.
Hoseok [20:08]: β¦how much?
Again, you were puzzled by his text.
Y/N [20:10]: Wdym? I miss having you here? Is that what you mean?
Hoseok [20:11]: I mean, do you miss me intimately?
Y/N [20:14]: Like sex-wise?
Hoseok [20:14]: Fuck, I need you, Y/N.
You stared at his words.
Hoseok [20:18]: I miss your body and how perfectly you fit around me.
Your cheeks flushed.
Hoseok [20:21]: Can you video chat? Unless youβre not in the mood.
You panicked.
You were in the mood but weren't presentable. Your hair was messy, and you weren't wearing any makeup, and you were dressed in a hoodie and sweatpants.
Y/N [20:23]: Yeah, Iβm in the mood. Just give me 5 mins.
You quickly got out of your seat and ran to your bedroom. You sifted through your closet and found the sexist clothing item you had: a red lingerie set. You quickly undressed and put on the set.
You looked into your full-length mirror and tried not to cringe. Your hair was a mess, and you werenβt wearing any makeup. It definitely looked like Hoseok's text came out of nowhereβand it did, but you somehow expected yourself to be decently presentable.
However, the lingerie set was doing you favours. The set was composed of a crotchless thong and a bralette that exposed your nipples.
Y/N [20:28]: Iβm ready.
Your phone rang, and you answered, quickly propping it on your drawers across from your bed.
You were faced with a shirtless Hoseok, his cock already in his hand.
βFuck, you look amazing.β He complimented breathlessly.
βWow, youβre ahead of the gameβand really? Iβm a mess.β You chuckled.
He hissed, flinching in his grip. βFuck, just take the compliment, Y/N.β
You cleared your throat. βThank you.β
You sat a pit forward, angling your breasts towards the camera.
βWhat are you imagining, baby?β You purred.
βY-You,β he stuttered, moving his hand up and down his cock.
βMhm,β you moaned, βthinking up my pussy clenching around your cock, making it all wet.β
He nodded.
"You can do something if you want," he suggested. "You said you were in the mood."
Your eyes opened wide. βWait a minute.β
You brought the phone with you on your journey, going back to your closet and fetching your dildo, lube, and vibrator. You hurried to the bathroom and propped your phone up against the closed door.
You suctioned the bottom of the dildo onto the titled floor. You placed the vibrator on the bathroom counter.
βYou want to watch me bounce on this dildo and think of you?β You smirked, rubbing lube onto your hands, onto the toy, and onto your vagina. Β
βFuck, yes,β he replied, stilling his hand around his cock for a moment.
βDid I say you could stop?β You spat.
βIβm waiting for you,β he smiled, making your heart melt.
You paused over the dildo, smiling back at him. βAwww, thatβs actually kinda sweet. Thank you.β
You quickly washed your hands and grabbed the vibrator. Β
You crouched down and slowly onto the dildo.
βFuck,β you moaned, tilting your head back at the feeling of being filled up. It didnβt hit the spots Hoseok did, but it was good enough.
You lifted yourself up and sunk back down again, rhythmically repeating the motion.
βFuck, so good,β you sighed, overlooking the pain in your knees.
βThat's right, baby, imagine me filling that pussy up," Hoseok groaned, following your rhythm while pumping his cock.
βFuck yes,β you replied, βand Iβm clenching around you so tight.β
You two exchanged moans at the sound of your pussy squelching around the dildo.
βUse the vibrator, baby,β Hoseok purred.
You hummed, grabbing the rose gold vibrator and turning it on. You place the buzzing toy on your clit, feeling pleasure rippling through your core.
βFuck,β you hissed, speeding up your pace a bit.
βI-Iβm getting close.β
βYeah, baby?β Hoseok smirked. βYou get off at me rubbing my cock? Imagining me buried inside your pussy, making you feel so good?"
You nodded. βBut itβs not as you, baby.β
βI knowββ He choked, appearing to be on the brink of his climax. βI fucking miss the way your pussy fit so well around me, no matter how many times I fucked you open.β
βMhm,β you bit your lips, watching him with hooded eyes. βDonβt stop.β
βWho knew you were filthy enough to cum during cybersex?" He observed. "I'm not even there to touch you, but just thinking of me inside has you in ruins.β
βWhat would you do if I was with you right now?β You asked.
βI would fuck you until you couldnβt walk the next day,β he replied, βIβd fuck you until that pretty pussy is swollen.β
"F-fuck, I'm going to cum," you stuttered, feeling the familiar build-up in your core.
βM-me too,β he stammered.
You watched his head tilt back in pleasure and his cum squirt up from his cock.
βFuck!β You cursed, feeling your pleasure shoot out of your core and onto the floor
βSo hot,β Hoseok sighed.
You chuckled, coming down from high. You pulled yourself up and off the dildo, sitting on the cool tile floor.
βFuck, did you squirt?β He asked, looking closer.
