Hope is all we have

You've been going through my thoughts a lot lately. Missing you so much. Still can't shake this off.

When all you want to do is drink, scream, and cry.

Everything reminds me of you. Everything here in the hills reminds me of you. Even stopping by to Coldsun and knowing that it was one of your favorites. The last time I went here was with you and David. It makes me so sad that we can no longer have moments like that. I miss the sporadic adventures that we had. I miss you so much. I’m so sorry that I took you for granted. You were one of the bestest friends I have ever had.

You should have done your risk assessment. You and your sister are a lot more alike than I thought. You just have a better way of hiding it.

Fanfuckingtastic week. Registrations late. Smog check did not go as planned. Still have to move so much shit, and the worst of all she's gone.

This feels like some sick joke and I don't want to accept that you're gone. A flood of emotions and memories are taking over and I can't accept it. This past year we were not able to see each other as much and I feel horrible. I'm thankful I was able to see you and your brother last month, but that doesn't suffice. I should have made it out to your Harry Potter party but I didn't. I really wish I did. Now I am here listening to your "The Feels Vol. 1", and I can't get a hold of myself. All our adventures are popping into my mind and I can't accept that you're gone because that means that's and end to it all. I. Am so sorry I did not take more time out to see you this past year.

You are so fucking selfish. If you don't give a shit, I dont either. Fuck you. What a hard fucking g life you have.