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{She nodded as Mandy spoke, feeling a knot on her throat. She understood all the reasons Mandy had not to have the baby – her mother, first of all. The woman would lose the rest of her sanity if Mandy turned out pregnant, and even though she had no memories of Matthew, she didn’t like hearing that she couldn’t tell him about it.} Well… You could always… Get rid of it. It’s very high risk, and expensive, and in my eyes is still murder but… {Phoebe sighed, she didn’t want to imagine the terrible consequences of an abortion.} You could have the baby and give it to a nice same sex couple who can’t have babies on their own? You know,  light in the dark? I’ll be there when you tell your mom – Or you don’t have to tell her at all!! Let’s get the hell out of here, and find somewhere to live, and we’ll deal with this. 

[The idea of getting rid of the baby was nearly as scary as keeping it, but how many more options would she have? it was a mess, no matter which angle it was looked from, the whole situation was a mess. And if she was write, her period being late didn’t exactly match with being with Matt which only made her doubt even more. She was already pregnant, the kid being Rory’s would be too much of a cruel irony.] I’m not sure what I’m gonna do Pheebs, I’m not even sure the baby would make it through. [Her habits where far from being a safe environment for a child, it wasn’t even safe for her, bringing a baby into it would heartless of her. Amanda shook her head at Phoebe’s idea, lightly furrowing her eyebrows together.] I appreciate it, but you’re just getting better I can’t drag you along with this, it’s my mistake, you have enough on your own to babysit me and an infant.

{She felt her heart stopping and her stomach falling to her feet when Amanda confirmed her suspicions. Holy mother of God. Phoebe was feeling frozen inside, but she quickly motioned to her friend. She was right, three were positive, the chances of them being false positives were slim.} It’s okay, you’re okay. {The brunette wrapped her in an embrace again, knowing it was the only thing she could do at the time being.} Listen, you will be fine. First I’ll schedule an appointment to have blood tests done on you, and if they’re positive, we’ll look for an obstetrician. {She tried to soothe her down, running her hand down her head. Even before Keely’s passing, Mandy had been Phoebe’s ride or die, and she was going to be the same for her.} I’ll be with you every single step of the way, okay? I won’t leave you alone. You won’t go through this alone.

[Phoebe’s sweet voice could always manage to easy her nerves, no matter what it was about. But for the first time, the brunette’s voice didn’t have the expect effect. She was in shock and mostly worried, the situation was hard enough and Phoebe didn’t even knew the whole truth yet. Her friend’s warm hug shook her out of her thoughts and she sighed to heavily.] I don’t even know what I’ll do. My mom will kill me and I can’t tell Matt about this, Phoebe I can’t have a baby, I just can’t do it. [Amanda attempted her voice to sound at least a little bit less scared that it turned out to be, but acting up tough in front of Phoebe was the least of her concerns at the moment.]

Three minutes. We can make it. {She gave her a kind smile and opened her arms to hug her, running her hand through the girl’s hair. She knew that things would be extremely complicated for her, especially with her mother, and she was clueless as to how Matthew would react to a pregnancy, but the only thing she knew for sure was that she would stick by Mandy at all times.} Listen, no matter what happens, I’m gonna be here for you and together we will figure this out somehow. You will be fine. {Phoebe kissed the top of her head and the three longest minutes of their lives went by. It was time.} Do you want me to check, or do you wanna do it yourself?

I guess. [The girl couldn’t bring herself to pay attention to the words her friend was saying, there was way too much in her mind and just the thought of having to tell her mom if she was pregnant was enough to drive her crazy. There probably couldn’t had been a worse time for her to have a pregnancy scare but of course it was happening now. she glanced up at Phoebe and furrowed her eyebrows.] I just don’t know what I would even do, Pheebs. [She kept chewing on her bottom lip as they waited for the minutes to go by, and all Amanda could think about was telling Phoebe the truth and how there was a chance Matt wasn’t even really involved. The sound of the brunette’s voice brought her out of her thoughts.] I’ll do it, don’t worry. [She took a deep breath and walked back to the bathroom, glancing at the sticks; Amanda could feel the air leaving her lungs when she saw the answer to a few of them. at least three said positive and that was all she needed to believe it. Amanda walked out to face Phoebe, a shocked expression clear on her face.] I am pregnant.

