#hotelsonfire

You crossed my mind again today.

A thought caught in the wind but you sank from view like a rock in the ocean

After all that was said and all that was done

I was only another person in the wrong

You’re right. That’s what I tell myself

Yeah you’re right. And I have brought this on myself

I had a vision of you

You’d dug a hole deeper than any I have ever seen before

And when I tried to help

You took the weight and dragged us both to hell

So I’m here just trying to figure out

Myself, recovering from the car crash of your existence and you’d like

If I couldn’t find my way out and I needed your help

The rotting corpse of your relation to everyone  The smell sickens the bittersweet within  What brought you to this point?  Can you relate for me whatever happened to you? Can you remember all the things that you lost?  Do you care about the cost, or do you just want to be high?

I have tried, a thousand times, To bring you back to reality I won't lie, it's killing me, So I've turned my back on you You're nothing but a weight to hold me down!

The indiscretions that you thought went unnoticed We’ve seen everything you’ve done. Can you remember who you were Do you even know what you are anymore? I've been grinding on this lonesome road for so long

You always treat me like shit Why can’t you shut your mouth long enough to see Why can’t you relax and enjoy the ride If the pain’s too much, we can try to hide

You’ve run away from everything that’s failed you You never even gave a chance to catch a goodbye You act as if you’re never wrong My god, you’re so wrong

I can’t see the end of the tunnel Why does death feel warm to cuddle Why do you leave me feeling so empty Why do you leave me shivering

You always treated me like shit Shut your mouth long enough to see Why can’t you relax and enjoy the ride If the pain’s too much, we can try to hide

Or you can run away, it’s okay, I’ll take the blame You can try to believe I’m wrong, But there’s a reason I wrote this song Ignore the melody, it’s all a lie If lyrics could kill, I wish your ego goodbye

I can’t see the end of the tunnel Why does death feel warm to cuddle Why do you leave me so empty Why do you leave me chilled to the bone

It’s so cold I’m so alone It’s too dark You’re so cold

Brought to birth by a light so blinding Years down the road, you have been left behind And I know it seems like you've been forgotten The only problem is you're not wrong 

Stand up if you feel overlooked Hands up if you've been overbooked Stand up if youve been overworked And I want you all to say 

Pain, pain, go away I sold my soul to live today But money's not worth the root of all evil The greed that we feed will devour us whole 

Grinding away, and you've been cast astray Left to the side by the grey And today, I know there's a sale If you sell two souls, you'll go twice to hell 

Buy into the greed and the misery Buy because we know you're not happy Buy! You'll get a shiny new car Bye! You won't get real far

And let me hear you say Pain, pain, go away I sold my soul to live today But money's not worth the root of all evil The greed that we feed will devour us whole 

 And when all is said done You get off the ride, tell me did you have fun? You've been working on and on for naught, your money is gone 

So what did you learn from this? And how did we come this far? I can't seem to find another direction, led astray, I was lost in the dark 

Pain, pain, go away I sold my soul to live today 

Pain, pain, go away I sold my soul to live today But money's not worth the root of all evil The greed that we feed will devour us whole 

Explain yourself What wishes brought you here? What path of best intentions bare, Aligned your mind with fear?

Gracefully and gratefully, Far stars shine on the sea Blissfully and wistfully It shines on part of me

I found a path along a forest road I walked so far, I couldn’t find my home And lost to me, but not lost to the sea Drowning in your head is not the way to go

Don’t Go Alone

Define your thoughts Define your mind Just be the you You try to hide inside

A raven’s rapid thoughts keep racing A mouse’s heartbeats break its ears Built on trust and yet broken inside You might feel fear, but just enjoy the ride

I found a path along a forest home I walked so far, I couldn’t find the road And lost beneath, but not lost to me A sea of hope sprinkled with gold

Don’t Go Alone

Define your thoughts Define your mind Just be the you You try to hide inside

You’ve been alone For far too long You keep the distance It feels so strong I’ve been alone now All thanks to you You’re not my enemy Enjoy the view

I found a path along a forest road I walked so far, I couldn’t find my home And lost to me, but not lost to the sea Drowning in your head is not the way to go

Define your thoughts Define your mind Just be the you You try to hide inside 

Don’t know what to do Don’t know what to do With all of these thoughts That are running through my head

I don’t know what to do Don’t know what to do I can’t even sleep I don’t remember my dreams

Chest tight I’m alright I say without a single ounce of truth in my words

It’s fine I find The best way to recover is to just be you

Don’t know what to do What would you do if you could see every outcome? Would you pull the trigger?

It’s all that I can think All that I can do is to just step back, it’s almost over

I lied! The end is so far I tried Or did I not, I can’t seem to perform

At the end of the day We all betray the voice inside our head But we can obey, and with it we save The ghost of the child inside

I figured out what to do What to do with all these thoughts That are running through my head

(1-27-23)

He was the best damn thing that could have happened to her He took it all in stride, it didn't matter what hurt He'd push through all the fuss and bring up the light She wished she could have loved him, but she couldn't love him right

He was the best damn thing that ever happened to her She pushed him far away, because she couldn't heal the hurt He stayed when he shouldn't and she took him for granted But the thing she didn't count on was him having a back up

He found a way to be And be far away And yet she couldn't leave him be She wanted him to hurt

(1-11-23)

It's squeezing me, it's crushing my soul It takes my breath, it leaves me so cold

I'm famished, I'm laying here in my bed, if you think like me then you're dead And we all know that it's a lonely road, I walk in your stead I'm famished, and if you don't know what that means, I walk a lonely path upon a burning hot road Means I replace you and I do it instead

I'm so cold and all alone Skin will tighten, stiffen, risen We all feel so alone So cold and on my own I rob myself for you because I can't do this alone I'm so cold