Hotel'sOnFire

Stuck inside my head

feelin so cold

I feel like I’m lost here

All out on my own

I can’t sleep here

The time is too slow

I can’t think here

there’s nothing to know

Can you help me

Get that in control

A rambling thought that comes too slow

It fills me up, won’t let me go

Go back to the darkest place I’ve known

A place I know that I can go, it’s only as bright as the lowest note

Not taking the clearest notes? You might want to open up your throats a bit

Can you flex your gut, you’re gonna want to get a little bit of your own blood in the cut

Can you turn on the lights, you’re gonna guide my way to the stage so I can put on a show tonight

Stuck inside…

(Stuck inside my head

feelin so cold

I feel like I’m lost here

All out on my own)

I feel alone…

(I can’t sleep here

The time is too slow

I can’t think here

there’s nothing to know)

Where are you?

(Stuck inside my head

feelin so cold

I feel like I’m lost here

All out on my own)

I’m not home…

(I can’t sleep here

The time is too slow

I can’t think here

there’s nothing to know)

Can you bring this up to the light?

Can you find the end of the night?

Locked inside a box of blue I stare into the air in front of a mirror

Every time I glimpse, it all goes clear

I wonder if my purpose will ever truly be

And so I peer through the walls and lock away the brittle pieces of me to fade away

I try to sever limbs that have grown diseased, but I can’t truly remove a part of me

Staring at yourself in the eye as you betray your trust and enjoy the lie

You cannot hate these things inside yourself, you’d better enjoy the ride

Try to change when the chance presents itself

It’ll be there when you really need the chance to transform the self

It’ll be there when you really need it

Walk to the light at the back, and

Listen to the water, to the song, glowing runes in the walls tell a story of a time when a new life lives, when a different man is in a world that doesn’t exist and it’s odd

A game where you put up your blood and slave away, it’s strange, but I’ll play it to pass the time

What a time we’ve had, now can you tell me what’s the vision? We can

Sacrifice the pawn to play the game and

Don’t lose track of the things you keep

There’s no way around reason, reasonably seasoned to believe it’s okay to come down

After all, through the walls, it’s the season to drown

And though we’ll be there when you fall,

For a while, there’s nothing left to catch you

Stuck inside

I feel alone

Where are you

When you’re not home?

Do you hide?

Where do you go?

I cannot find you

This place is yours alone

Can you bring this up to the light?

Can you find the end of the night?

Now there’s nowhere left for me to run or hide, despite all the shadows I’ve found in my mind,

A lie within the light has bound me and so I’ve hidden behind the sun

The evidence of my disease has ruptured my ability to find pleasure in the niche,

Pull me out of the cracks in the floors and reignite my sense of individuality

A roach a termite no longer, I remember the joy, the joie de vivre, the joy of life and light that engulfs and envelopes me

My heads better without that anyway. This way out of the void is so much better than any thing else I could have chosen to enjoy.

Expirate, reintegrate, assimilate, assassinate and deconstruct my self.

And in the end of the tale, I inhale a fire of darkest black

I wake a night within myself that pulls out of my grasp

It takes me to the light trapped in saturn’s hands, between fingers clasped

A mountain within a world

Slip between the atoms and find a word between words

A sentence in sentient silence

Can you bring me sentiments? Remnants of a language too old to remember

A sound too soaked to speak

A madness too cloaked to reach

A light too light to breach

Can you put it back in each hand

A time too far away to find the faces they favored they chose and they left behind

The mask of a man that opened your eyes then stripped you down to your hide

Robbed of your innocence, your sense, a calm complacency for this displacement to rest

Your chest open, can you inhale a breath to put your heart at rest

Or is this the end:

A final moment to goad your gods and horde your hogs and beat down your sense, to make peace with your place and find a space within your space a place to put your weary head to rest?

Oh, how the mighty have fallen!

You thought you’d get by me

But there’s no escape from this entity

How the grace has left your side

And the light has left your eyes

There’s no breath for you left to utter your lies

Far, the mighty have fallen!

A moment of escape

An inch to excavate

A grave that you have dug within your own hate

You claw for your demise

You beg and now you cry

There’s nothing left within this husk

It’s time to close your eyes

And die

You wanted to

Lie

You brought this to my

Side

And now I will take you from the things you run from

Hide

Why don’t you close your eyes

It’s what you wanted

I don’t see why youve tried

so hard

It’s time to

Die

Oh, how the mighty have fallen

You wanted to be strong

You held it in so long

That when you finally faced yourself you couldn’t stand being wrong

You thought that it was weak

Your feelings had you seek

An exit from this world and now you are gone

You wanted to be strong

You held it in too long

You fucked up, bad enough

And now you’re dead and gone

Oh, how the mighty have fallen!