You nodded, gesturing to the mess on the ground.
βSpread your legs for me, baby,β he commanded and obliged, showing him your battered cunt.
You spread your lips, and he hummed at sight.
βSo beautiful.β He awed.
βYou happy? I need to wipe this all up, now,β you scoffed.
He chuckled. βItβs not my fault that you cummed.β He angled his phone to the floor, showing splashes of his cum on the floor, "and besides, you also made me make a mess.β
You both chatted while cleaning up your messes, talking about your days as if nothing happened. After finishing your clean-up, you two continued your conversation while showering, as if both of you were doing it together.
Ready to relax for the night, both of you signed off with exchanged βthanksβ and βgood night.β
You turned off your phone with a soft click and stepped out of the steamy bathroom. Your pyjamas were soft on your skin, and you felt ready to go to bed.
Hopping onto your bed, you grabbed your laptop and turned on some Netflix to fall asleep to.
From an outsiderβs perspective, masturbating with your best friend and then casually talking with them while showering and getting ready for bed was odd. Repeating the scenario in your mind did make it sound like you two were in a long-distance romantic relationship rather than a platonic one.
But you and Hoseok were different. That was your excuse.
A friend could do this and not catch feelings. You two were the perfect example of that.
Emphasis on were because you were currently spiralling in your growing romantic feelings for Hoseok.
But what would you do in this situation?
You and your childhood friend engage in sex one time and promise each other to not grow feelings. In this manner, you two could have sex without attachment. Fast forward into the future, and you both are still making this arrangement with no negative consequences and feel like you two have gotten to know each other better and have become better friendsβuntil you catch feelings. And you donβt want to risk losing this relationship you two have.
Because he is a worldwide musician who canβt be tied down because it could risk his career, and he might lose fansβand you couldn't be bothered with any romantic commitment with your fast-paced and unpredictable work schedule.
So, you stay in this unnameable mess.
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βTime flies by when youβre having fun,β Allie commented from the plush couch.
You looked in the mirror, twisting your back towards it to see the back of the dress. βI guess so.β
βYou have to admit, planning a fashion show is pretty fun,β she said. βIf it wasnβt, you wouldnβt be doing it over and over again.β
βTrue,β you replied, turning to the stylist.
βMay I see the other dress?β You asked, and the stylist nodded, retreating to somewhere in the shop you couldnβt see.
It was the last month until the show. Everything was in order: the showβs venue and its decorations, the clothes, makeup and hair for the models, and the guestsβ accommodation. Now, it was your turn to find suitable attire for the occasion.
You tried on the next dress. It was a slim-fitting number, with a leg slit in the front. It was scandalous and stunning, but not right for the show.
βI donβt like any of these dresses,β you sighed, annoyed.
Allie appears to brainstorm some ideas.
βMaybe try a suit?β She proposed.
You kept your eyes on the mirror, twirling your figure and watching the fabric move at your feet.
βThink about it,β she began, βthink of all the powerful women whoβve worn suits and killed it. Zendaya, Kristen Stewart, Blake Lively, Awkwafina. The list goes on. Itβs a statement piece, and youβre the big brain behind this operation.β
βI think itβs βmastermind behind this operation,β but I get what you mean.β You corrected.
βYou literally bypassed my whole pointββ
βI know, I know,β you interrupted. βItβs justβsuits for women are so overpriced. And itβs just like the dresses, except a different fit. Same colour palettes, same materials, so on.β
Allie scoffed. "You're a fucking fashion designer, did you forget? Make your own thing. There are leftover fabrics at your studio; you have time to make something." Her face lit up, βAnd, technically, itβs for free.β
You gave it a thought, but the stylist came back before you could finish it.
"I'm sorry, Ms. Vega, but Iβm not finding anything, and I donβt want you walking back and forth and bringing me more dresses.β You gave an apologetic smile. βThank you very much for your help.β
"No worries, Y/N! Just hang up the dress when you take it off, and Iβll deal with the rest,β she replied.
βWill do,β you said, and she stepped out of the room.
Allie helped you unzip the gown, and you shimmed out of it. You did as you were told and hung up the dress, and you and Allie left the shop.
The walk back to the studio was quick, you two making determined strides through the crowded city.
You and Allie entered the empty studio, turning on the nights.
The studio was organized chaos with dressed mannequins, big boxes of fabrics in the back of the room, and papered patterns on the tables.
βWow,β Allie awed.
"Yeah," you replied, leading you both to your master station is near the back, "it's crazy what a couple months before a show looks like.β
You looked through the drawers beside your desks and grabbed the tools you'll need to plan out the suit.
βSo, just a suit jacket and pantsβ¦β You said, grabbing some paper to sketch up your pattern.
You looked up at Allie, βDo you mind helping me out with measurements?β
She nodded, βFor sure. What do you need?β
You guided Allie on how to measure your proportions for the suit. She measured your inseams for your pants, the sleeves, the cuts, and so on. In between, you'd write down the dimensions for the patterns.