{Phoebe’s knees turned to jelly when she saw Mandy in such a terrible state, she looked tired, sad, and most of all, terrified. The girl threw the brown bag on the bed before sitting next to her friend and pulling her in for a hug, stroking her hair and rocking her back and forth in a poor attempt to comfort her.} Shh, we don’t know anything for sure. If you are pregnant, there are options for you. Just, don’t abort. That’s wrong and dangerous for you. Let’s not jump into conclusions yet, alright? You need to pee first. Here, I brought you a lot of different sticks to pee in. {She kissed her forehead and pulled her up, reaching for the bag and walking her to the bathroom, locking the door that faced to whoever’s room was next to Mandy’s and started to open boxes and bags of tests.} Dry your tears, you need that liquid elsewhere. Everything is going to be fine, you’re not alone and this isn’t the end of the world. Thousands of women have gone through the same and everything has worked out for them, you’re going to be just fine. {She kept rambling reassuring words to her and handed the first stick} Okay, you only have to wet it completely but don’t soak it. There’s six more to go.

[Amanda’s arms instantly wrapped around Phoebe’s frame, keeping her close as she clenched her teeth to hold back a sob. It had been hell without Phoebe and out of all the people in the world, she was the only she could trust with a situation like that. She looked up at the brunette as she shook her head.] I just.. my mom would go insane. I would go insane, Phoebe I can’t. I don’t think I could.. [She took a glance at the bag before Phoebe began to take the boxes, and she thanked for a friend like her. By now she was sure she couldn’t have gone through it alone, not even the part of buying all those tests. She gave her head a nod and took the first stick in her hands and that's when she noticed how jumpy and shaky she was. A heavy sigh leaving her lips just as her friend left the bathroom and she glanced down at the amount of packaging in the bathroom, cussing herself for getting in such situation.But there was no going back, and she had to know once and for all what the fuck was going on and so she took the tests, getting more and more nervous with each one of them. At first she considered waiting to see the results to tell Phoebe but she didn’t feel capable of being alone inside that bathroom so she opened the door, glancing down at her feet as she stood by the door.] I have to wait to know...

{The dirty look the sixty something woman at the drugstore gave her when she asked for every type of pregnancy test they had in stock passed completely ignored by Phoebe as she kept controlling herself from pacing around. She had been such a shit friend to Mandy lately – Too focused on her own problems to completely forget about her friends’. Her boyfriend had her involed in drugs (her memories had started to come back by bits and she remembered Rory telling her about Mandy being on drugs one night), Rory was still trying to get her back, and on top of that she knew of all the luggage Mandy carried on her own. And now this. A baby ways always a blessing and all that, but she knew Mandy wasn’t ready to be a mother. She barely knew the boyfriend, but considering… Plus, her system was polluted with God knew how many drugs and it wasn’t a safe place for a baby. The woman finally decided to hurry up and after she paid for the seven tests, Phoebe drove to the speed of light back home and rushed upstairs, not even knocking on Mandy’s door.} I’m here, did you drink water?

[no matter how stressed or troubled she was at the moment, her period would never be a day late which is why she freaked out as soon she noticed there was certain delay. But then again, maybe she had been doing a little too many drugs since Phoebe's accident so she thought that maybe if she cut them off her body would go back to normal, the problem is; it didn't. She had avoided Matt and made up excuses when they were together to stay as clean as possible, of corse the Xanax had stayed. But everything else had been nearly gone for several days and there was still no change at all other than continuous pains. So she had the take the guess, for much as she would like to deny it. It was very likely and worse, she had been with Rory not too long ago so she couldn't tell Matt until she was sure and she absolutely couldn't tell her mother or she would go get her and drag her home right away so she could only trust Phoebe about it. Even thought after the exchange of texts she had come to accept she would need to tell her friend everything and for the first time since she began to suspect; she would have to admit there was a change she was expecting a child. She heard the front door bang close and she guessed Phoebe had arrived which reminded her to take yet another long sip of the bottle of water she was holding. The girl nodded at the sight of her friend as she stood up, rubbing her eyes with the back of her hand realizing she probably looked like a mess from all the crying earlier but Phoebe wouldn't judge her, not until she heard it all.] Pheebs.. What the hell am I gonna do if it's true?