the thrum of your power resonates off you like the vibrations of a bell, a constant ringing out into the lake of lost souls. each step, each thrash of your hand, each angry cry for help, only pushes your power from within you outward.
you’re standing in a make shift wine bath, hip deep in wine red water, a madness unfurling from your chest like a hungry beast. you are ready to devour answers, ready to consume anything and everything.
then, there’s a slight pain in the back of your head. your vision goes dark, it’s pitch black, different than the night sky. then, two bright lights twinkle, flicker, like eyes blinking. “no, no, no.” a voice rings in your mind and it feels as if something is going to strangle you.
“ show me where you are!” your voice bellows with power you didn’t know you had, echoes off the mist covered lake into the morning light that can barely penetrate through the thick white wisps.
you hear a faint hiss as pain shoots through your entire body, from the finger the ring is on to your chest. “i’ll play nice for now.” that same voice speaks before your vision returns to you.
this time, it’s different. you see the same leopard from before, large, too large, with purple wisps that flow from it. it stares right at you, red stained fangs dripping with what looks like blood—maybe wine—and its head lilts to the side as if seeing you for the first time.
another voice begins to fill your mind, it’s discordant, a thousand voices at once, a booming base that blares out your eardrums as if you’re standing next to a speaker.
there’s a swift thump, thump, thump that slowly crawls throughout your body, crawls under your skin like your bloodstream is a rushing river.
as you listen to the words, it hurts, it takes every fiber of your being to not double over into the lake. your fists clench, fingernails digging crescent moons into the meat of your palm.
“dad, please. give me a sign.”
you wait, desperation seeping into everything you have. there’s flashes of something—beaches, parties, dancing bodies writhing against each other, bottles of alcohol spraying over half naked bodies—and then that voice begins to make sense, though it still sounds disconnected, broken; pained.
“come to paradise. dance along the shores.”
your shoved back into yourself, almost falling back into the wine stained waters of the lake. your heart is racing, in time with that thumping that filled your entire being.
for the first time in a while, you feel heared.