You two sifted through the fabrics to create a monochrome patchwork outfit. The suit would be shades of cherry red, with different materials making it up. There were no patterns in the patchwork, only various tones of red in several types of wool.
βFucking hell,β Allie cursed while sifting through the materials, βwho wouldβve thought there were so many shades of red.β
She held up a piece of recycled fabrics, checking with you that it was the correct tone. You took it and held the portion against the others.
βNope, too dark,β you shook your head.
"What? It looks exactly the same," she disagreed, walking over to your table. When comparing the fabrics, she made an 'aaahβ sound, letting you know that you were right.
Before sectioning off your pattern, you tried your best to evenly sew all the material together into a quilt-like form.
βJesus,β you muttered, shaking out your sore hands.
βWe donβt have to get this all done today, you know. You do have two months left.β Allie advised.
"I know. I just want to put this all together first," you replied, continuing to push the material through the sewing machine.
βAlright,β she surrendered, bringing one of the seats over to your table.
You sewed in silence for a bit.
βSo,β Allie began, βhow are you and Hoseok doing?β
You paused. βWhat do you mean?β
βYou knowβ¦you two and your arrangement.β
You scoffed, βOur arrangement? You mean us having sex?β
βYeah, but the other stuff.β
You pulled your hands from the sewing machine, crossing your arms over your chest. "Just spit it out, Al."
βWell, youβve had mixed feelings with Hoseok, right? Like youβre starting to like him?β She speculated.
Your mouth gaped open. βHave you been talking to West?β
She didnβt respond, not making eye contact.
βYou canβt be fucking serious. You two are ganging up on me!β You yelled.
βY/N, weβre just worried.β
βAbout what? I have feelingsβand?β You fumed.
She sighed. βYou shouldnβt be having sex with someone if youβre growing romantic feelings, especially if you two agreed to be platonic.β
βOh, fuck off,β you stood.
βY/N!β She exclaimed. "Don't you dare talk to me that way? I am your friend, not your enemy." Allie stood up and sighed. βI get it. You donβt like people in your business. Thatβs fair. I just feel like you're sacrificing yourself for Hoseok when you could talk about it with him."
βAllie, you donβt know what youβre fucking talking about.β You spat.
βI get it,β she sympathized. βI donβt. Iβm not you or Hoseok.β
βSo, tell me,β she said. βEducate me on the situation. I am not here to judge. Iβm just worried about you, thatβs all.β
You took a few deep breaths, trying to calm yourself down.
βIβm sorry,β you apologized. βI shouldnβt have talked to you like that.β
βItβs okay,β she forgave, βjust donβt push me away so fast, okay?β
βOkay.β You agreed.
She sat down, βSo?β
You sat down and rehashed your feelings about you and Hoseok to her: the growing romantic feelings for him, not knowing what to do, and wanting something more.
βWell, do you think itβd work out between you two if you dated?β She asked.
You shifted in your seat. "I honestly don't know. It's tough with Hoseok's work because he has a loyal fanbase. I'm afraid he's going to get even more hate if we were to date.β
βBut would you two be happy?β She asked.
You gave it a thought. βWhat do you mean?β
βWell, you go into a relationship regardless of other people. Whether youβre a celebrity or an ordinary person, you date someone for you and that person; no one else. There are going to be people who support and hate your relationship no matter what. What matters is what the two people think in the relationship."
She sighed. βYou cannot control what others will think about you. No matter what you do or who you do, you're going to upset someone. So, just do what feels comfortable and safe with you."
You hummed, understanding.
βSo, would you be happy if you and Hoseok dated?β
βYes.β You stated without a thought. βI really like himβlove him even.β
"Then that's all that matters," Allie replied.
.
.
The week before, the show crept on you faster than you expected. You, your team of designers and event organizers, models, hairstylists and makeup artists flew into Vancouver a week early to prepare on location.
However, the majority of the week would be spent preparing for the show. The first day was spent unloading all of the outfits and equipment for the show into the venue. Everyone was required to show up to organize their stations and to familiarize themselves with the venue.
βPlease set up your stations while Westley and I look into the main runway and after part section. Weβll be back in around two hours to check up on everyone. If you have any questions while we're gone, please contact me on my phone." You held up your cellphone and everyone nodded. "Great. Good luck, everyone!"
The venue and interior designers' owners toured you and Westley around the place, showing you the drawn floorplans, running down the prices, and checking that the decorations correlated with your plans.
βThese werenβt the chairs we sent over,β Westley pointed to the black folded chairs lining the runways.
βYes, but these were within the price range andββ One of the interior designers, Queeny, said.
βBut did we get an email regarding this change?β You interjected.
Queeny exchanged looks with the other three decorators, and they shook their heads.
Wesley let out an angry sigh. "Well, I guess weβll have to live with these then.β He sat down on one of the chairs. βAt least theyβre comfortable. They look cheap, but theyβre sturdy.β
βAre there any more changes you made without informing as?β You asked.