Oh how the mighty have fallen

You thought you’d get by me

But there’s no escape from reality

How the grace has left your side

And the light has left your eyes

There’s no breath for you left to utter your lies

Step down from the throne made of lies

There’s nothing but malice behind your eyes

Lusting for a darkness, ancient

- red glows, there’s a little bit of hatred

Twisted in your tainted views

There’s nothing but your shadow to get you

No peace, no soul to soothe

You’re angry, but you’ve got nothing to lose

You’re hollowed, there’s nothing inside

A vessel of pain and lies

You want to stay detached

I hope you’re ready to

Embrace me

If you’re not ready then erase me

You will never get to taste me

You haven’t grown, you’re just complacent

So if you’re ready You can

Step back from the views you’ve clung to

Let go of the pain that binds you

Shadows call and darkness twisting

Release the toxic vision

Breathe deep and embrace reality

See the things that are not changed easily

Take control of the ties that bind you

The ones that were tied there by you

Devoid, there’s nothing inside

A vessel of shameless pride

You want to be detached

I hope that you are ready

You’re hollow, there’s nothing inside

A vessel of pain and lies

You want to stay detached

I hope you’re ready to

Embrace me

If you’re not ready then erase me

You will never get to taste me

You haven’t grown, you’re just complacent

So if you’re ready then

Embrace me

If you’re not ready then erase me

You will never get to taste me

You haven’t grown, you’re just complacent

So if you’re ready then Jump

Go!

If you’re not ready, then jump

You haven’t grown, you’re just complacent

If you are ready, then get up

(11-26-24)

We drew the lines We chose our sides And in-between's the whiskey river With a haze in my eyes There's a glimmer that shines Come join me in the whiskey river

And we're going down the whiskey river Careful you don't drown in the whiskey river Through the ice in the glass There's a glimmer that lasts That familiar amber, The whiskey river

South of the border Far from the fame In a dark place to share a drink with the ghosts who call my name Running from the law Can't catch my breath Scrying through the looking glass, Gambling with Death

And we're going down the whiskey river Careful you don't drown in the whiskey river Through the ice in the glass There's a glimmer that lasts That familiar amber, the whiskey river

The air gets heavy As the bottle drains Each shot a memory Cutting through my veins And through the haze A reflection stares A face I don't know, But the pain is still there

I am the venomous one

Here I am, the prodigal son A knife in the back, never on the run I don't look over my shoulder, I'm number one Without malice, the snakes have all sung My praises, the God with the name is The master who called my coming Careful of the bite and beware of the sting

As it grows, there's a force incoming Venomous, and a poison is coming But there's never been a better time to be alive The king is coming, and a pale horse he rides

Shallow graves and shovels slung Over shoulders, they march as they hum Agonizing over gospel spun I am the venomous one

The day is coming, the crown comes near and the end is the beginning, my dear Everything comes to an end And round they go as the cards call death

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Shallows graves and shovels slung Over shoulders, they march as they sing Agonizing over gospel spun I am the venomous one

Open maw and the devil grins Into your eyes as you gaze upon death Demons marching, they call and sing A final melody to witness your ending

(10-13-24)

[a couple fighting] [a bottle smashes] [a door slams] [a car screeches]

I always knew that there was little sense in fighting I always knew that all my impulses would have me hiding My face, burning from shame, a chill that I can't shake, never My intuition's telling me that I should just let it go;

Whatever...

Is this the thing that I was supposed to look forward to? Being stuck here, dependent on you, I could never Grow up, don't be so depressed But everything is bullshit, I refuse to live the life of a fuckin' mess

And it's all going down the drain Everything that could have been something else, burn it down on replay And it's all going down the drain I'm starting to wonder what's the point of having a 401K?

I always knew that there was little sense in fighting I always knew that all my impulses would've me hiding My face burning from shame, a chill that I can't shake, ever My intuition's saying that I should just let it be whatever

My intuition's telling me to let it go, but I could never

Anxiety pulling at my teeth Can't help that my life feels like a dream I can make the walls turn and lock the key and everything left is just a dream

And now I'm pulling out my teeth I can't help it, you want to watch me scream The walls are melting, the ceiling bleeds Because I've lost it and now I'm stuck

The life is we live is but a dream

And it's all going down the drain Everything that could have been something else, burn it down on replay Grow up, don't be so depressed But everything is bullshit, I refuse to live the life of a fucking mess

I used to think that there was little sense in fighting I used to think that all my impulse would have hiding My face, burning from shame, a chill that I can't shake, ever My intuition told me to just let it be

