Story of My Life

How I Feel

Check out this Chill Out playlist I found from Coffee Project on Spotify. It’s such a chill & dope vibe. 

How I Feel

‪but fuck u it wasn’t a fucking joke. I can like whoever I want to like and you can’t tell me otherwise. You covered your daughter’s ears?? I mean really?? Did I say something bad or inappropriate? You act like said something like “I murdered someone last night.” Are you scared that I might influence your daughter? Don’t worry it doesn’t work that way. Being straight or being a part of the LGBT is not something that can be taught to someone. All of us, we don’t get to choose who we like, we just feel it. It’s who we are. No matter what gay things life throws your way, if you’re straight that’s not gonna change. But I just really wanted to say you hurt my fucking feelings. JUST LET ME BE FUCKING HAPPY. JUST LET ME BE ME. ‬

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I want to love with everything that I have. It may not be much but I’m willing to give it all to you, because I know that you deserve the kind of love that would make you feel safe.You deserve the kind of love that would make you realize that there is nothing wrong with you. I hate what your ex-boyfriends did to you. I hate that they cheated on you. I hate that you can’t see that if you just give me the chance to take care of you and to love you, I would never do anything that would make you question if you’re good enough. 

Today was my first day of classes as a 3rd year college student. It was a boring day (introducing yourself, discussing the syllabus, that kind of shit) and when it was time for my last class, I was pretty tired and I just wanted the day to end. I finally get to my class 10 mins early, so there I was sitting and scrolling through my phone (i had my back on the door) THEN she walked in, and I didn’t turn around at first but then she sat beside me and she was looking at me. I couldn’t figure who she was because I was still on my phone scrolling, trying to act cool and shit. When she was about to sit down, (she took her eyes off me) I looked at her. Suddenly my eyes widened, my heart was racing, I wanted to smile but I couldn’t because she might see and she’d think I’m an idiot. It’s HER!! It’s the girl I’ve been crushing on ever since we became classmates last last last term! Let me explain something to you guys, I’m the kind of person who talks to everyone and tries to be friends with the entire class but when it comes to the person I like, I can’t make out a single word. (There was this one time we walked pass each other in the hallway and she smiled at me and I did the most awkward wave and smile of all time.) So the class ended and I was on my way home, and I was replaying what happened in my head. She looked at me like 15 times, I know because I was also looking at her when she did but I didn’t even say hi. There’s this song I love, “Gotta have you” by the Weepies. I was listening to it while driving and it hit me, I finally found someone! “No amount of coffee, no amount of crying, no amount whiskey, no amount wine, nothing else will do, I gotta have you.” I’m going to face my fear and I’m gonna do everything I can to make her mine. For a while now, I’ve been looking for someone who will make me feel that way. That “I gotta have you” feeling. I’m not sure if I’ll succeed, I’m not even 10% sure she likes me but hey, if this turns out to be a great love then in the future I can say, “I knew it from the first time I saw you.”

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How I Feel

No matter how much I hated what you did to me, I would never change a thing because you taught me a very important lesson. I’m not that kid who’s an idiot for love anymore, and I like it. Some people would call me “asshole”, “heartless”, “freak with trust issues”, but I like to see myself as someone who is strong and wise enough to not trust the wrong people. So, thank you. 

How I Feel

Angelica, Win a Date with Tad Hamilton

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