They all shook their heads.
"Great." You turned to one of the two-venue owners, named Ruby. "Shall we continue to the after-party part?β
βYes,β she replied, gesturing to the doorway that led to the front reception area.
From the reception area, where guests would check-in and get a wristband, a double-door way on the right led to a ballroom for the after-party.
The overall theme of the place was classic European designs with off-white luxurious walls and chandeliers. The ceilings were intricately carved, and the floors were a smooth white oak. Just walking around made you feel like you were dirtying the place.
βThis place is stunning,β Westley whispered.
βI know,β you replied, βyou chose the place.β
βI know,β he smiled, pretending to flip his hair.
You both chuckled, continuing to follow the owners around the venue.
Everything worked out, besides the chairs, so you and Westley checked on the designers, models, hairstylists and makeup artists.
At the end of the workday, everyone was in order and ready for the next three days of dress rehearsals and solving and problems.
You arrived back at your hotel with sore feet and exhaustion.
Your phone rang as you flopped onto your bed.
You answered. βHobi!β
βY/N! How was your flight to Vancouver?β He asked.
βIt was good. We didn't have a rest day, though. We had to settle into the place and check it over. My feet are so sore.β You groaned.
βReally? I thought youβd at least have a rest day when you guys arrived,β he assumed.
You shook your head. βNo. Sadly, this whole week will be walking around and making sure everything is going smoothly.β
He sighed. βShit. That sucks.β You heard him shift on the other side of the phone. βDo you want to relax?β
You laughed. βJung Hoseok, did you seriously booty call me from across the world?β
Hoseok gasped, "I did not! I was talking about watching Netflix or something." He chuckled, "You're so dirty-minded."
You both laughed.
βOkay, so what do you want to watch?β He asked on the other end of the call.
You brought out your laptop and scrolled through the movie selection.
βOooo! Letβs watch Hush. Iβve heard so many good things about it.β You recalled.
You could hear his hesitation.
Hoseok did not like being scared. Whenever you watched anything scary, you were afraid that your neighbours would complain at how loud his screaming was. As you remembered saying "hello" to him once and him screaming in fear and surprise, he was also easily frightened.
βWe donβt have to,β you said.
βNo, no,β Hoseok reassured, βweβll watch it. Just send me the Netflix Party link, and I'll ready the Zoom link."
You giggled. βYou donβt have to be brave for me, Hobi. I know you donβt like scary movies.β
βYou want to watch it, so letβs do it,β he said, βand the ratings are good.β
βOkay,β you digressed. βIβm texting you the link right now.β
βSame,β he replied.
You two hung up and joined the links.
βHello!β Hoseok beamed, dancing.
You rolled your eyes and chuckled at his burst of energy. βHello, Hobi.β
You carried your laptop to the bathroom and began getting ready for bed.
βHow was your day?β You asked.
Hoseok described him and his bandmates' film day for "Run! BTS," and you groaned at all the work they had to do.
He laughed. βBut we got to play games, which was fun. We laughed so much that my abs hurt.β You watched him lift up his shirt and show his toned abdomen.
Your core felt a familiar flutter.
βW-wow, that must be a lot of laughing,β you cleared your throat and took out your toothbrush and toothpaste.
For the moment, the time difference worked for you two because it was almost ten at night for you and nearly three in the afternoon for him.
βShould I turn off my camera?β You asked before undressing to get into the shower.
He shook his head. βIβm okay with you leaving it on. Iβve seen you naked before, so itβs not really different. But if youβre uncomfortable, you can just turn it off.β
You shrugged and began taking off your clothes in full view of the camera and screen.
You noticed Hoseokβs expression.
βEnjoying the show?β You chuckled, finally taking off your undergarments and fully exposing yourself.
Hoseok smirked, βDonβt act like you werenβt just turned on by my abs. I saw how you looked at me.β
You nodded and surrendered. βFair point.β
You hoped in the shower, and you two continued talking.
βJesus, we havenβt started the movie yet,β Hoseok commented while you were washing your hair.
βShit, right,β you laughed, massaging the shampoo into your scalp.
After you hoped out of the shower and dried your body and hair, you both started to watch the movie.
βThis is a pretty cool premise. Like, weβve never seen a deaf person in a horror movie before,β you regarded.
"True, that's a good pointβAHHHHHH!" Hoseok screamed at the sudden slam in the movie.
You burst into laughter.
βHoly shit!β He exclaimed, trying to calm himself with controlled breaths.
The movie continued as you finished off your skincare and put on your pyjamas.
The oversized t-shirt was long enough to cover your thighs.
βYouβre going to watch this before bed?β Hoseok gasped.
You chuckled. βYeah. Itβs not that scary.β You say as you jump at the sound of breaking glass in the film.
Hoseok laughed at the coincidental timing.
You donβt remember falling asleep, but you woke up to the sound of your alarm.
