Thoughts

the girl has now become a woman. she no longer craves the attention of boys, she demands the respect of men.

better story. first spaghetti dinner before our Saturday morning game. it was still kind of summery. at this kids house.  i had this condom in my wallet which i normally didn’t do but i was going to go over to my girlfriends house right after because they lived in the same neighborhood. im at the table where the food is being served. so i pull out my wallet out of my pocket (mind you there are like 15 parents there) the condom falls out on the floor. it was a msu colored and it was all fancy and shit. right by the bread and salads and stuff. i did not notice it fell out. this kid sees it and says “woah”. he was super excited to find it even though everyone had seen it but did not say anything. the whole team sees and start laughing and asks who’s it was. everyone points fingers at each other. but then they start asking me bc i had a girlfriend and i played it off like it wasn’t mine. we shouted at a sophomore asking it was his as he was going out the door and his parents were right there. we had a game at holt like a week later. i admitted to one of my teammates that it was mine and he admitted it a while later. that is the time i dropped a condom at a spaghetti dinner for soccer. 

in the target parking lot after we had boned in the parking lot. i had carried the condom all the way to the parking lot  bc i had carried it all the way from her house bc i wasn’t trying to drop it in her garbage yah know. then i dropped it in the parking lot. then people from my school saw me drop it. 

in the summer i was at my friends house in kalazamoo and it was her bday party. she had a nice house. there were eighth or ten of us and we are in the hot tub pool area. friends leave and its me and my friend and two girls. we were all really drunk and one thing lead to another and so we are in the pool and its kinda dark. we started making out. i got a 6/10  boner but i was really drunk so we made out for a while. schaller was trying to hookup with the other girl but it didn’t happen bc she was kinda a prude. so we separated and changed. we were in the main room of the basement. we made out again and then even though everyone else was asleep thats all we did. i passed out. 

the athlete texts the girl again, a few days and maybe up to a week after their second meeting. She jumps through hoops to get back to his place, and this time, having never realling doing much more than hugging before, they fuck. One would not dare use any other word. even banging would be too civil of a word. they straight up fucked. she leaves his apartment soon after. Post fuck, the girl feels helluva endorphin high coupled with slight pain. 

the girl gets a text saying “wyd” from the athlete she hung out with at her dorm a little bit back.  she bikes her ass over to his apartment after they exchange itineraries. the girl is unsettled  because she is not sure what she has gotten herself into now that things were moving to his place.  she plays with his boxer puppy and she microwaves some chili that his roommate had made. as they watch tv on his bed, he tells her not to spill. she does not make the first move, and neither does he. he hugs her and walks her out of the door. the girl is not sure what just happened, because nothing had for the second time in a row. 

Jimmy johns boy soon revealed that he was not interested in dating her. she was clearly not interested in dating him either, but he thought too highly of himself and did not believe her the numerous times she told him. he calls her and tells her he is done talking to her. a few days later he texts her asking if she still just wanted to hookup. yes she answers (foolishly). they hook up off and on, each time with a new lecture to follow. he accuses her of having STDs, makes her go purchase numerous Plan B pills claiming he would pay her back but never following through. she continues to try and keep the friends with benefits situation going, but each time it becomes harder to deny how crazy he was. he tells her that they’re friends but refuses to drive her somewhere claiming that was too “boyfriend- like”. 

the athlete texts the girl and they figure out a time when he can come over when her roommate is gone. he comes over, and she does not know what to expect. she has music playing. he walks around her room looking at the smallest of items. he asks questions about some things and just picks others up and puts them back down. they talk a little about various topics. she asks him questions that he sometimes answers. he says he has some homework to do, so not even an hour after he shows up, he hugs the girl and leaves. 

Last year for spring break me and my friends went to the Cayman Islands and we met these boy from Grand Rapids. One night we got really drunk and went down to the beach with these boys. I was walking down the beach with two of the boys named Grant and Pete. We started walking back towards there room cus we were gonna get food and then all of a sudden Grant disappeared and it was just me and Pete. Me and Pete started hooking up on the couch and then he's like "alright  we're gonna have sex" and I was like "no like I don't want to" and then I told him I was gonna leave and go back down to the beach. And then he grabbed and was like "no I wanna fuck. So we're gonna have sex" and I like tried to leave but he wouldn't let go of my hand but then grant walked in and asked if everything was okay and then I ran out.

on halloween eve the girl is sitting doing her homework while her roomate gets a little extra sluttier than usual. their mutual friend comes over, and they both convince the girl to quickly get ready and go out. the girl does not have a costume, so her roommate gives her a child size skirt and some devil horns. she reluctantly goes to the party, wearing a large coat but complaining the whole walk there. she right away feels out of place at the party. she hates parties. rather be at home doing homework she thinks. after a little bit, some athletes from a team are there. immediately, all the girls swarm around them. she sees one that she thinks is cute and keeps looking over at him. he looks over at her too. she decides to test it. she leaves and goes to the restroom and notices he follows her over to that side of the apartment.  she “accidentally” bumps into him, and they start talking. he gets her number, and she makes a quit getaway. she sees her tutor there while trying to find her roommate and their friend. she tells them she is going back, and she walks back all by herself. the athlete texts her to hang out,  but she goes to bed instead. 

it was my third time hooking up with this kid and so a bunch of my friends were at my house and he came over and so we went up to my room and we were just hooking up and he was like do you wanna have sex and he kept convincing me but I was not ready at all. then he pulled out a condom and was like trust me, it’ll be okay. so then I was like alright, and then during it I got super uncomfortable and made him stop, and then he got all mad and walked out.

the girl  found out that a boy she had sex with before she went to college was coming up to her college for the weekend. she snaps him and they end up meeting up to go to a themed party. her roommate and the boys friend as well as another friend and her boyfriend come along. they try and go to the party, but it was really hot and lame plus it was dry. so they leave. they try and find another party because the guys really wanted to drink. they are utterly unsuccessful, and after walking around EL in Risky Business attire, the friend and her boyfriend leave, and they are left trying to figure out their game plan. they end up in East neighborhood, frustrated as ever by how their night turned out. the girl’s roommate had been saying how she did not want to have sex with the boy’s friend, but she made it clear by the time they were all back that she wanted to. problem was that the boy did not have his Id so he could not get into his friend’s room. plus, the girl’s roommate “needed to get her birth control before she could do anything”. so the boy and the girl try and sneak into the friend’s room, but to no prevail because they did not have access to the floor. the roommate and the friend had gone back to the girl’s room, so they were already getting to it. the girl and the boy  decide to accept defeat and head back to the girl’s dorm. it was a long ass walk, back so they talked for a while but looming in the back of both of their heads was sex. at that point they were passing the botanical gardens, and the girl suggests they find a bench. they do it from behind several times. they pop a squat and talk more before heading back to the girls room. they do not cuddle, and she gets up early, showers, and leaves. 

then my friend came and got me and we went home because of curfew. we didn't have sex or anything.