thinspo isn't enough i need to be electrocuted every time i eat

No one understands how much I hate myself. I hate myself so fucking much I can’t even look on the mirror without feeling absolutely disgusted. I want to die.

i wanna get bad again. i wanna cut and starve myself and vape and drink 6 energy drinks a day and get drunk and just quit giving a fuck. theres peace is self destruction. i wanna get bad again

I hate realizing that this is it. this is life. I only get one chance and I’m spending it crying over food, hurting myself and unable to get out of bed some days.

my chest hurts thinking about how badly I've messed up my life, how destroyed my brain is, how I'll never be good enough ever again

people who struggle with low self esteem are constantly in anxiety that the person they love is just using them. thanks for proving it to me.

Literally

I am painfully aware that I am no one’s favorite person

I dont think people understand how much you have to hate yourself to hurt yourself. To starve and binge and cut and vomit. It goes against everything human, every instinct. To think you deserve it is unbearable.

Google search history: “How to tell my mom in a loving way that she needs therapy”

the way most of us would probably be at our ugws if we didn’t live with our parents