βShit,β you grumbled and turned it off.
You heard Hoseok stir awake on the Zoom call.
Both of you had fallen asleep, but Hoseok finished the movie before you could; because you saw the end credits paused in the Netflix Party.
βSorry,β you whispered.
βItβs okay,β Hoseok mumbled, squinting at the screen.
βIβll let you sleep,β you smiled, hovering your cursor over the "send" button.
He softly smiled, βthank you.β He snuggled into his pillow, βI love you, Y/N.β
βI love you too, Hobi,β you replied, ending the call for both of you.
It didnβt hit you until you were halfway through your dress rehearsal, but Hoseok had stayed with you while you slept. He didn't wake you but quietly continued the movie and fell asleep.
Hoseok was usually sweet, so you didn't pay too much attention to it.
But it did make you feel special.
.
.
It was the day of the fashion show, and you were fucking nervous.
You had done this before, a show, but this one was different. You had put in so much effort and were proud of how it turned out but were afraid of what other people would think.
βItβll be fine, donβt worry,β Allie assured through video call,β itβll be excellent, and everyone wonβt stop talking about it.β
βProbably,β you replied, putting on your makeup.
βIt will be excellent, Y/N. I am so sure I will bet money.β She stated.
You chuckled, "then I'll take your word for it because I am not bidding money.β
You both laughed.
βOkay, I know I already showed you my outfit, but are you sure it looks good?β She asked, putting on the A-line floor-length dress sheβd shown you before. It was a beautiful viridian green with lace shoulder straps that draped over the sides of her biceps.
βYou look beautiful,β you complimented, setting your makeup with setting spray and heading to your closet.
You put on the suit you made and looked in the mirror. You looked a bad bitch.
βYou look great! Oooo, put on the red bottoms,β Allie squealed.
You put on the signature Louis Vuitton black high heels with the ruby bottoms.
Your phone buzzed.
βI got to go; Westley is here with our ride to the venue. Iβll see you there!β
βSee you!β She waved, ending the call.
You did a quick check in the mirror, fixing your hair, grabbed your bags, and headed out the door.
Your driver waited outside the vehicle as you approached, and opened its door, showing you a well-dressed and excited Westley.
"Oh my god, you look great!" He gasped. βWhen did you make the suit?β
βI finished it a week before we flew out,β you chuckled, βand you look great too! I love the pine on you.β
You took a step back and looked at Westleyβs crisp pine-coloured suit with matching brown dress shoes.
βThank you,β he grinned. βOkay, get in before we become late.β
You hopped into the car, and your driver got in and started the vehicle.
The drive was spent recalling your opening and closing speeches with Westley and the show's agenda.
βSo, five pm is when the show ends, and then the guests for the after-party go into the ballroom area. Food is served at six pm, and everything is wrapped up at ten pm.β Westley relayed.
You nodded, βYup.β
Both of you arrived a couple hours before the start time, which was at 1 pm, to set everything up and warm up the models and crew.
Westley checked the organizers and the models while you went to the runway area to check the lights and sound.
"Let's rerun the lights, please!" You announced as you walked into the runway room. "Can I get a headset, please?" You ask the crew on the ground, who nodded.
βYup!β You heard the lighting crew respond.
You were given the headset, and you heard the head light technicianβs voice.
βCan you hear me?β They checked.
βYes,β you confirmed.
They ran by the six light settings for the show, and it was all correct.
βItβs perfect, thank you. Can you please check that the sound is alright?β You asked through the headset.
βYup. Youβll have to hand the headset to another person, though, and weβll give you a mic.β They added.
You heard their muffled voice as if they covered their mic's headset with their hand. Next, you had someone hand you a mic and take your headset.
βYouβll need to stand on the stage,β The person said.
βOkay,β you replied, going to the runway and standing on the end portion.
All the roomβs lights turned on, and you could see the lighting crewβs area in the back and the chair organized around the runway.
βYou can speak into the mic!β You heard someone shout.
You started speaking nonsense in the mic, like the type of weather outside, as they adjusted the volume.
βThank you!β Someone shouted.
βThanks,β you said into the mic before handing it to one of the crew.
βIs there anything to report? Any problems that arose before I got here?β You asked the crew.
They all shook their heads.
βHow is everyone feeling?β You asked.
They all shared nervous laughter, and a few people said βgood.β
βAlright, if thereβs anything you all need, just come to the modelling area and ask me. Itβs in the backroom.β
They all nodded, and you left them to their business.
You arrived in the backroom and saw designers fitting their outfits on the models and makeup artists and hairstylists prepping their stations.
βHow is everybody doing?!β You enthusiastically asked.
They cheered with a mix of excitement and nervousness.
"I get it. Everyone is on their toes. You all have an hour left to set things up before people start filing in. Remember, the show starts at 1 pm. The door opens thirty minutes before them.β
They call responded with various forms of understanding, and you went around to check on them individually.
