The Wolfpack

  Fun stuff when you look back at your last post and realize “Holy Shit!” it’s been awhile. Last we posted it was about how Toni changed her name to Alice. Well that’s even changed, but I’ll get to that in a few.

There was a lot that went down over the past year. There were fires we had to be ready to evacuate from, there was our amazing Disney Land trip, and Shortly after our last post J died…

WTF is happening…

Since it hasn’t been mentioned yet on here, there’s a virus that’s been spreading called the Corona Virus or Covid-19. It’s spread so much that it’s global and has become a pandemic. You know, you see horror films and suspenseful thrillers about such things, (luckily there’s been no sign of zombies)  and I’m realizing living in the reality of what a pandemic looks like is way scarier than the…

From Toni to Alice

I have decided to change my name to Alice. Something that has bothered me since finding out about our diagnosis is that since I hold the name we were given at birth. It makes me a novelty. I had forgotten what all was attached to this name until conversations with our sister started.

The name “Toni” is a concept of someone who is singular. It’s the familiar belief that somewhere in us is “THE…

DID Awareness Day happenings

First off, not sure how long it’s been since we’ve done a post, long enough I would imagine. There have been a lot of really cool things happening within the DID community in terms of spreading awareness. March 5th was DID awareness day and for it we decided to really open the door to our sister in truly seeing how it’s not just a “hey i have DID” and then we walk away and never mention it again,…

There’s only been a handful of times I’ve woken up crying. Where the tears and pain in your dream are so deep and real that it bleeds into the atmosphere.

Today I woke up in tears and I continued to cry inside and outside. Living within the dream but knowing I wasn’t really there. Knowing that if I chose to shift my consciousness to the physical existence I’d lose my connection to the dream.

My…

Political Rant about Gun Control by Daemon

“During 2015-16, 27,394 people were killed by someone with a gun in the United States, and 44,955 used a gun to kill themselves” -CNN article “Gun deaths increasing after years of decline, study finds”

Check out this site( https://www.gunviolencearchive.org/ ) for this years complete overview SO FAR about what guns have done in the states. With the latest mass shooting, it being only 12 days from…

That moment when…

When your co worker lists all his mental health diagnosis’ and says he has MPD/DID because he’s depressed one moment then really happy another…moods are not personalities…there’s a difference. DID involves alters who all can be depressed or happy or anxious etc. Each are individual in the same way 10 different people can be standing in line at a bank. They all have their own thing going on, own…

One of my latest pieces, always trying to expand my mixed media's.

It seems there has been no time to sit and write a post since we’ve been back. Much of the past weeks have just been getting our life back on track and readjusted to all the responsibilities. There was a lot that took place during our visit. More good than bad, which was a nice surprise. We drove a total of probably 1600 miles, an exhausting trek, but still cheaper than flying. Usually these…

So ya were two days away from our trip. It’s been one SUPER LOONG week. Juggling work and getting all the preparation done packing, snacks, playlists for the road, not forgetting to pack underwear…god so much to worry about and think of. AND we are about to see family which just stirs up all sorts of anxiety, and there is a lot of grief stuff about our dad coming up. We’re having to see our step…

Our posts have been infrequent the past week or so. I’ve been working on a project, going to write a crime novel. First actual attempt to write a real researched and thought out thing. It’s fun.

We’ve also just been planning out our trip, it’s coming up faster and faster each day. Haven’t really had a chance to contribute to the blog in any beneficial way. This is perhaps another thing to discuss…

Daemon’s Featured Topic: DID and Family

These are two topics that will always be tied together, for better or for worse. I felt these were appropriate to discuss at this point in time since my system and I will be visiting our family in the beginning of June.

Most systems that I am aware of don’t have the best of families to put it lightly, let alone have families that are aware and accepting of their DID. We have tried telling a few…

This is my Jam! with Trin #7 Taylor Swift “ready for it?”

Hey everybody! It’s me again, here to bring you another great jam. Taylor Swifts “ready for it”. ARE YOU READY FOR IT? Of course you are 🙂

Taylor Swift is one of those amazing musicians who is an actual musician. Being from the 90’s I think the way I gauge “actual musicians” is if they can sound just as great as they do on the radio when singing live and without studio help. I have never been to…