took a little bit to try and chill a little, and I have a bit more to add, I think.
#I fucking hate making these posts but goddamn am I desperate and hoping to get out of hereā¦#I have like 0$ and rent for the place weāre looking at is like $1300 a monthā¦#itās gonna be a while but the sooner I have something to put away the better.
aside from this! if yāall have questions, Iām more than happy to attempt to answer them.
Iām Seth, a currently-transitioning trans dude. I have anxiety and panic disorders, am autistic, and have a high likelihood of OCD and ADHD, though weāre still trying to get those confirmed by my doctor and therapist. I am physically disabled on top of it, and if I somehow managed to get hired on somewhere, I wouldnāt be capable of making it in to work or doing basically anything required of me anymore. Kyle is legally my husband currently, though we plan to file for divorce soon as we have funds to do so, and weāve been separated and not āa thingā for about ten years now. Being married to him is the only way I could get on the lease, honestly. Margaret is his mother, who lives with us.
Margaret does not want us to move. sheās done this sort of thing before when we got work, and has outright expressed that she doesnāt want to let us leave andĀ āabandonā her. her behavior has escalated over the last few years as Iāve gotten help doing things like getting to the doctor, filling paperwork out, and getting encouragement from friends of mine to take steps towards my transition. sheās taken and hidden things we need, stood in the middle of what weāre trying to work on and made continuing impossible until she moves, kept both Kyle and myself up during sleeping hours in an attempt to make us miss appointments or work, and basically been a loud and intrusive part of our household. she routinely mutters loudly enough to be heard over headphones and says things about how weāre going to kill her, weāre going to fail inspections and get kicked out, our cats are plotting against her, etc.
whenever we have tried talking to her (even calmly!) about when she does these things, she immediately jumps to defensive, claims weāre abusing her because we donāt listen intently and put up with it, cries, and then threatens suicide. itās pretty well unbearable nowadays, and while I hate to do it, I literally canāt stay here without my blood pressure skyrocketing. itās ridiculously frustrating and depressing, and I just want out of here.
the place Iāve been looking at to move to isĀ $1,390 - 1,575 a month for a two bedroom, plus a bit forĀ ācat rent.ā once I get disability going, Kyle and I should be able to afford it, but disability can take literal months to pull through. the sooner I get a little money to work with and save, the better, really. even just something off Amazon for stress relief would be enormous.
TL;DR: Margaret is going to kill us with stress and has actively been attempting to sabotage our livelihoods, and we want to get out or at least not pop from high blood pressure.
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