Rachel came and taped your shoulder, with a headset on, βSo, the guards are in their posts, and the front is ready to check people in.β
βIs there a line already?β You asked.
Rachel pressed down the headset, asking the crew on the other end.
βYes, thereβs a line of people outside,β she reported, βabout twenty people, so far.β
"Shit, yeah, let them in. It's probably cold." You ordered.
βIβll tell them,β she replied.
βOkay, everyone! Weβre starting to let people in. Again, you all have about an hour left, so try to wrap things up and relax. Thank you!β You announced.
Again, sounds of understanding, and you, Westley, and Rachel left the backroom.
βRachel, Westley and I are going to check that the ballroom area and catering are all handled. Please check in with the front desk to see how they're doing, and then meet us in the ballroom." You told.
βGot it, Y/N,β Rachel answered, walking past the two of you and towards the front area.
Westley appeared impressed. βShe's terrific. She's even got the headset and everything."
"I know, right? She's cool." You remarked.
Like clockwork, you and Westley ran over the details and schedule for the catering and the after-party. Everyone had places to sit, with elegantly decorated name cards.
Everything was ready.
"Fantastic, thank you," you thanked the caterers and the staff in the ballroom. "Feel free to come into the runway area during the show if you all would like to watch."
With that, it was about time the show would start. You and Westley hurried backstage, where you both were handed microphones.
The lights dimmed, and classical music playedβfitting the theme of elegance and high class.
You and Westley regarded each other, did an excellent handshake, and strutted out on the runway. Both of you were met with applause from the crowd and blinding spotlights.
You two walked to the end of the runway and let out an exhausted sigh.
The music quieted, faintly heard in the background.
βAnd thatβs why Iβm not a model,β Westley joked, causing the crowd to giggle.
βSame here,β you chuckled.
βAnyways, welcome to the show, everyone!β You cheered, and the crowd clapped. βAs you know, I am Y/N, and this is Westley. Today, weβll be showing recycled elegant clothes on people. Not just models, but people. All the clothes you'll be seeing here today are made from recycled fabrics and hand-crafted by our design team and me."
Applause.
"We wanted to represent people, so we got people to present our clothes. Redundant, I know, but the fashion industry rarely shows models that look like people. Donβt get me wrong, theyβre all fantastic. However, this show will be different. Enjoy!β Westley waved.
A final round of applause while you and Westley walked off the runway.
The show went smoothly and wonderfully. The changes were fluid, and there were no clothing mishaps. The classical music turned into upbeat music that everyone seemed to groove to. Models danced on the runway while walking, and there were joyful cheers in the crowd.
In the end, you and Westley gave your brief thank you speeches, and months of planning and work were officially completed.
When everyone was backstage, you all collectively cheered.
βPhenomenal job, everyone!β You praised. βI am speechless at how well we all did. Thank you all for being such wonderful people to work with.β
Smiles and cheers were shared as everyone got ready for the after-party.
βOkay, remember that food is being served at six oβclock, and you all will be able to find your names at a table.β You reminded.
You and Westley did a quick check-up on people before heading to the ballroom area to socialize.
βGreat job, you two!β Some complimented.
You and Westley thanked the praise and had a small talk with some colleges.
βHey, Y/N!β You heard a familiar voice say.
You turned and say Hoseok with the rest of the boys, waving.
βHey!β You smiled, nudging Westley to join you.
"Well, enjoy the after-party," Westley grinned at the other guests before joining you.
As always, the seven boys were well-dressed in designer suits. Hoseok wore lightly tinted shades paired with a dark suit and floral dress shirt. His hair was wavy.
βThat was awesome, Y/N,β Namjoon said.
βThank you!β You replied.
βYeah, Y/N, I loved the recycled-fabrics idea. Are anything on sale?β Taehyung asked.
You nodded. "Everything will be on sale next month. I'll send you the dates, so you mark them in your calendar. The clothes go fast," you chuckled.
βDamn,β Taehyung remarked, eyebrows raised.
βHey, Jimin,β Westley greeted.
βHey West,β Jimin smiled, βloved your speech today. That suit looks great on you.β
βI know,β Westley smirked, βyou look good too.β
"How are you feeling?" Hoseok asked, letting Westley and Jimin casually flirt.
You sighed. βGlad that itβs over, to be honest. It was fun, of course, but it's a lot of work to organize."
βOh my god, is that Charlie Puth?β Jungkook gasped, hiding slightly behind Namjoon.
Everyone laughed.
"You should go and say 'hi,' Kook. You've already met and sung with him before. You two are practically friends." Yoongi expressed.
βTrue,β you agreed, βand Charlieβs a nice guy.β
βOkay,β Jungkook straightened his posture, βIβll do it.β
You all watched Jungkook walk over and begin chatting with Charlie Puth.
βGod, heβs grown up so much,β Seokjin sighed.
The rest of you caught up and chatted about the show.
