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...  I miss you.

I really wish you were still fucking here.

I’m an idiot. I don’t know what I’m doing. I don’t know what I want to do. You were actually good at all this.. existing junk. You helped people. You helped me.

But I can’t fill your shoes, man. You know that. You didn’t pick me, after all.

... Just, what am I supposed to do. The only thing I know I want is to get back at them, but that’s. That’s stupid. I know it’s stupid. It won’t bring you back. And even if I succeeded... I’d probably not only cause a bunch of problems for the whole group, I’d lose the only thing motivating me to keep going. I can’t even pretend I care about some ‘greater good’ or whatever, I can barely scrape up enough concern about these guys to call myself a functioning person. Why were you even friends with me? Why’d you invite me to your little club? I don’t. belong here.

I’ve got nothing.

I’m nothing.

It was only ever you.

...

Despite this...

I’ve been starting to feel... a little more, toward crow and neon at least... And they seem to worry about me a lot, so..

I guess it’ll be a bit longer still, before I join you...

Man, I don’t know we even got here. When did we start calling each other bae? How’d we build a friendship around worshiping Miku and eating snacks? When did there start to be actual like.. care and shit.

I don’t fucking know. I’m sure you know you’re way out of my league, lmao.

I’m. Really fucking glad you’re here, though. I stress myself out and act like a dumbass and then there you go, reminding me to chill out, setting me straight. You stick around and I don’t. fucking get it, but it means so much.

   I don’t know... where to start with you. I guess. The biggest thing coming to mind is how he picked you. Comes to mind pretty often honestly, but like, y’know. I get kinda jealous over that sometimes, mad even, but that’s my own dumb shit-- I think he made a good choice.

You’re like. You’re a good guy. I know I pick on you a lot, but the truth is, I think you’re pretty cool. Smart and junk. And you... really love your friends. You actually care about people, and that’s-- That’s a good thing for a leader to do.

... I love you too. You’re like a brother to me. A dorky one that I gotta pick on, but like, I feel pretty comfortable with you, and that’s. a really hard thing to do. But you make our little group feel like... y’know, like home. 

Just, I don’t know. Just thanks. For everything. ... I think you’re gonna do great things.