Be the Chaos we seek to sow Release everything that you know Burn the world down and let it show that We are nature; just let it go

My language is violence and you will not survive it My blades are spoken words and those who hear concur And hatred, the issue, will not be settled with you The words I speak will scar I am the only answer

Pain is an illusion Death is a vibration Existence is diffusive Truth is the solution

(08-29-24)

A thundercloud on the horizon A new day hidden by darkness The lightning strikes over and over The rolling sheets of rain are pelting

As ashes fall and lava flows The smoke drifts, the lava slows And in the steam, the light leaks through A subterranean sky turns blue

Take aim at the sun and then you'll see light break Through the sky and you'll find the storm's eye

A thundercloud on the horizon A new day hidden by darkness The lightning strikes over and over The rolling sheets of rain are pelting

A single eye turned toward the sun A finger twitches as life's begun The chest falls and rises again An effort lost, I stand above it

Take aim at the sky and then you'll see light Break through the clouds and find your Self higher than ever

Here we are, alone, Until we choose to be bigger than the storms we run from Take a look at yourself Turn around and run INTO THE STORM

Take aim at the sky and then you'll see light Break through the clouds and find your self higher than ever

A thundercloud on the horizon A new day hidden by darkness The lightning strikes over and over The rolling sheets of rain are pelting

I want to slip away I'm feeling

Pain It always seems to go this way I can't help but to fade away Into the void again today It always comes back to this

Hey... Do you want to slip away? Is there a reason for us to stay? Like do you have to change the locks? Or is it cool if we get lost?

Head low, a trench coat, the pouring rain Stand still, till sunrise, then waste away Can you see the light as it fades away Or is it the end, should I go away? And now the darkness, it knows my name, Set free by poison to hide the pain Catch me, I'm falling, down here I'll stay Can't breathe, the nightmares are bringing

Pain It always seems to go this way I can't help but to fade away Into the void again today It always comes back to this

Feeling lifeless on the floor I broke free, then fall again, I'll fall some more The end is coming, I see the door Light bright, it opens, and nevermore Inky feathers clinging to my throat Choke me of last breath, my final note An apple that falls free of my last grip Too much, it's too late, I've lost my grip There's nothing left for me to do Eyes closed, my chest falls, my lips are blue You might think I've lost it, I've gone insane But this sanity drains me, leaves me in

Pain It always seems to go this way I can't help but to fade away Into the void again today It always comes back to this

You cannot hide what you cannot find in the dark

Chosen A secret trove And when you were found, I kept you close Broken I held you close You were a danger, and yet it was unknown

There wasn't a soul that new The danger that you presented to my world There isn't a single thing that I would breathe I knew that they would take you from me

A glistening edge A single piece of you would take the world from me I wouldn't breathe I couldn't speak I'd hold you skin close in my sleep Unbound and unbeloved Kept close in the dark Zombie Blood

A whisper of power and mystery To bring about the end of everything A catalyst of words betrayed The hidden nature of the every day A wounded vessel, a secret trove Of resurrecting power, indisposed A shattered treasure, a hidden soul To be extracted from the broken mould

A glistening edge A single piece of you would take the world from me I wouldn't breathe I couldn't speak I'd hold you skin close in my sleep Unbound and unbeloved Kept close in the dark Zombie Blood

Bleeding the zombie is the way To free the magic of the blade Release the demons, break the past All unfolding from a single piece of glass

Bleeding the zombie is the way To free the magic of the blade Release the demons, break the past All unfolding from a single piece of glass

To share a shadow of a thought within To bless the knife To cut out sin A long lost sibling with no sense of guilt To doubt the self Embedded in filth

Twenty thousand leagues under the sea Blue embrace to chase the dreams An afterthought of sun rays The remedy to a pervasive haze

Count to ten, breathe out and breathe in Show me the way to abandon the sin The flesh is pressing, the bone gives way Purified lead glows bright as dat

The ancient mysteries unearth in us Can you betray the clouds of dust? Is there a reason to the myth? Have you surpassed the rest of us?

Twenty thousand leagues under the sea Blue embrace to chase the dreams An after thought of sun rays The remedy to a pervasive haze

Leave behind the light above Becoming one with the idea of unclean love Chasing dragons without rest Misplacing consciousness and losing breath

Will you please note that the path is not lost Can you betray the gods of rust? Is there a reason to the myth? Have you surpassed the rest of us?