Before you knew it, Westley was poking your side to let you know it was five minutes until six.
βShit,β you cursed. βSorry to cut this convo short, but Westley and I have to announce dinner. Weβll talk soon!β
You all said your goodbyes, and you and Westley went up to the front to state it was time for food.
You two were seated with Rachel, Allie, and a couple others. Everyone ordered off a menu, which served various kinds of pasta, salads, and a mix of alcoholic and non-alcoholic beverages.
It was an excellent way to end off the show.
There was a dancefloor, too, where people could groove to music after eating.
Of course, the seven boys went to the dancefloor, which caused others to join.
You were finishing off your fettuccine alfredo when Hoseok danced over to your table. You chuckled as he held his hand out and quirked a brow.
βYouβre ridiculous,β you said, taking his hand.
βYou love it,β he smirked, pulling you off your chair and leading you to the dancefloor.
You danced together, along with your friends. He held your hands as you two swayed to the slow songs and body-rolled with you during the upbeat songs. Of course, a few BTS songs played, and everyone tried to follow the known choreography. You went back to your table for a drink of water, and Allie came with you. "Look, and you and Hoseok dancing up a storm," she teased. βShut up,β you chuckled. βThe chemistry is there, Y/N,β she commented. You drank your water. "Not now, Al." βCome on! Heβs here for, what, the night and then gone tomorrow morning? When will you see him again?β She asked. You paused, honestly unsure when you'd see Hoseok again. βNow or never, Y/N. How much longer can you debate this?β βI know,β you replied. βIβll do it later tonight.β Around nine-thirty, the party was dying down, with only a few guests scattered around the venue helping to clean up. You made eye contact with Allie, who was tending to the chairs, who nudged towards Hoseokβs direction. Now or never. You said in your head. βCan I speak to you, Hoseok?β You asked, walking up to him. βFor sure!β He replied. You led both of you to a secluded part of the venue, away from listeners. βDid you enjoy the show?β You asked. βYeah! You did a fantastic job, Y/N. I love how everything turned out, the colours, the recycled fabrics were greatβand your suit! I canβt believe you made it,β Hoseok complimented, stepping back to look at your attire. βThank you,β you blushed. You gave a quick look around to make sure no one was around. βIs everything alright, Y/N? Youβre looking around as if theyβre spies around.β He gasped. βAre there spies around? What secret donβt they know?β βI donβt want to have sex with you anymore.β You abruptly stated. A stretch of silence. Hoseokβs expression was a mixture of surprise and concern. βWhat?β βI canβt have sex with you anymore.β βYou canβt or donβt want to? Is it something I did?β βYes? No? In a way?β You pondered. You took a few deep breaths. "I like you, Hoseokβpossibly even love you.β You ran your hand through your hair. βI know we agreed not to catch feelings, so I think we should stop having sex.β You watched his expression shift from some form of being happy to disappointment. βYou know I cannot date with work,β he explained, "with the fans, touring, and whatnot, I cannot date someone. And you have your company to work on." βI know,β you replied. βBut do you like me back?β You asked. βI doββ βYou do?β You were on the verge of hugging him, but he stepped back. You looked at him, confused. βWe canβtββ βWhy?β βI literally just told you, Y/N. With work, dating wouldnβt allow it. I already have peopleββ He choked on his words. βPeople who wish I was dead, j-just for being me.β βHoseokββ You reached out to him, but he gently pushed you away. βNo,β he objected, βIβm fine. I just donβt want to add you to the mess.β βYou canβt decide that for me.β You retorted. βI understand that you donβt want to add me to it, but Iβm okay with it. I don't care what other people would say about us. They're not in the relationship, we areβ" βBut what if I care?β He said, almost too quiet for you to hear. βIβm the happy guy of BTS, whoβs dedicated to his work.β βBut are you truly happy?β You peered into him. βYeah,β he replied, avoiding eye contact, βbut it gets really hard sometimes.β βSo, let me help, Hoseok,β you pleaded. "I don't need to be helped! I'm not another project for you to work on.β He thundered. βYou know thatβs not what I meant.β You seethed. βLetβs just drop it, okay? Weβre not dating, thatβs it.β He dictated. βFine.β You replied. βHave a safe trip back home.β You left without another word, trying your best not to cry. Out of all the ways you thought he'd respond, this took you off guard. Hoseok wasn't one to push you away, but here he was doing so. βFuck this,β you whimpered, walking up to Allie. βIβm going back to the hotel, sorry,β you said, turning away as soon as possible. βY/N!β
You washed your face and hoped into the showerβthe warm water soothing your sore muscles and emotions. You couldnβt tell if it was the water or your tears streaming down your face.
What else did you expect? Hoseok had a point: with his work, he couldnβt date someone. And it was ridiculous that Hoseok would want to date you.
However, instead of sulking over Hoseok, you decided to have a bath and put on a facemask.
The roomβs phone rang while you were starting the bath.