Welcome to the Afterlife Watch the way we fall through the process Dignify the significance of the shadows with a nod Falling asleep as the world rots

Triggered by the catalyst of an empty mind Torn apart by words that mean nothing Bound for eternity (Gotta catch em all, gotta catch em all) Dismissed by a generation lost in the shuffle

Twenty thousand leagues under the sea Blue embrace to chase the dreams An after thought of sun rays The remedy to a pervasive haze

Leave behind the heat above Becoming one with the idea of unclean love Chasing dragons without rest Misplacing consciousness and losing breath

(12/3/23)

In the wake of the zombie apocalypse Not alive, not dead, you're just a curse on my lips Blood stained, dead rain, you can burn me like the midnight oil A candle, a vigil, you can call me with a sigil

What am I? A whisper in a scream? What am I? A nightmare in a daydream

This is it and it's forever It's all in flames I can tell you when it's over Hold your hand 'til you can breath again I can show you every planet I can take you to the stars But if this is gonna last long You should know that I'm insane

This is life, this is endless If there's a line, we'll go too far If you can bear to take the comedown Then we can take your car It's an endless world of wonders So much that you could go insane But I'm happy to take you with me It's that kind of day.

In the wake of a global shutdown Locked down, locked out, and I'm losing it I never figured out how to live in this world I want your breath, I want your smell, I want all of it. But we gotta do the digital, live like we're invisible, rip out my heart, Come eat it raw, kali ma, that's all And I'm sure that I can still feel it

What am I? Venomous, in the teeth What am I? A villain on the winning team

This is it and it's forever It's all in flames I can tell you when it's over Hold your hand 'til you can breathe again I can show you every planet I can take you to the stars But if this is gonna last long You should know that I'm insane

This is life, this is endless If there's line, we'll go too far If you can bear to take the comedown Then we can take your car It's an endless world of wonders So much that you could go insane But I'm happy to take you with me It's that kind of day

Teeth gleam white in the dark A demons eyes, bright as lies, look into your heart Teeth gleam white in the dark A demons eyes, bright as lies, look into your heart

This is it and it's forever It's all in flames I can tell you when it's over Hold your hand til you can breathe again I can show you every planet I can take you to the stars But if this is gonna last long You should know that I'm insane

I am Fall That's my name You can call me, my friend And here you'll refer to me as the one who predicted the ending of everyting Automated, industrious, I come from the land of the US of A The sun don't shine down like it used to, It either glares, or it covers it's head Dim grey light and evergreen, all I see before me Never thought that I would remain in a land that lives twenty years behind me

It's okay It's gonna be okay All the darkness, dive into it Accept it and make a part of you

Don't let the dark lead the way Take it in, embrace its but never sway Your light will find a way The light will find the way

Through darkness comes light That's what they say, right? It doesn't feel right Lay awake through the darkest night And the dawn will come, never mind how little light We're here; it's a part of us It'll always be a part of us Here, me? It's a part of us The burning passion is a part of us

Don't let the dark lead the way Take it in, embrace it, but never sway Your light will find a way, my love, I said The light will find the way

The light will find a way

Don't let the dark lead the way Through darkness comes light Fall for a while, it'll be alright

(7-19-23) Stare into a blue screen Anything for dopamine Send a like Share a meme Hitting send Text in green

Flesh colored happy Find a hole, fuck your fist Pump until you fucking die Give me all the things that send me into a frenzy

There's no point in trying to resist I know what you like and I know what you can't miss No limits, trigger happy I will give you all the things that will put you in a frenzy Losing it, holy shit This is it, This is it Go!

Far, the mighty have fallen Take heed from the stories they tell A birth of spiraling, inhale the scream Existing within the blindness of suffering

And how the faithful have trembled In spite of all they have seen A mindless altering of sense of sight and seen That which they cover is unearthed and how

Far, the mighty have fallen Witness the suffering Complete the resonance Annihilate the rest

(1-27-23)

He was the best damn thing that could have happened to her He took it all in stride, it didn't matter what hurt He'd push through all the fuss and bring up the light She wished she could have loved him, but she couldn't love him right

He was the best damn thing that ever happened to her She pushed him far away, because she couldn't heal the hurt He stayed when he shouldn't and she took him for granted But the thing she didn't count on was him having a back up

He found a way to be And be far away And yet she couldn't leave him be She wanted him to hurt

(1-11-23)

It's squeezing me, it's crushing my soul It takes my breath, it leaves me so cold

I'm famished, I'm laying here in my bed, if you think like me then you're dead And we all know that it's a lonely road, I walk in your stead I'm famished, and if you don't know what that means, I walk a lonely path upon a burning hot road Means I replace you and I do it instead

I'm so cold and all alone Skin will tighten, stiffen, risen We all feel so alone So cold and on my own I rob myself for you because I can't do this alone I'm so cold