βHello?β
βHello, is this Y/N Y/L/N?
βSpeaking,β you confirmed.
βGreat! Thereβs a man here, named,β a muffled noise, βHoseok Jung.β
βTell him Iβm busy, please,β you replied.
Another muffled noise. βHoseok says he's sorry and that he has ice creamβcookie dough. But if heβs dangerous, I can call the police.β
βNo, no. God no,β you said.
You bit your lip. "You can send Hoseok up."
βOkay. However, if thereβs anything wrong, please try to press the red button on the receiver. I will check back with you in an hour. If thereβs no response, Iβll get someone to check on you.β They informed.
βThank you,β you replied, slightly shocked by their concern.
You hung up.
A few minutes later, you heard a knock on the door. You tightened your robe.
You checked the peephole before cracking the door open.
βHi,β you greeted.
βHey," he smiled. "I'm sorry for leaving you like that at the party. It was sudden and insensitive. I should have been more considerate of your feelings rather than shutting you off.β
βI was justβscared. I donβt know what itβs going to be like for us. And I don't want you to fix meβbut I like you, a lotβso I brought cookie dough ice cream and two spoonsβ"
βDo you want to come in?β You interrupted his nervous rambling.
βYes, thank you,β he chuckled.
Hoseok still wore the suit from the fashion show, but his jacket was folded over his arm, and his dress shirt was unbuttoned lower.
βOh, youβre running the bath,β he noticed. "We can deal with this later if it's a bad time."
βNo, itβs alright. Iβll just turn off the water.β You replied, going to the bathroom to do so.
When you came back, Hoseok was sitting on the edge of your bed.
βSo, what did you want to talk about?β You asked, sitting beside him.
He opened the ice cream tub, setting the lid on the desk and handing you one of the spoons.
βI was thinking you could talk more, actually; about how you feel," he replied, giving you the tub and angling himself to face you. "I just want to listen to you this time."
You gave a brief smile before spooning a small piece of ice cream into your mouth.
βWell, I just feel like weβre in this grey area of being really close but having sex. And we both like each other, and we said at the venue, and I just feel like we should just date then.β You set the ice cream and spoon down on the desk. βI get that work complicates things for you. But once weβve confessed our feelings, I just donβt know what to call thisβthis friendship?β
Hoseok nodded.
"So, if you don't want to date, that's completely fine. I understand. However, we can't keep having sex like we used to; because I have feelings for you now, and you said you do too, so it's not a good mix."
βThatβs fair,β he acknowledged.
βBut what do you think? Like, how do you feel about us?β You asked.
He paused and set his spoon on the desk with yours. βI want to date you, Y/N. I just donβt want to get you hurt.β He softly grasped your hands. βThe industry can be toxic, and I donβt want to subject you to that.β
βI understand,β you replied, βbut I want to date you too, regardless of all the other bullshit. As cheesy as it sounds, all I want is you, Hoseok.β
Hoseok smiled but then pretended to gag.
βHobi! I was romantic."
βSorry, but that was so cheesy.β He cringed.
βSo, do you want to just start dating, then?β You proposed. βWe have the ice cream here; we can pretend to get to know each other more.β
He chuckled. βSure. Letβs do that.β
Hoseok stood up and held his hand out to you. βY/N Y/L, will you go on a date with me?β
You laughed but composed yourself. βI would love to, Jung Hoseok.β You took his hand, and he immediately sat back down.
βSo, Y/N,β Hoseok began, handing you the partially melted ice cream and your spoon, βwhat do you like to do on the weekends?β
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1 year later.
βIβm thinking of moving to Korea,β you said. Hoseok turned to you, surprised. βReally? But youβre not based here.β βI know,β you acknowledged, βbut I can fly in and skype, or whatever. I can have a home base here, too.β You were visiting Hoseok for a couple weeks before you had to go back home for a clothing launch. Both of you were cuddling at his place when you brought up your idea of moving to Korea. βOf course, it wouldnβt be immediate. I would need to sort things out with Westley and Rachel and organize a place to stay here and a work area. The company is sturdy enough to handle the change.β You reasoned. βYou could move in with me,β he suggested, turning his body to face you. βAre you sure?β βYeah, why not. Weβve been dating for a while now, and it makes sense.β He shrugged. βUnless you donβt want to.β You kissed him. βNo, I want to.β Both of you discussed what your move would be like and imagined living together. If you were to look back at how your relationship with Hoseok progressed, you would be shocked. In a matter of a few months, you and Hoseok went from friends to romantic partners. Although you had not come out publicly about your relationship, many people had a sense it existed; but that didnβt matter. You and Hoseok were in a secure and healthy relationship. It was long distanced, but you two made it work by visiting each other when you could and calling almost every day. The only thing that didnβt change was the sexβalthough it had gotten better. Nevertheless, so much has happened over the past year. And you wouldnβt have it any other way.






















